went blog hopping today.
trying to get in touch w ppl's lives since ive got some time now..

its the MYE!
jiayou my dear dear students / tutees.
tho i think only 1 of the above will see this.
but yup.. thanks to mye.. my pace of life has kinda slowed a lil?
yeahhh. some breathing space n time for myself.
plus some stress. hehx.

anyways... bout the blog hopping....
blogs r good coz it helps u keep in touch w ppl.
as long as they update la of coz.

found out some stuff..
my friends are... either...
slogging away in various jobs
enjoying their work
wanting to change jobs
slog till they sick
slacking
worried bout uni applications coz no confirmations
worried bout interviews / went for them
got confirmations to various places..
enjoying life

one thing which i realised...
not juz recently... but quite long ago is..
tho i really love my job. have fun. together w some frustrations.
lots of laughter. joy. quite abit of OT.
LOVE my students / tutees...
im pretty much alone!!
ahhh. everyone has got colleagues!
but i? nope.
okay. yes i do... but well..
i see them like say once a week?
talk a lil / dun talk at all..
even if i talk to them.. i pretty much cant remb their names. hehx
sometimes not even their faces...
sorry. but.... not really my fault la.
amount of time spent w them each meetup = bout 5 min or less
n sometimes theres like random new faces... coz relief a teacher?
then those i see for a longer period... i meet them so rarely!
or rather... it depends on my assignments when i do get to meet them.
ah well.

all in all...
i wanna say..
i miss school actually.
routine. many many friends to do many many stuff w u..
work is v different.
walk off by urself.. meals urself.. sit ard by urself waiting for the time.
but i love working too.
coz each day brings me new surprises. new experiences.
new weird speech ive invented. new methods. new things to learn!

well... IM TAKING A BREAK TOMORROW!
from the usual sat day rush. thats y im here.
for those who know bout the movie date...
im not going for movie. coz of many many reasons.
tho im pretty much free this sat..
sorry.

i close my eyes n drift off to a world by myself...
rest now my dear.

okok i'll b going for camp tmr so to entertain those who have requested n3s..

ive been super bz. the 2nd last week as i said was a test filled week. went for vj choir concert which was awesome. fabulous. n my ngr sang a small part solo. sat went out with lsr to get present for someone.. n then after dat went for vj harmoc which was fun. with nice songs..

then last week was kinda bz.. bz with camp prep. for tmr.. but lessons were getting slack. like thur. ended at 130 n fri at 12. thur only had 1 hour of econs from 1230 to 130.. how irritating.. n wanted to support soccer but i had to buy logistics for fri's dry run for camp.

buying the logistics was quite fun.. coz we were making lots of jokes with the diff stuff we could do for camp.. hahaha.. looking at the diff food n then laughing..

fri's dry run for camp was super fun. esp a certain game where glr had to eat her most hated.. too bad cant describe anything.. actually can la.. so late liao doubt anyone will c.. but who noes..

sat had another precamp prep. n more logistics buying at vivo giant.. which was fun again.. haha.. with dvd n eu.

today went to make specs. argh. term 3/ june hols. c the new me. i want my perfect eyesight! argh.

n so now i'll b going off to sleep n get the rest needed for camp. i foreseee some tiring days.. nites

its been another long time ago since i blogged..
though im being plagued by the assignments n the terribly awful week next week.. i muz blog. getting too depressed. esp today? feeling down n sian thru the day.. till sfc? seriously thank GOD for being there all the time.. n my ever loving cca.

well the past few weeks haven been too bad.. or at least i think its not too bad.. coz of wad im foreseeing next week.

i remb going down to vj not too long ago for the sa/vj soccer match which was really breath taking. in the sense that it was freaking me out when they r scoring. haha. much better than last year's

n the labour day holiday which was more like.. LABOUR DAY a day to labour. bleah. went to eu's home to do some mugging n erh camp comm planning for events n stuff.. though brainwrecking.. but fun! laughed like mad. esp wasabi. n the games that followed it. lol!

thanksgiving for life concert n the video which brought back much memories of the hard work n the result.

n the rushing of the camp tee. or rather the school badge which killed me. took hours trying to make the colours uniformed. n to the colour of our tee design.. *hints* pls put a school badge with uniformed colours so that ppl like us making tee shirts have a easier job.. hehehe.
anyway. it was a job well done. or at least i think so. glad i finished it. phew. n im proud of my design! yeah.
n then going down to print the tee.

n chem spa skill a is over! no more chem spa! yeah. dats 1 out of 4 papers for chem done.

n now. for the week ahead. lemme rant out.
extra lessons extra lessons extra lessons..
tests exams spa. n more tests mocks n i what have yous.

mon. nothing thankfully. but i end at 1730 n i dunoo if there is chem make up still..
tue. phy spa. phy mock exam full paper. end at 1730 hopefully coz im watching vj choir concert. dun say i cant go n i need to study ok. i need a well deserved break. music develops the brain.
wed. chem lect test on ionic n electrochem. sfc. so ends at 1800? depends.
thur. oh another nothing so far.
fri. maths lect test. doubt i'll b studying much for that one.
sat. yup ure not seeing things. SAT. phy mock exam full paper. gp compre test.

look! *screams* *dies*

y aint there a rule to protect the health of the students? the welfare. the mentality. of the students. Y IN THE WORLD DO U CTAM ALL THE TESTS IN 1 WEEK?! n b4 that.. all seems so peaceful.
i miss cedar where there was the rule - max 3 tests per week.
now? 1 per day IF spreaded out. but no.


on a side note. theres so many ppl going for the jaw op im going for. how interesting.

its been ages. coz im stuck under a pile of work. burden. streessss.

lemme share with u.. my sad pathetic situation..

oh but b4 i do that.. its scary that our principal said on thurs she reads our blog. n esp bout the pw saga in our sch. hahx. shant complain bout that matter.. its pointless now anyway. no use dwelling on it.

yes back to my situation. sch was fine till my time table became from ending average day at ard 1500 to 1730 with lots of breaks.. n now its.. 1730 with reduced breaks coz of slotting in of extra lessons n extra tests after sch. econs remedial for all 1730 to 1830. dats even later than cca. but thank God dats on alternate weeks.. or else.. i'll only reach home after 1800 everyday.

next. 1 day 1 question for phy. 1 day 1 question for chem as well coz our class requested [though we complain bout the extra work we r willing. how contradicting]. weekend assignments for maths n they r not giving up on all public holidays as well [good friday n labour day. question.. aint labour day there bcoz we r supposed to have some rest after labouring for so long? oh well.]

then other than all the extra assignments other than tutorials.. theres the extra tests! excluding lecture tests.. we'll have.. 1 week 1 chem test. 1 week 1 econs essay test. n phy mock test nono. mock EXAM. yes i mean full paper.. on 15 may [from phy teacher] n 19 may [all phy students]. oh yes. its 19 may saturday! they aint gonna let us go~!! yyyyy. siggh.

im sad. i get depressed when i cant go home.. stay at school for too long.. reaching sch at 0700 n leaving at 1800.. 11 hours in sch. mon to fri. *cries* mayb i shd camp at sch.. is j2 dat taxing?

luckily for me ive got sfc! i really really muz thank God for sfc. coz i feel so peaceful with them. esp on fri. my best way of relaxing really. juz walking/shopping/eating/chatting with them. the few methods im left with de-stressing n the only time i can do so anyway..

but....... even though i complain. i seriously think that the teachers i have r awesome. for putting in so much effort for us.. coming up with all those questions per day. tests per week. assignments. n then marking them all! who says students get the worst of it.. i think the teachers do share our burden too.. so i really thank them for helping us n suppressing all that anger we cause them from our behaviour / horribly done assignments.. im actually touched that they are giving themselves extra work for us at the expense of themselves.. n having to deal with our lamenting of the hw loaded on us.. i really THANK GOD for the dedicated teachers that i have..

good friday was indeed GOOD FRIDAY! hahaha. [im getting lame n uncontrollably high at times]
on fri went for church service then met up with sfc ppl.. mchlchin, euz, ant, shnlim, dvdyeo n drl at the zoo! i wanted to go to the zoo with them in the morn.. but.. had to go for service.. well.. outside the zoo at the entrance was enough.. ahha.. had sucha happy feeling there.. so carefree.. mayb coz of all the lil kids running about laughing shouting n taking pics.. so cute.. then we took a group photo with shnlim on a rhino? n mchlchin commented today dat i looked very happy in that pic.. haha.. well i dunno..
after dat mchlchin went off n the rest of us went to cck to eat lunch.. n walked ard the mall while waiting for drl to leave cck with us..
so drl went to expo while we watched shooter. 1st time watch nc-16 movie.. ahhahaha.. legally. hahahah. when i said that.. b4 adding legally.. dvdyeo was like.. hmm marked improvement. ahahhaha.. the movie was good. though i was kinda like a scardy cat. haha. i have a weak heart.. hehhehehe.

yest i had an interesting chat with my cous. ehhehehe. tsk tsk. ^^

today was another day of gettin more stressed by the teachers.. mshuangkx: during the long weekend.. i thot bout it.. im gonna give u all an assignment everyday! >>> n u can imagine our reaction.. msklai: though ur class did quite well for bt maths.. u r not performing as u shd.. so im gonna give u all an assignment each week. >>> how great righhhhtttt. so coz of this im getting more n more stressed.. n i realised sth.. the more stressed i get.. the more i talk to myself n become lame.. or talk bout weird things..
n i seriously cant stand napfa. stupid ipu. juz coz i cant do ipu. argggh.

its only term 2 week 3.. n its already getting tiring.. n everyone is weary.. i c y they say its a big jump from o levels to a levels.. sigh.

well.. its half a year to the actual a levels.. so lets fight on to the end..

but really.. its so demoralising with the long days we have.. n also.. the additional lessons n tests our teachers r giving.. from many long breaks.. we have many lessons? i really need some form of motivation n encouragement..

blocks werent all that fab to tell me.. "c ure not too bad.. u can work at the same amt u did.." wad its telling me instead is.. "u need to work harder than this" oh well. i cant do anything bout blocks now.. i'll have to look forward n try harder.. study more? not that i didnt.. but looking back.. i muz say.. i did put in the effort. the hours of studying.. but the concentration wasnt there.
i'll work at it.. but remb dun fall again.. dun run out. can someone teach me how to not work too hard? lol how contradicting. *shrugs* i guess life's like dat some times..

seriously.. the extra lessons r pulling my spirits down.. i look at my timetable.. think of the sch day.. n i juz sigh.
ahhhhhhhh. i cant b like this. in times like this.. i really muz b leaning on God's strength, hope n power. this i really muz work on..

fri was life con n yes! our efforts paid off..

life con day was a happy day.. juz worshipping the Lord.. n being super high! ushering was as usual kinda i dunno wad im supposed to do.. but who cares.. seeing all the ppl coming in all excited.. its nice.. n then during the concert we went to the front.. singing/shouting the song.. i dunno which coz theres this speaker right in front of me. towards my left.. suspected i became partially deaf in the left after dat.. but. i was totally fine! yeah..
the concert was awesome! jumping n singing.. forgetting the fact that my ankle is not totally ok? ahha.. it didnt hurt at all. yeahhhh... n listening to the band sing.. esp char.. *mesmerised* but im used to her singing already.. so ehh.. hahah.. but coz of her.... demand curve got shifted to the right.. wahahahaha.. powerrr. ^^
after life con we had supper.. at macs.. coz dat was the only place left to eat. hah.

oh. n eu kept saying wanna go out on sat.. but in the end.. she was too tired.. ahhaha.. myself included.. slept till 11++ heee..

today's pe was 2.4 coz the weather was good.. n then i ran with my juz recovered ankle.. didnt dare run.. 1st round everyone chiong-ed i got a shock.. i was like.. okkkk... n then i didnt plan to take my actual 2.4 today.. so kinda ran slower... after finishing 1 round.. mrkhoo was like.. eh can or not.. run slowly ar.. then 2nd round.. he was like.. eh. actually can leh.. 4min 50s if u try actually can.. i was like.. uh huh. in the end i completed at 15.50 juz nice a C. ahaha.. thank God.. if not C im gonna re-run.. which i dun want to do.. so great.. 2.4 over.. left 5 items.. ahh. the dreaded ipu.

lots n lots n lots have happened since i last updated.. so much that i can hardly remb..

dance pracs into the evening.. getting back late at night... n then exhausted by fri.. dats gone by so fast for dunno how many weeks on weds n thurs.. now its all ending.. coz the performance is on thurs.....

mugging during the march hols in the various places.. mostly woodlands lib anyway... that has gone by..
n of coz.. the block test 1 is over on fri... n ive already got back 2 papers... maths n phy. how fast eh. n i thank God for my results..

then not resting a moment... was life con rehearsals... on the fri that we finished our papers.. we started our full dress rehearsal on fri.. all the way till late nite... same on sun.. from 1230 till 2230 n back in sch at 0700 on mon?? practicing for dance n prep for all the easter week stuff..

yest. i. erm. hmm.. missed a step when going down the stairs at some peak hour or sth.. coz i managed to jam up the whole stairs n attract alot of attention.. felt so paiseh.. n so i injured my poor ankle.. 1st thot when i fell was.. i wanna dance! its on thurs!!! ya.. so i limped away? luckily not sprain n not serious.. right now its juz a lil swollen.. i'll b fine by thurs!
i still danced for the dance prac in the cc yest.. 2 times only. i think i kinda aggrevated it coz it was really hurting when i went home.. oh.. n i reached home at 2200++ again..

today. i was limping ard. n im finally home earlier. ard 1800? glad to b able to rest my tired ankle..

oh my new timetable is erh. good? in the future.. but bad now.. coz of the afternoon pe from 1630 - 1730 on mon n tues.. n i longgg 2++ hour break b4 that.. hopefully after napfa no need go.. yay.

n yes.. thanks to esp to my sfc friends who totally rock.. [news spread super fast.. all like noe i fell down like dat..] n all so concerned ^^ love them lots.. n of coz those classmates who helped me at the stairs when i fell.. n asked if i was better today ^^

i realised.. as u grow older.. lots of things do happen in ur life.. unexpected. shows how much u shd treasure those around u n remb that life is precious/fragile. pray that things will go back to norm for them asap..

sorry for the disorganised post. n a post almost void of emotions.. i guess im really affected by the news i heard today..

anywayyyy... dance for chapel up reaallll soon! n so is life con. cant wait. it'll b awesome! n i can finally take time n rest good.

hie all!!! no im not MIA. im juz BIA [bz in action ^^]

there was...
CNY eve. where i spent the whole day sweeping n mopping the whole house. im proud of myself ^^ yay!
chu yi-1. bai nian-ing. visiting my dad's side.. n then my mum's.. collecting ang baos n catching up with cousins..
chu er-2. spent the day doing our properous CNY hw given by our dearest teachers......
chu san-3. visited aunt's house. chatted loads w mldlee n showed her the dance i was learning...
chu si-4. back to sch. w 20 min jog to burn fats [from CNY goodies] for pe.. sfc min time n easter dance which is fun n yet draining.. returning home at 2100+
chu wu-5. more sch. dental.. ive upgraded to putting elastic bands.. dance prac was satisfying! we almost finished.. left a lil portion in the instrumental part! yay.. returned at 2200. n continued mugging for econs which i squeeezzeeed time in between breaks to study.
chu liu-6. some more sch. w econs test n the current affairs quiz which i nv ever do well in.. haha... sfc! easter week prep. prayer meet. n fellowship! fei-lou-ship. hehehe.. at ps.. returning home at 2200 again?
chu qi-7. finally! i can rest n sleep. sat is my sleep-catch-up-day plus clean-my-room-day.
chu ba-8. buffet at intercontinental w aunt's family where we ate lots n chatted =)

today its already chu jiu-9. n sch again... ipu. argh.





many things have happened.. n im so caught up in it..
sigh.. i really dun want to b juz so caught up in the world dat i live in.. bz running around doing errands.. but life is like that.. aint it?
well.. sfc has really made me think twicelots.. so wad do i want in my life? wads my purpose in life?

i haven been updating!!!!!! ahhh... coz life has been bzbzbz... no time at all!!!!

i cant remb wads been happening coz its been eventful this year.. weird la.. y this year so many stuff.. or issit like dat?

hmm.. im losing touch with blogging.. mayb i shd juz keep my own personal diary.. coz i wanna keep those memories.. n i can look back to them.. dat'll b nice..

oh yes.. memories.. my bro was clearing stuff n he dug out a pri sch year book.. coz its our pri sch 80th anniversary then or sth.. n theres our pri 5 pic! so funny la!!!! ehhehe.. we all look so.. erm.. i dunno how to describe.. haha..

i'll c bout updating the past next time..

brief of the past:
gp movie day was amusing.. n the movie was not too bad..
vday was shockingly good.. didnt expect certain stuff..
easter dance prac will b killing me soon.. but i noe i can do it.. coz its for Him. im an inexperienced dancer with blue blacks! rahh!
cny celebrations had nice performances

going out later for osj's bday party.. n then cant wait for cny but dreading the reopening coz i foresee myself being exhausted......

xcountry, sfc.. n more sfc!

hmm.. ok.. past few days have been eventful.. so i shall zoom past the rest of the days..

mon didnt go sch. n had some random call from a pri sch fren whom i nv ever talked to? to go out to talk n eat?? i was like huh? ok.....
so tues after sch went out n got "conned" hahx. hahaha.. but learnt some interesting stuff...

wed was x country.. at ecp run 3.6km.. so mchlchin, nwl n me decided to jog the whole thing.. then we jogged.. n slowly we passed dvdyeo, drl n kvnc... sigh.. slackers.. walk the whole 3.6.. so no face.. haha.. finished the 3.6 without stopping! yay.. feel so accomplished! ^^
after dat we had sfc bonding! played capt ball.. yay fun.. other than falling at the end of the game.. pain! landed on my left hand n left side of butt.. sustaining painful injuries.. painful blueblack.. it was like faint green then... today its... erm.. this colour? actually darker...
after dat some of them went cycling or blading... n i hanged out with those at the blading ring.. n got to cycle awhile coz cy decided he was tired.. n i was having a fun time cycling coz the bike was so smooth! n i bladed coz rchkoh decided to stop.. haha... so fun la..
then i chionged to vj.. hehe.. n sneaked in n chatted to the ppl there n had lunch too! hehe.. those who recognised me.. were like.. ?! y r u here?! yada yada.. super funny.. ahha..
i realised how tired i was when i reached home.. i ran / cycled / bladed for at least 5km in total la..

thurs was yet another tiring day... had the normal sch day... n then stayed back for easter week dance prac.. started at 6!! at diocese centre.. did admin stuff like choosing songs, splitting into 2 groups n arranging dates... i forsee bz bz weeks ahead... then we started prac.. so ballet-ish.. i really cmi!! ahhh.. i cant b graceful la.. n im bad? i think.. muz prac more! n remb the steps..
i reached home so late! for a day with sch the next day.. sigh.. n i was exhausted.. super duper exhausted.. slept like a log. n realised i didnt move at all when i slept!! i found myself waking up in the same position...
oh yes.. i sustained more bruises from the dance prac.. n i was rolling on the floor in the room.. n turned the wrong direction on my giant bruise from wed.. n ahh!!!!! pain! extremely pain la.. sigh..

today had gp presentation! yea.. im over n done with it.. had sfc again.. worship workshop.. interesting n learnt lots of stuff.. highlight for today was.. fei-lou-ship [fellowship] after sfc! went to macs n have dinner... had a long crapping session.. laughing, making lots of noise n juz having fun n enjoying ourselves.. slowly.. grcyew, kvnc n mchlchin left.. n the group of ppl in macs left was lcp, dvdyeo, shnlim, rchkoh, glry, eu n me..
we played truth or dare truth! was fun la.. the rules set was no sensitive issues n no names.. in the end.. i realised.. hahaha.. totally off track liao.. thru dat game.. we got to noe the ppl more.. yay! bonding! ^^
i love sfc! ^^

my blog is dying. haha. high time i blogged..

well.. mayb ive been getting too tied down with work. sch life. the boring mudane life im so tired of.. really tired.. pls bring me revival!

well last week.. was a bz week? piles of work now? or mayb coz im doing tutorials? haha.. well.. im more hardworking this year la.. so spend lots of time doing sch work? hmmmm...

sfc on wed was orientation! had lots of fun meeting juniors, remembering names, playing games, eating pizza! lol.. sfc on fri was some personality test thing n i found out im a grape! "we gather in bunches!" lol.. the people people.. more than half? of sfc r grapes.. n we had to split into 2 groups.. n there were only 3 oranges? ahha.. poor them..

sat went to unsw asia open house with tsh! ^^ so nice to c her.. the open house wasnt that fantastic.. not many ppl there.. n i pity the 987 djs there.. talking to almost themselves? learnt bout the unsw asia.. wad their strengths r.. the system, sch fees, the foundation year.. the one which alot of ppl go after Os to aust for.. so next time lesser ppl will fly overseas? coz they can do that here? i thot dat was good lo.. n the most interesting one was bout the "exchange programme" they had.. after 1 year in the sg campus.. u can go over to sydney to have 1 or 2 sem in that campus.. so it was quite nice.. but i wun b going there la... dun have the course i want..

sun went mugging with tke. n his frens.. kinda weird.. coz he didnt intro us till like i dunno how long later.. ahhaa..

tues i went mugging with tke again.. n he told me in advance he'll b in formal wear.. i was like.. okay.. can.. i thot.. hmm shirt n pants.. ok. so i was in macs studying alone 1st.. then suddenly this guy with white long sleeved shirt n a black formal jacket n pants came over.. i was like.. *shakes head blink eyes* ?!?! wah.. ur formal really formal leh.. hehe... n we studiedd.. nono.. more like.. i studied.. n he played his laptop? nono correction.. his bro's laptop.. hahaa..

yest's pe was the best i had the whole of this year.. yay! match against 06a05. floorball.. 1st time our class played.. we lost. but we had fun.. n anyway they had pro hockey players.. hehe..
had sfc n we did more interaction... some weird question card thingy.. n my 1st card was.. i wish to marry someone who is... i was like.. no!!!! 2nd card my biggest lie was.. i really cannot remb!!!! mayb i dun wish to.. ahha.. n the 3rd was i cant remb wad.. but anyway that card thingy abit morbid.. alot of die die die.. n negative things.. wonder who made them.. hmm.. n we had this lesson from the book - the book of james..

today after sch we did the sfc board.. was quite ahh! at 1st.. haha.. discussing with the mentors n other sfc ppl.. but it turned out nice in the end! outstanding.. can c from the opposite.. at the staff room side.. so big n clear! whee... n sth weird happened.. hmmm..

kk dats the rounded up bout the past week which made me dying now.. lack of rest, overload of work or sth..

money issues r giving me a headache. ive collected so much class fund n paid for so many things. driving me crazy... dun even dare to collect money from the class now.. i pray that God will give me wisdom on how to collect the money from the class.. n that the class will b understanding..

i also wanna pray for strength to carry on each day cheerful n glorify Your name.. n forget certain things..

n i really wanna thank God for my good results for the tests the weeks b4.. ^^ n juz protecting me each day..

long time no post.

i guess.. blogging is lost from my world now.. lots of things r lost actually.. ive lost touch with myself. the happy me. i think. at least i feel so.. nvm.. shall not dwell on that..

last week has been the normal hectic jc life. normal school day with mad pe sessions of running 3.2km each time on the 1st 2 pe lessons. n then the chem test which i almost died studying for.. rushing the few days b4..
n of coz my favourite part of sch.. sfc! wed was brainstorming for orientation game for a certain game.. n also some cellgroup leader workshop thingy.. fri was cca walkabout day.. so they had to set up booth.. but i missed it coz of dental.. but i managed to rush back in time to dry run orientation games! whee! fun! anaemia n charades.. quote of that day from lcp our treasurer. during anaemia where we have a name pasted behind our backs n r supposed to ask ppl yes/no questions.. so our dear lcp was asked by kvnchew some question.. n lcp went to his back looked.. wad is a skunk ar? lol! we really spent a good time laughing at that.. celebration of bdae was fun as usual ^^

on sat sfc went to city harvest church for delirious concert. was cool. met up with kyr! ^^ n after service we went for our dinner at changi village.. was a mad bus ride.. lots of bumping.. n someone almost flew out of her seat.. haha.. n dinner was ermm.. a group of ppl staring at the tv.. coz of.. soccer. n the rest chatting... n watching live comedy [shnlim, dvdyeo n rchlkoh eyes not leaving the tv.. n then goal!] thank God the was one non-soccer-watching guy.. hahaa.. or i would think all guys r mad bout soccer.. hahaa.. reached home lateeee. coz we were so far.. i wonder wad time drl reached home..

today was ok. n sad. coz mchlchin sick! booo. haha.. maths test phy test over. n for pe.. we ran 2.4km this time.. phew. n we had a challenge against mrbsoh's class.. hahaha.. captain ball.. our forte lehx. but seems like we abit rusty.. or coz we r 2 man n 1 woman down.. so we had a tie. i wish pe was back to mrdng's time.. games everytime!

time to study for econs test tmr..

hiatus for promos. - its a really short one.

okies today was the 1st paper for promos.. thanks to the mentors for their ever thoughful pills for anxiety.. aka jellybeans.. lol. so cute.. each of us had it.. 4 each.. 'take 1 tablet daily to ease anxiety' lol. from the sajc mentors clinic.. n instead of *this drug may cause drousiness.... its '*this drug may cause inges of colour on tongue. if affected do not be alarmed. effects will wear off in 30 min.' lol!!! mentors rox.. n not forgetting.. they r affiliated to sfc! haa.. n they gave each of us a special pack with timeout marshmellow n biscuit. with best wishes. thank you!

1st paper.. gp. is over.. who cares if it was tough n everyone felt like dying coz they knew it was badly done.. its over n u cant do anything.. i decided to leave the rest to God.

anyways wadeva it is.. ive got a week without sch.. study break. b4 starting again on tues for the rest of the promos..

i shall b determined n switch on dat mugging machine.. so no being online. i shd b able to..

but b4 i decide to go on dat 1 week hiatus. no make it 2 weeks.. i end on the 6th.. i shall leave with my last post.

wad i want to do after promos! *ignoring the fact dat theres brainwrecking pw*
recreate my blog temp.
draw lots. for designs n wad have u..
cut my hair
play ran!
n of coz saving the best for the last.. going out to have fun! shopping! esp with bacy. ^^
n hopefully sth more than wads mentioned

btw if theres any sfc ppl who reads this blog which is a minority.. i gave kvnc the tee design le.. so go n c!

alrites then. i'll b signing off. God bless for all doing promos/exams/wadeva else dats big enuff to b bothered with. ahha.. [covers everything eh?]

cya soon!

ps. ask me out to study! msg me or sth. i dun think i'll b checking cbox if im not coming online. hehx

draining week of 0700 - 1800.

someone commented dat my blog was dead.. haha.. yes.. so true.. but i dunno wad to update.. life is getting so very very mudane n routine.. even funny incidents dun feel dat funny. its rather numbed.. hmm.. muz b the promos getting into me..

anyways.. if u read the prev n3.. u would noe my week.. but its worst then dat.. it was ultimately draining.. its like in sch for 11 hours. from mon to thurs. actually today also supposed to.. but. i couldnt take it anymore.. yesterday i had 'half a sore eye' dunno wads dat supposed to b.. but yes.. it was half only. funny la.. it was like red.. not sore.. only when i reached home.. yeah. then it was worst.. tried to nap.. but eh. failed attempt.. juz lay on my bed resting.. then studied for my phy n chem test.. till 12. resulting in waking up looking at the myself with really puffy eyes with dark rings n both eyes red. i looked horrible.. haha.. so i left after phy makeup.. didnt stay for sfc studying. im so glad i didnt.. coz i reached home at 4!! omg so early. lol. i meant comparing to the rest of the week i reached home at ard 7 or later.. so yeah.. its kinda good for me. slept for 3 whole hours..

glad dat the week is over. but on another note. no. haha.. coz mon would b the start of promos.. or shd i juz say its gp.. coz after dat got 1 whole week free.. b4 starting again on tues. hmmm..

oh n i saw jnhng again.. butttt. he dao-ed me this time. boo. i smiled to him la.. but he no reaction.. haix. i think coz the other time i dao-ed him. oh welll..

n erm.. dunno whether this is a happy or sad thing.. but erm.. i chanced upon this song - i want you by savage garden. brought back so many happy yet sad memories.. coz its one of the fun vj mass dances missd it so.. wanted to do the dance.. but eh. hmm.. as if i can remb like dat. haha.. sighh. stop thinking bout vj la. dumbo.

make-ups tests more make-ups n tests. though its 10 days away.

promos r coming.. so everyone is getting stressed out.. or trying to focus? n same for all other ppl having exams..

blogs filled with im going on a hiatus but still blogging/online. sucha irony.. others say man. im so stressed out. blah blah. hate this hate dat. n there r also those who cant seem to feel the urgency n trying hard to focus n study hard.

dunno y but its always this period of time i look forward to so much.. its the time when u noe the year is ending n after the period of stress u get to juz feel so relieved n great.. coz u get to go out. chiong wadeva u wanted to do so much. to juz play thru the night.. n enjoy urself without any worries..

its also the time when ppl study so hard like they've never done b4.. to reach their targets.. n its the time when i would get out of home to study with frens.. its a wonder how studying becomes part of my unforgetable memories n so cherished.. i mean its like.. u get fun while u study in groups.. coz u have company.. together u go thru the toil n agony. in the end its all worth it.. coz u c the results n u can look back on the time u shared suffering together.

hmm.. wonder y i get such weird perspectives.. y im always optimistic.. though actually im kinda stressed out n dying inside.. muz b the Lord's work in me. the everlasting peace n joy. v^^v. yay.

anywayyyy.. i didnt mean for a meaningful n encouraging n3 for ppl to wah. i shd study harder.. but i wanted to say.. next week is sucha dreaded week! haaa.. yesh. next week. i'll b super overworked. juz like wad mchlchin n me were chatting about yest. we dun work 9 to 5 okay. we work from 7 to 6! n to think theres like labour exploitation. wad bout us? haaa.
ok.. off track. yes next week.
mon norm sch till 1345. econs make up 1415 to 1615. gp compo mock 1630 to 1800. [tues we already had sucha dosage. n i really went brain dead. n now again]
tues norm sch till 1545. im glad theres no make up or so i remb. but theres maths lecture test dat day.
wed norm sch till 1415. n theres maths class test on integration. econs make up lecture 330 to 1700. [dies onces again]
thurs norm sch till 1445. phy spa. phy make up tutorial 2 hours most prob 1700 again. [can bring sleeping bag n camp overnite le..]
fri norm sch till 1245. chem class test on thermo after sch. wah seh. then stay for 'sfc study camp'!? okay i doubt not.. i'll be exhausted by then.

look at dat la.. dats like the week b4 gp promos.. n makeups crammed up with tests. n they want us to study. yeah. like after 12 hours of sch by the time i reach home im deadbeat. thanks la.

so im left with 10 days to gp. n a week after dat to chem n the rest.

wadeva it is.. im sure He'll give me the strength..

oh btw.. i hear ppl playing mahjong. i think. its distracting.. n so is this com. n pw is giving me a reason to turn it on which makes it worst. bah.

today is the 2nd day of the 4th term! time flies la.. 1 more year n its like almost the end of jc life. oh man.

anyway.. yesterday according to my mum i was looking rather happier than usual. hmmm.. mayb coz i went for dental? but i dun c the link. oh well..

got to change colour! yay. but erm.. going dental= more pain. lol.. coz change the wire n then tighten. wahhhhhh.. this time when she twist the ligament i almost screamed out.. so painful la... n also she added the 2nd set of back braces.. so now more abrasion n ulcers. bahh. ouch.

today is sucha long day! norm lessons was enough to kill from 0745 till 1545. then adding on to it we had chem spa. n current affairs quiz which i died.. hehx. n gp compre mock test!! from 1615 to ard 1800. tell u ar... brain dead brain freeze esp in lt ava which was freezing. then after dat went to visit dv at his home. though i was so tired.. oh we went coz he got fits yesterday.. freaky la.. according to descriptions of my frens who were there..

im glad i did go visit him.. we had sucha a nice time chatting n laughing n joking ard.. was great unwinding there.. as its said.. laughter is the best cure! haaa.. we had a fun time with our tic mrlimcs n all the other sfc ppl who went over to visit dv. hope we didnt disturb his rest.. anyway lucky him got mc till fri. haha.. n i love his bear!!! so cuddly. hehx
oh n thanks for ur hospitality! for the food drinks n tour. n causing the noise pollution.. hope we didnt bother ur family n neighbours.. hahaha..

went home with most of them on bus 147.. was kinda touched by shnl.. haa.. coz nv ever has someone been so concerned bout me going home alone so late.. actually not too late la.. only 10+ los. but is like so far no guy ever asked if need to pei wo go to my home dat side. yeahh.. so it was nice of him! thanks!

this is one of the few times i went home so late when theres sch the next day. hmm.

after a long time we had our [h]acy..

im kinda shagged.. haha.. then y aint i sleeping?? haa.. so early wake up for wad... lol i cant sleep le.. woke up n couldnt get back to sleep.. too cold. i think i need more blankies. ahha..

yesterday was a happy day in the end though we kinda went into this really sad/sian mode..

it was a rainy cold morning. n had to go to sch for celebrations.. thot yesh! no aces day. so great.. but the clever sch decided to let us wait in the cafe till 815 b4 telling us.. oh. pls go to the cc. okayyy.. n then so cc we went. where we waited again. n then they said. oh. we'll do aces in the cc! argghh. nvm.. its kinda fun.. but w/o crazee frens.. its not as enjoyable as it shd have been..

performances was rather enjoyable.. i cant really remb wad happened actually. hmm.. i only remb there were weird awards n the wah. dance by myself. noooo not me but i meant the grp is called myself.. haha.

rushed back to cedar alone. supposed to go back with ani but she was waiting for her 4m class or sth like dat.. so i juz walked to sch quickly.. n on the way i met cyl haha.. so we walked together.. n on the way into cedar i met my sec4 band senior! lol. i was like.. sl!! haa.. n we had a nice chat..

going back to cedar.. i didnt really get to chat to the teachers.. but seeing them was good enough. meeting up with 4pians was joy! n hugs! haa.. oh not forgetting i met other good frens too.. n seniors.

after dat wyt n me left our sch with happy memories for orchard.. we went to far east.. n on the way.. we were walking.. n suddenly dunno y we were like aiya the teachers all go grand hyatt hotel for their teachers day lunch.. n then.... juz at dat moment. we walked past this hotel. n wah la! grand hyatt!!!! loll. so wanted to crash la. so we 2 went shopping ard far east n we met quite a few cedarians.. n not forgetting.. i met dant!!! haha.. i was walking out of this shop.. n !!! hahah.. was warming yet a sinking feeling at the same time.. seems like they r doing really well in vj. man. its ok.

then met up with anl! yay.. n we found somewhere to sit down n we chatted bout stufff. hee. which kinda spoilt my day. but. it didnt really actually.. ohh.. n we managed to persuade mao anl's bf to come.. n we came up with this stupid but fun plan.. ahhaa.. to exchange uniform with anl so as to c if her bf can recognise her.. since anl n me were of about the same size.

n so we went walking ard while waiting for him to come.. walked ard cine n heeren.. n met like SO many ppl. n ppl were like. isnt she from ny n isnt she from sa. wah. n the mud brown uniform without a tie is weird! at least i felt weird.. n the funniest thing was when we were looking at some things in this glass display thing.. n suddenly this person came so close to me n looked at the stuff too.. so i was like.. who is this la! ka jiao. hahaha.. n turn. hyq! omg.. hahahha.. she was like. wads with u all la. lol. coz wyt was in cedar u. anl in sa. me in ny. we think we in 1st 2 months. lol. more like last 2 months.. anyway.. she was like.. omg i couldnt recognise u all. lol. coz of us in the diff uniform. heh.

finally. he arrived la.. so we went to orchard mrt.. on the way we were like planning.. ok. wyt go look for him n anl n i go stand somewhere. n we exchanged bags. so i was standing there looking at the board. n could c like reflection of ppl behind.. n then heard wyt say. there.. dats anl. n he asked.. where anl. lol. n repeated. i was like. fail le la.. laughhhhhh. omg. haha.. i knew it los.. i saw the expression on his face.. n was like. oh. so u r chrl? lol yes.. n then he asked again.. so where is anl?! hahaha.. so funnyy.. n then we asked him to find her himself.. n then he stared at her for so long. lol. he said he recognises her hair. n mine aint like hers. finee.. haaa.

n off we go.. n the 1st stop for me was. TOILET. lol. haha.. i didnt want to continue being a ny-er. haa.. n meeting ppl like my seniors on the way to change. was bad! n wyt said when we finally changed out.. luckily u didnt go in the toilet later coz.. this bunch of sa ppl came out of the guys toilet.. i was ohh myy.. phew.. scarely is my frens or wad i sure die.

after dat was like.. really walking ard dunno going where n chatting.. so we decided to find somewhere to sit n chat. n dats when we all got a bit. sian. stone. die.

then we decided to eat. luckily then we were more lively.. n oh.. taka said. its closing.. so we had to go.

reached home with tired soggy feet. yucks.

today aint a good day.

woke up a bit too early. lol. out of point.. but as in i could have slept more. then dunno y like tired tired de.. then cannot really balance as i walked to the toilet.. i thot oh.. mayb coz a bit groggy.. too tired..

but nope i was wrong la.. is like seriously dunno y like lightheaded like dat.. then cannot balance.. can sometimes walk le then dunno y not walking straight.. then keep feeling like falling like dat.. then sometimes like got flashes of black.. n doing norm stuff like bending down to take milk out of fridge. stand up again i woah. off balance again.. n juz blinking a bit then lose direction.

i thot aiyah nvm la shd b juz a lil dizzy. dun care.. juz go sch.. shdnt have la. today the longest day somemore.. oh well.

assem wasnt really listening.. was more of concentrating on standing. telling myself to not faint.

then 1st lesson maths was like really.. wah.. cannot absorb.. when ppl talk like make me very fan n luan like dat.. n lying down on the table i could almost juz black out anytime. 1st time ok. no matter how hard i try to sleep during lessons i nv can.. dunno y. unless im like super sleepy then a bit of nodding.. but i wasnt sleepy at all.. i was juz whirling n couldnt concentrate.. abit cannot balance like dat.. even on the table i felt piao piao de. haha.

but after dat i was like ok la. or at least i said i was n though i wasnt really. only after break then i was norm.

sometimes i wonder.. y do i always act jian qiang?.. i could go home n rest.. y do i act like im strong when im weak? y pretend its nothing when actually it matters to u?

i remb reading sth dat said sth like "those dat pretend to b strong outside r actually weak inside" which i think its very true.

other than me feeling unwell.. there was dat bad news which reminded me of sth which happened b4.. n a very dry day of lessons. n a bad scolding during gp. sigh.

but i was kinda high after sch ended.. haha.. nwl said mayb to make up dat i was low this morn. hmm..

sav opening ceremony

wanted to blog bout this yest.. but had to rush stuff like EoM yesterday.. yah.
so here goes.

sat was sav opening ceremony with dua pais coming.. so of coz it was a BIG event.. like as they said.. how often do these kinda things happen?? dats really true.. how many times will u open a new sch?? totally new building? n somemore its a village. with kindergarten pri sec n jc. all in one.. at least its connected by a bridge..

so anyway.. in prep for this really grand thing.. the sch did lots.. like finally putting up signboards. when its like term 3.. n when we 1st enter the sch everyone is like totally lost? so clever la... okay.. n then touching up the lousy workmanship though the sch was only built less than a year ago.. theres like cracks. so repainting had to b done.. n then putting up those kinda banners n stuff which is understandable.. n the really nicely done benefactors/donors board with landscaping.. n for this event they really went all out! lol. like cleaning up the river. its like so clean la.. no rubbish.. n also repainting the bridge linking from potong pasir to the side gate.. benefitting the public too.. but erm. the paint ar.. kena the plants la.. pity them.

prep done. rehearsal. on fri.. i dunno y we had to have a rehearsal la.. i meant for ushering.. stand there n wait? for wind to blow by? oh well.. to give us an idea how it'll be ba.. but we waited for dunno how long to do it yeah.. juz like wad someone said.. a waste of resources.. haa.. n the one on the bridge is kinda funny.. 3 ppl stand on overhead bridge.. not the sav bridge but the one near to toa payoh side? ya.. n someone said. y muz usher them? u mean theres more than 1 way to walk across the bridge??? lol.

okay to the main thing.. all dressed up. i met my fellow sfc ppl at pp macs n we ate lunch.. n rachk was there n so was her sis.. n the cool thing is.. shes my junior n she recognises me.. at least found me familiar.. haa.. i think its always so juniors remb seniors n seniors dun remb.
n the highlight of macs was... rachk called out to this guy.. n i was like. wait.. dat name. n rachk was like hes now in r no vj now.. i was like! r u in s53???? lol. could c how stunned he was.. haa.. n of coz i had to intro who i was la.. n we chatted a while.. lol.. i was super high n random then.. haha. i think he muz b thinking this gurl is mad.. im glad shes no longer in vj. lol. whatever he was thinking la. haa

so b4 gathering with everyone else in lt1.. ctw n me camwhored. heee.. n the others who were there.. so fun.. rare opportunity kay. in blazer. haa.. ive yet to get pics from her..

then the actual thing of standing there at the pillar between the orange n red rooms.. at 1st kinda nervous.. i dunno y. but i was la.. i was unsure how to smile.. lol dats weird.. its coz of my braces la.. i dunno how to really smile with it on.. everytime i try smiling i feel fake/unnatural.. i saw it myself la in the mirror.. yea... so i was like later guests get a wrong impression.. ahha.. oh well. starting kinda lil ppl.. n i was so sian.. but later more guests came along.. n after like standing for an hour i was like.. oh my! my feet! legs.. in court shoes! so painful la.. numbed le.. n wearing the stockings made my legs so itchy.. n finally got a break.. n as i tried to walk off.. i was like ouch. stand too long nv move.. then felt like me feet got stuck to the ground n the toes stiff le.. haa.. i think standing not moving is worst than walking in court shoes..

then after the break was a LONGER period of standing.. n the most crucial part of my ushering.. coz minister gonna walk past.. n yeah.. b4 i even saw him coming.. a mass of ppl came holding cameras n videocam n mikes either of them la.. yeah.. so it was like hes coming.. dashes forward n then slowly after the group of media.. i saw the minister n our p n a whole lot of others.. so it was my turn to do my job of greeting loudly [the teacher in charge told me to do so he felt its too soft. hmm.] n smiling really happily.. which i did so to everyone who walked past.. n after dat i moved to the gallery stairs dat side.. waited for them to place the time capsule n stuff.. n then walk to junior sch side.. at the field there was the ruggers who did their battle cry.. n i could hear them.. but all a beat slow.. lol.. like when they hit their laps nth n then lift up i heard *piak* lol. n the ending they supposedly jumped up n shouted up n on at the same time.. but i only heard it when they landed.. LOL.

n then the crowd from cc left n had to walk past the gallery to sas to have their super grand dinner which had fantastic food i heard. coz i didnt have a share in it. boo. wadeva it is.. its like this sudden surge of ppl coming from up the stairs n from the balcony.. was like. ermm. how to greet ar? but anyway.. the best part was.. mssleong came! whoots.. n she was 1st few to walk past n she recognised me! n said hi n asked how i was. whee.. happy. haa.. n saw my neighbour too.. but he didnt c me la. aiya.. if not could have hitched a ride home from him. haha..

after dat was our sad dinner cooked by the muslim food stall auntie. n our pathetic dinner.. we werent even provided drinks la.. how bad can it get? n we r like impt ppl to usher ppl in? coz we give them impression of how saints r supposed to b like.. yeah rite.
took more pics (: with my gleaming braces. i hope.

then back to duty.. which in the end was no duty. lol. funny la.. n then luckily we ended early.. at 7++ reached home 8++ shagged n acheing feet. ouch la. so glad i decided to go to sch in my shoes not court shoes.. or i would have died going home.. lol.
oh adding to the feet. my cheeks felt numb too.. haa.. from smiling too much.. the unnatural smile with braces is kinda difficult for me.. not used to it yet.. n saying at least a hundred times of good afternoon/good evening.

so dat was a day gone from my weekend break. supposedly.