some time ago,
my heart raced.
my heart skipped a beat,
many beats in fact.
you gave me a shock.
the sudden action.
you held my hand.
you held my hand.
no, you held my hand.
now why is that different?
it is different from others.
you held my hand.
i stared.
i stared at our hands.
i stared at you.
i repeated the actions.
i froze.
my heart raced.
my mind raced.
my mind went blank.
"so that's how it feels"
i thought.
"that's my first time"
"isn't it?"
"but no, that is strange"
"there's nothing."
"no feelings"
"it is the act of it"
strange huh.
the act.
just the act of it.
i wonder why.
i wonder if you knew.
i wonder if it was planned.
i wonder if it was so as you said.
i was scared.
it made me more scared.
but yes, reassuring too.
how strange.
till today i cannot comprehend it.
nothing changed.
but in that moment in time.
my heart leaped.
today i wish.
i wish something like that happens.
not you.
but the act.
it is strange.
i'd like to ask.
but i'm afraid.
afraid of the answer.
afraid of a miscommunication.
afraid of the consequences.
afraid of reality.
i want to know if you feel this way too.
or is that just me?
or i haven't realised
the actuality of the situation.
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