i guess u 2 might come here...

agenda was simple. i wanted u 2 to reconcile n patch up. coz its over such a dumb misunderstanding.

but i guess it was dumb of me. to think i could paint a fantasy disney world in the tiny brain of mine. to think that u 2 love each other like i love the 2 of u. to think i would have such a power to undo what was never done.

i hope u see what i see in u 2. dont u remember the times we were all together having fun... chattering n laughing? dont u see the 2 of u in those smiling pictures u once shared? or we once shared?
i see a friendship which was once was. but might never ever be again.. because of nothing. or mayb even coz of me.

oh y did i even think i could do it? y did i ever tried? ultimately.. y did i even bother? because i dont see how a friendship as such could go this way. plus its over i dont know what. n i cant seem to put it in the right light... why we can never go out together like before

im sorry. for even thinking or trying.
now im a sorry prick. crying over the lost of u 2.
i hate myself.

girls r really such bitter animals. we spit venom, claw at each other, pull each others' hair n we will never forget.

now if u muz scream shout n spit venom at each other.. i hope u kill me 1st.
the 2 years of torture.. i cant bear to continue onlooking like nth has happened. now if it muz go on worst than the past.....
really.. kill me 1st. n i thank u for doing so.
coz i dont think i can go on going out with the either of u n thinking y the other is missing from the picture. i nv had a peace of mind when i went out with the either of u. if i go out w A.. i'll think if only B was here as well.. like it used to be.. n when i go out with B.. i'll think y aint A here to add in to the our cheer.. like it used to be..

i think i juz lost 2 of my bestest friends. i think they hate me now.

call me a dreamer. a girl who lives in a fantasy disney world of her own..

now.. i really had such a wonderful time with the 2 of u yest n today.. n i cant believe those days r gone...
i wished i blogged 1st how i loved yesterday n today.. going out with u n u.. w/o thinking bout tuition..
but i guess.. like u cant turn back wad happened between the 2 of u.. i cant turn back wad i tried n did.

now.. i'll look back n say.. "what a pity.. i tried. n i gave up. so long..."




Lord...
pls do mend my broken soul n theirs.
open their hearts..
bring it back to what it once was..
i love u.
i hope u love each other too.