oh man tired! though i already slept alot to catch up on sleep.. but still. tired. look at my eyebags! ahhh. ugly ugly ugly! save me! *pouts* oh well. God will take care of it.. i pray for nice eyes again! ^^ haha. i shd refrain from being vain.
on a side note.. dvd says im super high
anyway.. its june! today is 1st of june! how fast!!! ^^ yay. juneeeee.
so camp was over. n i kinda died. with 5 hours of sleep on 1st night n 1.5 hours on 2nd nite. but i reached home n i slept in the afternoon for 3 hours n 13 hours at nite. hmm. but dun seem to be helping.. mayb i need to get back to routine or sth..
anyway camp. was awesome! 3 days. but not enough leh! i wanna have more sessions n games. learning more n juz dwelling in His presence. n with my BIG FAMILY! sfc! we rock!
lets start with sessions.
listening effectively. learnt quite abit.. like deciphering the voices.. n how to listen to His voice of coz. the still small voice. i guess ive got too noisy a mind n soul. muz really quieten down. i cant really take too much silence.. ahh. but if i wanna hear Him i have to do so.. alright! so its time i train myself!
praying effectively. this one was great. overwhelming. esp during praise n worship n prayer at the end.. i think almost all of us went up.. i duno how to describe the experience.. but im sure its the beginning of sth. i'll continue to pray n believe in much more faith. discussion was really a time where i felt my some of my burdens lifted away from me. shows me how much i need to repent n how its good for my soul.
spiritual gifts. wasnt there for the whole session coz had econs lecture in between. but i think ive yet to find my gift yet.
girl/guy matters. didnt learn much from that. coz kinda basic commen sense. we noe how to dress. guys i dunno wad happened but they said like quite duh.
workshops!
listening effectively. wasnt there but heard it was real fun. n good.
endurance. was kinda tough. didnt try though. but looked really tiring.. i commend those who perservered. n i learnt sth. i make a bad 'devil'. they said i was obviously smiling. bah. but its good on the other hand.. means im a good girl! haha..
humility. was prepared but not done. boohoo. but the flour + water mixture created by drlc wasnt wasted.. hehx.
monopoly. was kinda sian for me coz i was jail warden.. but it was nice to tour around. n b a onlooker..
but i thot workshops was a lil wasted.. coz they all know their lessons already! cannot trick them or anything. wonder if they learnt from the worshops..
for me i did. coz i learnt during the dry runs n planning.. we did lots of brainstorming on whether it'll work out or it suited the lessons. which i gained much from the discussions..
games!
ice breakers. double whacko. i feel safe with jnnk! shes like calm n composed.. unlike ln who screams only. haha. was interesting... macaroni game was fun! n i got bought into another kingdom *pouts* but i made myself slave again to return to GAP! ^^
wet games. was in charge of body parts with drlc. was kinda yucky. the flour mixture. dirtied their clothes la.. all the dried up flour.. minesweeper seemed fast. dunno wasnt there. sponge game looked hilarious with all of them with sponges on their heads.. cat fight was amusing! our soaped canvas wasnt in vain. the soap mixture with drlc's feet. hehx.
candle game. had some trouble. in the end we still played. wonder if they enjoyed... i remb having much fun in that game last year.. too bad no time for them to complete the whole game.
dry games. 3 way captain ball. messy as ever.. haha.. dog n bone/fear factor. funny! their reactions! shd have video-ed it down.. esp when cryss ate the fav oreo. both at 1 shot.. n then. poof! wasabi! haa. n cocoa powder was equally funny. but kinda scary coz they like choked.
sardines. i juz patrolled around. so nth to say.
night activity. persecution. starting seemed failed. but in the end. seems kinda hiong. quite a few broke down. n the torture chamber was. scarrrryyyy.
i love my mortal. shes so cute. her reaction when i said my mortal was super classic.
other than all those fun part.. of coz there were the stressful parts where i had to control my emotions. kept myself awake thru the nite for evaluations. n breaking down completely. but really thank GOD for juz seeing me thru all those. giving me friends who supported me. juz that sentence of 'r u ok?' was good enough.
the worst part was of coz the part where i broke down completely. being log head really stressed me out.. even juz the start of the camp.. rchlkoh saw thru n said.. 'r u stressed with log?' 2nd nite was when it all came down on me.. someone was injured n needed a 1st aid kit. n we didnt prepare one.. n it didnt help when my partner havent been doing stuff/taking initiative. i had to remind him or sth i dunno. not sure. n when they needed the 1st aid kit.. he wasnt there. so i had to bear the "consequences/burden". it juz worsened when they asked so.. the persecution game.. we r using.. i was like. stirrers! oh no! they r in the gym?! wad. ahhhhhhhhh. then they were like. so u left it at the sajc side la. [we were in the diocese/other side of the sav. n the bridge locked] i was like. ok. i'll check with my partner. so i walked off towards the dorm. knowing obviously there werent any. dunno wad to substitute. thank God that dvd came along. coz i juz cried. n then everything a whirl. i remb going to the toilet n falling to the floor n crying n encz praying for me n taking teeshirts from dorm n passing sth for some angel to some mortal n sitting at the steps. totally lost it la. n many saw. kinda paiseh but touched too. esp ant she said 'seeing u sad unlike ur normal cheerful self i feel so sad too' almost cried again. but that would have been dumb. plus with everyone there. haha. no.
learnt alot but learnt in a bad way from that painful lesson.
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