hello.
today. ok, maybe yesterday.
we did what we've been doing.
it feels wrong really.
but its feels so good.

and i (maybe we) just can't help it.

but.....

we really shouldn't huh? :(

i realise.

day by day...

i'm falling.

falling deeper and deeper.

so much so that...

i can't stop myself anymore.

teach me.

how do i

stop this.

to stop this feeling i feel.

so that i can...

not feel this guilt, this pain.

i think i

am becoming

more and more

addicted to

you

i can't help

really can't

stop thinking

and wanting

you

i know it

is not love

but it is

also not

anymore

i can't

differentiate

and i can't

not wonder

if i would

fall

i really

wish i could

stop myself

having this

feeling

i desire

and i get jealous

and i get bitter

and i get stuck in this rut

i recall back and i'd say

"don't go. stay. don't go. don't leave me."

you'd say

"i'm here. i'll always be here."

but i know

in the end

you won't.