today aint a good day.

woke up a bit too early. lol. out of point.. but as in i could have slept more. then dunno y like tired tired de.. then cannot really balance as i walked to the toilet.. i thot oh.. mayb coz a bit groggy.. too tired..

but nope i was wrong la.. is like seriously dunno y like lightheaded like dat.. then cannot balance.. can sometimes walk le then dunno y not walking straight.. then keep feeling like falling like dat.. then sometimes like got flashes of black.. n doing norm stuff like bending down to take milk out of fridge. stand up again i woah. off balance again.. n juz blinking a bit then lose direction.

i thot aiyah nvm la shd b juz a lil dizzy. dun care.. juz go sch.. shdnt have la. today the longest day somemore.. oh well.

assem wasnt really listening.. was more of concentrating on standing. telling myself to not faint.

then 1st lesson maths was like really.. wah.. cannot absorb.. when ppl talk like make me very fan n luan like dat.. n lying down on the table i could almost juz black out anytime. 1st time ok. no matter how hard i try to sleep during lessons i nv can.. dunno y. unless im like super sleepy then a bit of nodding.. but i wasnt sleepy at all.. i was juz whirling n couldnt concentrate.. abit cannot balance like dat.. even on the table i felt piao piao de. haha.

but after dat i was like ok la. or at least i said i was n though i wasnt really. only after break then i was norm.

sometimes i wonder.. y do i always act jian qiang?.. i could go home n rest.. y do i act like im strong when im weak? y pretend its nothing when actually it matters to u?

i remb reading sth dat said sth like "those dat pretend to b strong outside r actually weak inside" which i think its very true.

other than me feeling unwell.. there was dat bad news which reminded me of sth which happened b4.. n a very dry day of lessons. n a bad scolding during gp. sigh.

but i was kinda high after sch ended.. haha.. nwl said mayb to make up dat i was low this morn. hmm..