shi bai pri sch gathering.. haa..

yesterday was fun! haa..

though the turnout was pathetic.. haha.. 5 of us only.. hahaa.. seriously funny la.. only tsh tyy cywh n tke n me went.. hahaa.. pri sch gathering of 5 n only 1 guy out of the 5.. ahha..

so we went to rent the bikes.. n set off on our way.. cycling along ecp was quite terrible but really enjoyable.. haha.. so contridicting.. i mean.. terrible coz it reminds me of the many memories i had at vj.. all the times we spent there.. the bridge which led to vj.. ahh.. the xcountry route.. slv.. times like dat.. haix. then also its great cos of the ppl im with.. my pri sch frens.. n then we get to enjoy the wind blowing thru though its rather sunny n hot.. the cooling wind blowing into ur face.. n then chatting bout stuff..

along the way cycling we met another pri sch fren.. haa.. so qiao.. then cywh left n joined them in kayaking.. while we cycled on all the way to the end of the ecp cycling track! so cool.. dats the 1st time i did dat la.. haa..

then cycled back towards shop.. while cycling.. we had many many many interesting topics.. ranging from sch to i dunno wad.. haha.. then stopped along the way for ice cream break! haa.. n tsh is so funny.. wanted to buy another drink.. n then was like searching thru her wallet for money.. n realise if she buy the drink she'll b left with 20 cents.. haha.. so tke being the very nice gentleman treated us all to drinks! yay.. haha..

then finally reaching the shop.. we returned the bikes n waited for cywh to come back... coz she took a very longgg time to return.. we got entertained by the bike rental ppl.. ahhaa.. interesting.. n it was the 1st time i experience ppl trying to promoting rental of the bikes.. haa..

so after dat we ate at macs... n tke n cywh's frens had to leave.. but they dunno how to go.. me being really nice.. haha.. dunno y.. said.. aiyah.. i bring u guys there la.. haha..

chatting ard in macs... we decided dat it was quite bad to take up the place there.. coz alot of ppl lorx.. so we decided after a long while dat we shall walk to pp.. i mean parkway..

the stroll there was really nice with the cool breeze blowing by.. except the part where theres some kinda construction going on.. block all the wind.. bleah. ahah.. so reaching pp.. we saw bubble tea! n we decided to buy.. hehx.. 1 buck.. compared to when bubble tea was the in thing.... when we were in pri sch.. the price now is so cheap! haa..

then we strolled in pp with nothing better to do.. haha.. juz walking then looking at random stuff.. n erm chatting more.. haha..

after trying very hard to zi pai 4 of us using tyy's zi pai cam.. we went home..

yay! got ppl go home with me this time.. ahha.. so we chatted lots.. bout pri sch.. bout sec sch.. bout jc.. n someone from my class.. her ex classmate.. haha.. then tok tok tok.. n then.. suddenly found out 1 of my og mate is my pri 1 classmate!! omg. so shocking sia.. kept laughing then.. haha.. so cool la.. reach home go online.. ask him.. n he was like also dio stun.. hahaha..

haix.. next pri sch gathering.. when we have it.. i hope it'll b many times better than this.. haha..

slacking away my march hols...

mon was interesting.. went holland v for the 1st time.. with anl n wyt.. n anl's fren mvs yeah.. had lunch together.. then he left liao.. for his dental n stuff.. dunno la.. haha..

the rest of the day at holland v we were crapping like mad.. n then catching up with scandals/gossips whichever u prefer to use.. haha.. n then sharing all the weird stories...... haaa.. gurls.. wad can i say? haa..

then we went cafe visiting? haha.. keep going to the diff cafe n sit down n eat.. seriously dat cinammon bun rox! haha.. yummy..

then looking at the state of holland v esp the shopping centre.. we decided theres really nth there.. so we left for marina sq/suntec

there once again we went shopping! haha.. i finally bought anl her bday pressie.. n then oh.. the 3 guys.. hc n a haha.. damn funny.. they tio stunned when they saw wyt in her hc uni.. haha.. hilarious la.. oh n b4 dat.. the starring incident! we were going up the escalator.. when i noticed this guy starring at us.. n he looked familiar... then i saw a someone who looks like spy from the back! haha.. then confirm! its vj ppl!! haha.. no wonder look so familiar.. ahh.. so nice lor to c got vj ppl ard. haa. im mad.. then dunno wads up with wyt.. ask us stalk them.. ahha.. n yeah.. its her..

after dat went to suntec to meet wyt's hc frens.. yeah.. they r pretty.. n fun to b with.. n then we went on bout our frenster link thing again.. i find it really amusing.. haha... find out dat we r all linked to each other..

oh n the icandy at subway.. so paiseh la.. haha.. anl n i keep hoping to c a orange shirt again la.. haha.. so funny..

we ate dinner at kenny rogers.. not bad.. haha.. n then we went on asking u noe this person dat person?? hahaha.. quite funny..

tues! haha.. i spent the whole day in front of the com playing ran online. haha..

yest. went out with jy.. tried to teach maths.. but erm.. dunno wads up with hc's maths la.. so weird one the ques.. all duno how to do.. make us feel so depressed. haha..

then last nite.. i dunno y.. but i kept dreaming of my vj classmates.. i remb an excerpt of me asking this sas guy dun u feel attached to ur sch? i dunno y i asked dat but anyway his reply was no.. then he asked me back then wad bout u n ur vj frens.. i was like yeah! of coz.. n then started mentioning names.. n suddenly when i mention i cant remb whose name.. my whole class appeared in front of me..
its kinda weird.. in fact really weird.. but it tells alot.. it shows how much i miss them.. but i find it not really realistic.. its like.. i dun remb missing my hws cedar frens so much.. i mean i dun have like dreams bout them.. issit coz i really loved the vj experience i had there?? or issit coz our frenship was supposed to b a 2 year long one.. as in we r supposed to spend 2 years in the same class.. but it was shortened.. n so i long so much to return to vj dat i miss them so much?
n the weirder thing is.. the memories with them is only limited to like 2 months?? n memories with hws is 6 years! n cedar 4 years! how can dat compare??? its not making sense to me.. oh well..

im left with 4 days! for this really slack march hols.. without any hw/burden/cca! whee..

thinking on the long bus ride...

today went to changi holiday flat for some facilitation training workshop by svc... it was really interesting... n i learnt lots from it! its gonna be really useful for yv n many other stuff! oh yeah n saw hm.. he looked so diff now... haha.. the power of ns..

then the ride home was super long... i mean.. it was really sian la.. night time.. then the bus very lil ppl.. so lonely... dun really like dat kinda feeling.. makes u think alot..
everytime im all alone.. taking a long bus ride.. esp when its nite time.. it sets me thinking.. thinking alot.. reflecting.. its good in a way.. but really saddening...

this was wad i thot on dat bus journey.. i think.. i haven really seriously been happy after Os were out.. the smile i have on my face.. was.. seriously. forced.. i spent the last 3 weeks in vj acting happy.. it was really painful.. n now i regret.. y didnt i treasure the time in vj? but it wasnt ez... i couldnt bring myself to enjoy.. couldnt be happy.. taking photos was kinda painful.. esp with the vj ppl.. it was forced. damn forced. so fake.. i cant believe myself.. going to qjm's blog.. looking at myself.. i saw thru it.. the eyes were dazed.. n the smile.. was juz smile n nth else.. there was no joy in me.. juz heart wrenching pain.. an act. all on the outside..

right now... im glad.. im over dat phase.. in a norm state.. not so the cheery me.. but happy.. enough to enjoy everything so far...

im thankful for my sa og.. coz of them i felt comfortable in sa.. yay! n now i can enjoy the rest of my jc life! n also bacy of coz.. always lending a listening ear! haa..

o2 in sa...

orientation in sa got better as the days went by.. mayb coz it was orientation.. or mayb coz ive accepted the fact i can no longer return to vj.. or coz my og was really nice.. n now i have frens.. or juz coz i was happier? [ i dunno.. my frens said i looked happier on wed... hmm.. i guess so.. ]

orientation day 1 was erm... not too bad.. other than the fact there was way too many wet games.. n erm one was totally gross.. eeks.. dunno y im juz so sway / mayb lucky in a way.. everytime theres like wet games.. its ard the same time of the month.... argh.. unable to enjoy the fun of wet games.. bleahh..

we started off with some ice breaker games n cheers n mass dances.. the mass dance there is really simple.. very repetitive.. nth much.. cant b compared to vj's i muz say.. then was all those wet games.. my og was kinda dead.. i dunno y.. was really very acted enthusiasm... hmmm.. n mayb dat explains y we lost all the games except 1?? hmm..

day 2 was much better!!! haa.. is like we had cheering n my group was kinda enthu.. n then mass dance learnt the pair dance... games was really the best! we won all except 1! haha.. cool.. total change from the day b4.. n then disco nite [more like disco afternoon or evening] haha.. anyway.. it was chao high!!! juz jumping like mad.. oh n jsm came!!! ahhhh misss her soo! i screamed when i saw her.. n we hugged.. i looked mad.. hehx... disco nite was madness... n we cedarians formed a clan at a portion of the hall.... hahhaha..we rulez! so it was the end of orientation.. n we had og dinner after dat..

yest.. was the LAST n FINAL day to wear my beautiful blue blouse grey skirt n grey tie with yellow stripes! omg its a beautiful uniform.. i cannot deny dat.. everybody juz loves the cedar u. haha.. so yup.. also the last day of term.. dat really set me thinking... thinking bout the past term.. mostly in vj... how it passed so fast.. coz of the many hols.. n the fun we had in vj... how i loved the homely place there.. the frenship forged. i loved the time there..

okay so dat day in sch was juz talks talks n more talks ya.. n lots of ponning.. haha.. got to noe my cg too.. the night was fun.. went for sa og bbq at shng's home.. lots of chilling ard.. joking... was relaxing.... a bonding session with my ogm! my 1st few frens in sa.. other than the cedarians.. yeah! im thankful for them.. coz of them.. i felt at home in sa... =)

oh b4 og bbq.. i went spd for the 1st attachment.. was really interesting....... the ppl there.. cant wait for the next attachment!

oh yes.. im amazed by the popularity of some certain guy in vj... coz apparently.. this other vj gurl who went to sa also.. my new classmate.. other than comparisons of vj to sa.. she asked bout him! omg. i cannot believe it.. was laughing when she asked me.. hahhhx.

yeah.. so dat sums up my 1st week in sa... how i made myself comfortable there! yayx... its all thanks to my og! hee..

sa boot camp!

exhausting!!!

gosh im in a really sick sch... haha.. y did i choose to go there in the first place???? haha.. shd have gone along with most of those who couldnt go back to vj.. aj. haix. along with cedarians n principal! haha..

but well.. i decided to go to sa.. haa.. i'll enjoy it la.. i shd say so.. coz thinking back on wad we did juz now.. its really rather fun!.. really i muz say so.. the time we spent together in the 'boot camp' haha... okay now to elaborate..

12 hours of boot camp.. started with a norm assembly.. n explaining rules of wearing the sch uniform.. haha.. interesting.. then going for some uniform changing parade or sth la.. ask us change into pe attire in 5 mins... whole batch! so everyone who was guai n wore sch uniform to sch flocked to go toilet n change.. n me being the well trained cedarian i juz went to the toilet n juz did our norm classroom changing.. haha.. brings back many wonderful memories.. n haa.. all the cedarians there also like so happy like dat all laughing.. then we changed super fast.. haha.. i came out n my fren was like.. dats fast! hahaa.. then we were asked again n again to change from uniform [which is juz putting on skirt/pants] to pe to uniform to pe.. within 5 mins first then later 1 min! omg. damn irritating la.. haha.. but we did it.. n it was a great feeling.. haha.. then from push ups to silent jumping jacks ending all at the same time.. real cool.. haha.. then principal tok bout sch mission stuff... was really long... n some values workshop..

lunch. erm rather more like tea break.. cos our lunch which was provided was.. biscuits! great! n im having this persistant cough since dunno when.. but i managed to survive on the biscuits!! haha.. coz we had lots of time after dat.. we played some wacko.. haha.. very funny.. coz alot of us still didnt noe each others name.. then keep on.. who ar? n then got some sabo incidents.. haha..

okay.. final challenge! this was it! the terrible boot camp training which injured me [knees palms n my arm bleahh.. abrasions.. all the skin all rubbed off la..]
yes.. so we were supposed to make a structure to carry the chosen one all the time.. shes not allowed to touch the ground.. yes.. so up all the stairs n stuff.. the guys piggybacked her.. so shuang la.. haha.. but we chao xin ku...

so yes.. we made this structure thingy aka stretcher.. n then carried her 2 rounds round the track.. jogging! yeah.. tiring.. n then some guy carry her up to the tennis court all the way up.. where we played caterpillar? sth like entangle.. was okay.. then down to the spider web.. n carry ppl over.. including the chosen one with the stretcher.. then another 2 rounds round track.. n then 1000 push ups [collated amongst the 25 ppl in og] meaning 50 each.. then 1000 crunches.. n another 2 rounds [we went 1 round... shhhh..].. by then seriously dead beat... bleahhh.. then some sit on each other for 1 min! siao.. knee ache..

more pt.. did 500 step up.. 200 chin up [which we cheated alot.. hahaha..] oh yes.. for these.. assistance was allowed.. haha.. so chin ups basically most of the guys did la.. erm they stepped on another 2 guys.. put hand on bar.. then up down up down.. ahhaa.. n then we shouted for them.. ahha.. n this guy did over 100 chin ups!!! ahhahah.. damn funny sia.. n then our counting rox! 28 29 30 41! n also 68 69 70 81! hahaa.. n across parallel bars n monkey bar was basically carrying each other over la.. hahah.. funny.. lifting logs actually only like 12 ppl did la.. n we said all done! rubbish.. ahha.. n then up across the stone wall.. we basically stepped on this human stairs! haa. thanks guys.. n really sorry.. bet ur legs hurt now.. n when i went down dat was when i hurt my arm... pain.. then 1 more round.. n the rest was a blur.. walking up stairs n down stairs.. juz kept following liao la...

n then go home.. i was kinda in a daze... haha..

ahh.. i guess tmr im gonna b aching..

at least ive had 2 months in vj.. ive had my fun time there.. i'll juz miss it alot..

i feel like crying.. but i noe.. i shdnt.. coz ive already cried alot when Os was out..

oh well.. i'll look on the bright side.. n enjoy sa life.. yarh.. at least i wun b the small fish in dat big pond in vj now.. haa..

to all my vj frens out there.. i'll miss u!

2nd intake...

2nd intake 1st day today in sajc. bahhhhhhhh..

lets tok bout yesterday 1st.. yup. went to sentosa with my vj 06s53 classmates!!! omg i miss them so much!! haix..... okay. yes.. didnt really do much actually.. played ball games.. volleyball la.. then the guys dumped each other into the sea.. n erm gurls too.. but i didnt bring extra clothes la.. if not i wouldnt mind actually.. ahha.. then sat ard chit chat.. made this 3d o6s53.. ya..
then went for dunch [lunch cum dinner] at pasta mania.. went esplanade n took some photos... sat ard.. yah lor.. like dat.. not much.. mayb cos i wasnt really in the mood? not really happy u noe.. haix. ya... aint much better today..

yes today.. going to sa was kinda weird... too many buses to take.. was like wondering if i shd board the bus or not.. haa.. weird.. then saw pri sch fren on bus going ny.. n went to sch with more pri sch frens.. haa.. funny la.. like mini hws gathering? haa..

sch started with me feeling really weird n out of the place.. dun fit in.. damn lost.. dunno wad to do n ya.. juz lost. n the 1st intakes juz stick to themselves.. ya.. having own cliques n stuff.. so im like left to myself to figure the place out myself.. bleah

started off with principal speech n stuff like dat.. subj combi.... blahh.. siann..... sitting in the cultural centre.. thinking its the pt.. looking at the other ppl in sch hoping to meet someone i met in vj.. going to the canteen looking at the prices thinking its ex. as compared to vj.. trying to get to places n juz getting lost.. walking along the corridor so spacious.. wonders y vj one like so cramped.. the sa campus is bigger i think. ya.. yes im making comparisons.. i cant help it.. im juz so into vj...

juz b4 sch ended at 1145.. we had this sorta icebreaker or more of juz intro each other kinda stuff.. n then they said i put sa as my 1st choice cos.. blah blah.. n also im from og 17.. damn.. heard dat too many times.. n i was one of the last few.. n feeling really weird.. cos i said.. i didnt put sa as my 1st choice.. or did i say i put sa as my 2nd choice? i dunno really.. n i said cos i was in vj for 1st 3 months n i like it there n im appealing back.. was a really terrible feeling.. aching feeling in my heart... argh.

n after sch.. 1145.. im like some wandering soul walking ard.. trying to find someone.. damn left out.. all of them going out with cg/og wadeva la. eeks. n me left to myself.. luckily theres gct who pei wo.. haha.. cos she also like me.. 2nd intake de...

then since sch ended so early... i keep having this strong urge to go back to vj n go for orientation.. anyway its orientation still!! till 1730.. issit? ya........... haix. hope tmr orientation is fun..

so down.. being a 2nd intake sucks... but im appealing! hah. n i'll return to my class.. will i?

posting... for now only.. i hope...

yeah... so today was the posting results... yup.. n as i said b4... i'll say again......

its confirmed.. im posted to sa..

so all those vj ppl who hate me.. congrats! haha.. wadeva.. n those who love me.. sorryyy.... i didnt get thru.. haixx.. BUT!! im appealing!! yayy.. haha.. i will prayyyyyyy super hard.. to get back in... so for now.. as in till mon.. miss me okay??

yeahh.. so i went to appeal early in the morn.. bout gonna 10 like dat.. then as i walked out of home.. haha.. saw my neighbour running.. training bahh.. haa.. funny la.. appealing too.. shall pray for him.. haa..

reach sch.. omg.. quite scary la.. coz is like keep seeing ppl walking out of sch liao! n then in sch alot of ppl appealing too.. hopes super low.. but.. i'll continue praying still haha.. mrharcg was really nice.. gp teacher too.. help me write the comments stuff.. hehx..

alritexx.. i shall juz look forward to a brand new sch compound on mon then! yay.. new building.. newfacilities.. new frens! yay..

this i wad ive got to say to u.

haix.. i dunno wad to say bout today. bout dat thing.. i juz noe this n3 is gonna b a long one...

anyway.. to those concerned.. i noe u noe who u r.. yeah.. hope u r reading this...

i dunno wad to say bout wad u ppl did.. its alright actually.. coz anyway i didnt noe wad u ppl did in the 1st place.. till.. yar.. i dun even noe wads the purpose of wadeva uve been doing so far.. so u ppl can continue to do wad u r doing.. wad u r thinking.. i wun bear grudges or anything.. i wun make u my enemy.. or wadeva. i dun believe in dat anyway..

seriously.. u ppl dun have to feel bad i mean like.. its not like ure the only ones talking behind my back.. i mean.. theres always those who will hate u no matter wad u do.. n those who cant have enough of u [ok dat sounds wrong] but really.. i wun put wadeva u guys did to heart.. anyway in the 1st place i dunno wad u guys said.. n so it doesnt really hurt.. n even if i knew wad u ppl said. i would juz b wondering wads wrong with me? wad did i do to make ppl think dat way.. so.. yeah.. its ok.. n also u were willing to own up? erm ya.. okay even if only 1 person told me. yes. erm anyway i dunno who else was part of it. yeah. so dun come to me tmr n start saying sorry cos i really dun need to hear it.. in fact i dun want to.. cos i rather not noe.

so yes.. dats it. gone. yeah. no grudges. though it did trouble me alot during maths lecture till i didnt noe wth i was listening to.. but i got it figured out yah..

oh yes another thing.. when u read my blog.. pls note.. im really ambiguous in wad i say here... so if u misinterpreted my prev n3.. to lead u to think dat i noe sth. sorry.. coz u c.. i cant put everything out.. as u noe.. its a public blog.. n anyone can read. so as to not offend anyone.. n not to leak any secrets out.. ive always been careful bout wad i type here.. yup. n ambiguous.. so dat only those who really noe wad happened or those who r really close to me will understand my rantings here.. n those who dun noe n interpret it some other way cannot accuse me of anything.. cos its not clear anyway.

lastly.. if u think all the above i said was like so damn fake.. go ahead n think dat way.. cos this shows how much u really dun like me n will not believe in me.. ive got nth to say bout u. but if u really have come to get to noe the real me.. wads inside.. i dun have to explain at all.. yeah. so dats bout it..

right now im juz hoping.. mayb. yes mayb. u really would want to noe wads inside me.. jus like this song dat i like alot cos of the words.. there r many meanings.. so interpret it the way u want to.. i wun tell u wad i mean by it..

i dun want another pretty face

i dun want juz anyone to hold

i dun want my love to go waste

i juz want u n ur beautiful soul

ure the one i wanna chase

ure the one i wanna hold

i'll nv let a minute go waste

i want u n ur beautiful soul

-beautiful soul by jesse mccartney