friends

oh on a side note.. i saw tsh's blog today. n i saw my name in caps. lol! no thats not the point. she was saying sth bout our 11 year friendship that we have.. amazing. oh yes.. n that makes me feel kinda old too..

back to the point.. its really cool to still keep in contact with pri sch friends.. n even meet up.. n r so close still.. we can like dun talk to each other for like half a year.. n then when we meet up.. we can juz talk for ages n still feel like the bestest friends we had in our lifetime. like we have never ever parted.. still as close as before..

n i met louilee on train today.. one of my hws friends.. n we chatted about pri sch.. i feel quite sad that she no longer contacts any of her pri sch friends..

but i realised she aint the only one.. theres many who have lost contacts with their friends.. be it pri sch or sec sch.. or even 1st 3 months..

i feel sad for those who have lost contact.. coz u only narrow ur circle of friends n u miss out on the wondeful feeling that.. u have a friend who has been beside u for so long.. juz quietly supporting u in everything u do.. even if she/he doesnt know what uve been up to..

well i think that friends are really important in life.. though many say family is more important coz they are the ones who wun leave u in times of need.. i still think friends are equally important.. mayb u'll say im simplistic or i haven experienced enough to c the true colours of friends.. but i still want to stand firm on my stand.. bcoz in the future.. when u look back on life.. its ur friends who give u this peaceful n heartwarming feeling when u reminisce together bout the times u had together.. doing the stupid things, going through the hardships, n of coz those happy times.. these experiences shared is something special between u n that particular friend. but of coz.. u have those with ur family members as well.

so my point is. i treasure all my friends. i like the fact that ure always there even if our friendship has gone stale.. its easy to rekindle that love for each other.. that link that we shared.. juz by looking back together.. having that nostalgic feeling [which doesnt really describe what i want to express totally].. n then we can look forward together or juz enjoy each other's presence. its juz this comforting feeling u get.

so to all my friends..
even though we get caught up in our lives.. too bz for one another.. dun meet up at all.. or dun talk for ages.. i still remember u. its juz being pushed out of my mind coz of the things in life muddling up my memory. though i may not say it.. but i do think n i do care bout how u r when u pop up in my mind.. n i seriously miss all of u.

its been ages. coz im stuck under a pile of work. burden. streessss.

lemme share with u.. my sad pathetic situation..

oh but b4 i do that.. its scary that our principal said on thurs she reads our blog. n esp bout the pw saga in our sch. hahx. shant complain bout that matter.. its pointless now anyway. no use dwelling on it.

yes back to my situation. sch was fine till my time table became from ending average day at ard 1500 to 1730 with lots of breaks.. n now its.. 1730 with reduced breaks coz of slotting in of extra lessons n extra tests after sch. econs remedial for all 1730 to 1830. dats even later than cca. but thank God dats on alternate weeks.. or else.. i'll only reach home after 1800 everyday.

next. 1 day 1 question for phy. 1 day 1 question for chem as well coz our class requested [though we complain bout the extra work we r willing. how contradicting]. weekend assignments for maths n they r not giving up on all public holidays as well [good friday n labour day. question.. aint labour day there bcoz we r supposed to have some rest after labouring for so long? oh well.]

then other than all the extra assignments other than tutorials.. theres the extra tests! excluding lecture tests.. we'll have.. 1 week 1 chem test. 1 week 1 econs essay test. n phy mock test nono. mock EXAM. yes i mean full paper.. on 15 may [from phy teacher] n 19 may [all phy students]. oh yes. its 19 may saturday! they aint gonna let us go~!! yyyyy. siggh.

im sad. i get depressed when i cant go home.. stay at school for too long.. reaching sch at 0700 n leaving at 1800.. 11 hours in sch. mon to fri. *cries* mayb i shd camp at sch.. is j2 dat taxing?

luckily for me ive got sfc! i really really muz thank God for sfc. coz i feel so peaceful with them. esp on fri. my best way of relaxing really. juz walking/shopping/eating/chatting with them. the few methods im left with de-stressing n the only time i can do so anyway..

but....... even though i complain. i seriously think that the teachers i have r awesome. for putting in so much effort for us.. coming up with all those questions per day. tests per week. assignments. n then marking them all! who says students get the worst of it.. i think the teachers do share our burden too.. so i really thank them for helping us n suppressing all that anger we cause them from our behaviour / horribly done assignments.. im actually touched that they are giving themselves extra work for us at the expense of themselves.. n having to deal with our lamenting of the hw loaded on us.. i really THANK GOD for the dedicated teachers that i have..

good friday was indeed GOOD FRIDAY! hahaha. [im getting lame n uncontrollably high at times]
on fri went for church service then met up with sfc ppl.. mchlchin, euz, ant, shnlim, dvdyeo n drl at the zoo! i wanted to go to the zoo with them in the morn.. but.. had to go for service.. well.. outside the zoo at the entrance was enough.. ahha.. had sucha happy feeling there.. so carefree.. mayb coz of all the lil kids running about laughing shouting n taking pics.. so cute.. then we took a group photo with shnlim on a rhino? n mchlchin commented today dat i looked very happy in that pic.. haha.. well i dunno..
after dat mchlchin went off n the rest of us went to cck to eat lunch.. n walked ard the mall while waiting for drl to leave cck with us..
so drl went to expo while we watched shooter. 1st time watch nc-16 movie.. ahhahaha.. legally. hahahah. when i said that.. b4 adding legally.. dvdyeo was like.. hmm marked improvement. ahahhaha.. the movie was good. though i was kinda like a scardy cat. haha. i have a weak heart.. hehhehehe.

yest i had an interesting chat with my cous. ehhehehe. tsk tsk. ^^

today was another day of gettin more stressed by the teachers.. mshuangkx: during the long weekend.. i thot bout it.. im gonna give u all an assignment everyday! >>> n u can imagine our reaction.. msklai: though ur class did quite well for bt maths.. u r not performing as u shd.. so im gonna give u all an assignment each week. >>> how great righhhhtttt. so coz of this im getting more n more stressed.. n i realised sth.. the more stressed i get.. the more i talk to myself n become lame.. or talk bout weird things..
n i seriously cant stand napfa. stupid ipu. juz coz i cant do ipu. argggh.

got back all the rest of my papers today.

*fast forward*

went for dental after sch.. today's dental was kinda weird? no no.. more of.. different from usual.. coz my teeth moved too fast.. moved too down.. so she has to pull it back up a lil by using that odd tooth as an anchor. but weird thing is she said.. good that my teeth moves fast coz gives her less problems? but she has to do extra to pull it back up? hmm.. contradicting or not? haha.. n then she didnt ask me wad colour i wanted!! she juz said same colour.. boohoo.. but nvm.. next dental 4 weeks time.. n ive upgraded!!! lol. my wire upgraded to the rectangular one..

after dat went to peninsula to meet lcp to buy hr's prez... got to interact alot with lcp during that period.. n learnt alot bout him.. its interesting to find out... he likes to go shopping too!! hahaha.. he finds it happy to go shopping! yay! n he wanted to eat some beer battered fish from chirppy [sth like that..] opp. the raffles city's donut shop with a LONG LONG q. the donuts look tempting... ahhh.. but the smell not too alluring.. then while waiting for his food.. 2 ppl said hi to me.. how interesting.. juz standing there waiting i can meet ppl.. oooo. how cool. anyway.. after eating we went home..

i felt happy shopping.. dats y i love shopping coz it makes me happy. stress relieving. joy promoting..

i realised this post is rather high.. muz b making up for the low-ness i had juz now.

its only term 2 week 3.. n its already getting tiring.. n everyone is weary.. i c y they say its a big jump from o levels to a levels.. sigh.

well.. its half a year to the actual a levels.. so lets fight on to the end..

but really.. its so demoralising with the long days we have.. n also.. the additional lessons n tests our teachers r giving.. from many long breaks.. we have many lessons? i really need some form of motivation n encouragement..

blocks werent all that fab to tell me.. "c ure not too bad.. u can work at the same amt u did.." wad its telling me instead is.. "u need to work harder than this" oh well. i cant do anything bout blocks now.. i'll have to look forward n try harder.. study more? not that i didnt.. but looking back.. i muz say.. i did put in the effort. the hours of studying.. but the concentration wasnt there.
i'll work at it.. but remb dun fall again.. dun run out. can someone teach me how to not work too hard? lol how contradicting. *shrugs* i guess life's like dat some times..

seriously.. the extra lessons r pulling my spirits down.. i look at my timetable.. think of the sch day.. n i juz sigh.
ahhhhhhhh. i cant b like this. in times like this.. i really muz b leaning on God's strength, hope n power. this i really muz work on..

fri was life con n yes! our efforts paid off..

life con day was a happy day.. juz worshipping the Lord.. n being super high! ushering was as usual kinda i dunno wad im supposed to do.. but who cares.. seeing all the ppl coming in all excited.. its nice.. n then during the concert we went to the front.. singing/shouting the song.. i dunno which coz theres this speaker right in front of me. towards my left.. suspected i became partially deaf in the left after dat.. but. i was totally fine! yeah..
the concert was awesome! jumping n singing.. forgetting the fact that my ankle is not totally ok? ahha.. it didnt hurt at all. yeahhhh... n listening to the band sing.. esp char.. *mesmerised* but im used to her singing already.. so ehh.. hahah.. but coz of her.... demand curve got shifted to the right.. wahahahaha.. powerrr. ^^
after life con we had supper.. at macs.. coz dat was the only place left to eat. hah.

oh. n eu kept saying wanna go out on sat.. but in the end.. she was too tired.. ahhaha.. myself included.. slept till 11++ heee..

today's pe was 2.4 coz the weather was good.. n then i ran with my juz recovered ankle.. didnt dare run.. 1st round everyone chiong-ed i got a shock.. i was like.. okkkk... n then i didnt plan to take my actual 2.4 today.. so kinda ran slower... after finishing 1 round.. mrkhoo was like.. eh can or not.. run slowly ar.. then 2nd round.. he was like.. eh. actually can leh.. 4min 50s if u try actually can.. i was like.. uh huh. in the end i completed at 15.50 juz nice a C. ahaha.. thank God.. if not C im gonna re-run.. which i dun want to do.. so great.. 2.4 over.. left 5 items.. ahh. the dreaded ipu.