rambles.

2010-05-11T02:47:00.002+08:00

hello.
today. ok, maybe yesterday.
we did what we've been doing.
it feels wrong really.
but its feels so good.

and i (maybe we) just can't help it.

but.....

we really shouldn't huh? :(

i realise.

day by day...

i'm falling.

falling deeper and deeper.

so much so that...

i can't stop myself anymore.

teach me.

how do i

stop this.

to stop this feeling i feel.

so that i can...

not feel this guilt, this pain.

i think i

am becoming

more and more

addicted to

you

i can't help

really can't

stop thinking

and wanting

you

i know it

is not love

but it is

also not

anymore

i can't

differentiate

and i can't

not wonder

if i would

fall

i really

wish i could

stop myself

having this

feeling

i desire

and i get jealous

and i get bitter

and i get stuck in this rut

i recall back and i'd say

"don't go. stay. don't go. don't leave me."

you'd say

"i'm here. i'll always be here."

but i know

in the end

you won't.

2010-04-27T12:27:00.003+08:00

i wonder how you are.

every time i worry about you.

you make me worry you know?

you said you'll call.

i've yet to hear from you.

and so i worry.

boy, you make me think of you all the time.

each time you call,

you put a smile on my face.

every time you'd say you'd call,

i'll wait for it.

and you'd keep me waiting.

disappointing me most of the time.

but when you finally do,

i become an idiot, smiling again.

but i know this ain't love.

because i know i don't love you.

i just... feel happy with you.

my best friend.

and i love you.

because you are my best friend.

2010-02-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

some time ago,

my heart raced.

my heart skipped a beat,

many beats in fact.

you gave me a shock.

the sudden action.

you held my hand.

no, you held my hand.

now why is that different?

it is different from others.

you held my hand.

i stared.

i stared at our hands.

i stared at you.

i repeated the actions.

i froze.

my heart raced.

my mind raced.

my mind went blank.

"so that's how it feels"

i thought.

"that's my first time"

"isn't it?"

"but no, that is strange"

"there's nothing."

"no feelings"

"it is the act of it"

strange huh.

the act.

just the act of it.

i wonder why.

i wonder if you knew.

i wonder if it was planned.

i wonder if it was so as you said.

i was scared.

it made me more scared.

but yes, reassuring too.

how strange.

till today i cannot comprehend it.

nothing changed.

but in that moment in time.

my heart leaped.

today i wish.

i wish something like that happens.

not you.

but the act.

it is strange.

i'd like to ask.

but i'm afraid.

afraid of the answer.

afraid of a miscommunication.

afraid of the consequences.

afraid of reality.

i want to know if you feel this way too.

or is that just me?

or i haven't realised

the actuality of the situation.

2010-02-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

space.

space can mean many things really.

outer space.

breathing space.

matter takes up space.

architectural space.

writing space.

...

the list goes on.

sometimes i think and i wonder.

sometimes i long for things i don't have.

not so much of physical things, material things.

but the emotional kind.

i wonder really.

if such emotions are real.

whether i'm not the only one.

it's the kind of yearning for something that you know you don't get or won't get because of really simple obvious reasons.

and the yearning results in a deep sadness because such things just happen. you can't just go get it when you want it.

well.. i guess you can get it if you want... but that's not the sort i want. neither am i that sort.

i long for a touch.

i long for a hug.

i long for your time.

2010-02-06T15:26:00.002+08:00

hello.

feels strange

kinda odd.

its been really long.

i need a space.

a space. not a 3d one.

maybe a 2d one.

virtual.. possibly.

i miss writing.

but theres no time?

i need better management definitely..

ok. i ought to do this.

i've been making random unwritten ones..

purely in the mind.. which often get lost in the busy-ness.

yes yes i know. its already february. but that shouldn't be a deciding factor.

so here goes..

in 2010. I WANT TO..

..walk closer with God, rely on Him, Believe in Him, have FAITH, be disciplined and make daily devotions and prayers a habit. i want to make time for Him.

..be self disciplined. no loitering around doing nothing. no facebooking. max 30min. no stoning/slacking/not doing anything productive.

..be focussed. do what ought to be done systematically.

..have better time management. keeping to the timings. be punctual. not be last minute.

..protect body. sleep. rest. care for my health and not neglect it. especially my eye. sleep. rest. i cannot stress the importance because my body is the temple of God.

..keep a healthy lifestyle. have a healthier weight. exercise.

2010.21st.2ndyear.2010.

in an instant

2008-12-07T20:40:00.003+08:00

everything changes in an instant.

in an instant
we were friends

in an instant
we were best friends

in an instant
sch ended

in an instant
problems arose

in an instant
you were gone

in an instant
im shattered

2008-11-27T13:19:00.007+08:00

aiiiii.
yest was a weird but happy day.

weird because you popped up.
how come?
i dont know.
you never fail to ruin my day.
or maybe...
i just think too much.
but then again...
the fact that you appeared in my thoughts,
the fact that i still get all sour because of it,
i really cant stand it.
why did you ever ever ever do this to me?
you really ought to vanish from my life.
because you never fail to jumble up my feelings..
again and again.

boy you make me so mad.
never again. i will not. i will not. i will not.
i'd like to lie to myself and believe in it.

oh plus i had a freaky weird dream the night before.
wonder why i've been dreaming so much lately.
hmm.. probably stressed.
so tired.

happy because of you.
you never fail to put a smile on my face.
sweet.

happy because of wedges.
wedges. the kind in that 50cents packet in my school not that long ago.
ohhh. the memories.
bliss.

2008-11-23T08:32:00.002+08:00

its so earrrrllllyy.
n i wonder y im awake.

pf is boring.
cant stand it.

gek was better.
its over. (=

1 down!

after pf..
still got ar

i wonder how'd that'll be.

lately..
its been nice.

i wonder why.
i wonder how.

how could it be.
how could it be this way.

days go by...

you changed my
perception of things.

days go by.
i wonder why.

i want to go shopping

2008-11-15T15:49:00.004+08:00

i want to go shopping.
its been like this since i dunno when.
when sch started?
mayb mid term.
i've been for random sprees in between.
i've bought stuff. [i cant believe it.]

gosh. my craving for shopping doesnt seem to curb. ahhaha.

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!

sales everywhere.
christmas is coming.

exams for non uni students all ended / ending.
they can go shopping.

exams r here for me.
why why why.

lets go shopping.

to solve this. online shopping.
look. see. look. see. hahaha...

reminds me of my friend's tee:
"when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping!"
heehee..

2008-11-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

final crit was over yest! yays. happy. 1 down. plus more rest. yays.

BUT.

bad news for me.
bad bad bad.

i found out on sunday that theres a possibility theres a best friend who knows it.
so yest. i asked. n there u go. [of coz w convincing done... i managed to dig some info out n confirm]
n i thought. YAYS. 1 guessing problem out of the way.
juz need to b natural. pretend nth. dont give wrong signs.
n ask him to help me dissuade him.
happiness. somewhat. that i could possibly have no more such probs.
or at least... a reduced form of it.

BUT NO! [if not this post wouldnt b here right. hahaa.]

presentation time...
panel said he shd b more bold in his work.
i heard that. i was like. hmm. ok. n also.. i was slightly worried.. will he b applying it... on not juz work?
i thot. nahh. cant be. he doesnt seem to b that kinda person.
so i ignored.

today.
received a msg asking how i was.
ok fine.
then he asked... if i wanted to watch a movie.
stunned. then said no.
he said mayb weekend.
im like... nooooo...................................................
ok. juz leave it as that...

online.
decided to seek help from the friend.
found out an unwanted truth.
"he decided to be bolder in his approach n towards u"
now. THAT is SCARY.
n judging from what is happening now.
i see... EVERYTHING FALLING INTO PLACE.
im afraid. very afraid.
if he pushes too hard.. i'll break n fall n cry.
i cant take such. esp after...
its freaky.

oh Lord, i pray that i can let go. n he'll let go of this.

online.
he asks if i'd like to go for lunch some place else tmr.
didnt say no. but juz left it as we'll see.

i dont know what to do.
all i know is.. he'll say it definitely.
i'll have to say so sooner or later.
i need to clarify.
BUT I REALLY CANNOT DO SUCH THINGS.
i feel really really evil n guilty.
its so horrible.
tell cannot. dont tell also cannot.
pls let it pause.
lets concentrate on our exams.

u'll make me cry.

they say its good to b loved.
i beg to differ.
to love n b loved...

its nice if its 2way.
1sided is tragic.

i love u. but not that way.
i show u care. but not coz of that.
i treat u nice. but i treat everyone the same.

Lord.
i pray for guidance.
for wisdom.
i know u cannot change human will.
but u can guide us.
u can guide me.
u r the potter. i m the clay.
my life is in ur hands.
strengthen me.
teach me.
things will work out.
amen.

2008-10-21T10:33:00.003+08:00

sigh sigh. need to blog.
haha. too many things preoccupying my mind.
its faster to type out, n then, i think, mayb, i can let it go.

theres so many things i really dont get.
theres this big big big question. WHY. WHY with a big bold question mark.
plus this other side line.. how come?

the things that r happening now r just confusing.
the responses, the actions.

its like...
why r u so nice to me?
can u just dont be so nice to me?
why r u doing this?
can u just stop it sometimes? tho i know it'll become wierd. n i'll b pretty sad. tho thats what i want.

you

why u?

why do things always happen upside down?

the similarities, the things u do.
sometimes i just cant understand, cant take it.
if i tell u... u'll understand. n u'd listen.
but its pretty odd to stop. its actually such a normal thing to do. but i dont know y i draw the relations. i dont know why it juz sticks to me. ingrained in my brain. hurting me sometimes..

so many misconceptions, misunderstandings, misinterpretations.
makes things awkward sometimes.
it leads me to think... why m i doing this? shd i be doing this?
then ur reaction to it. or rather ur lack of response? seems odd to me.

then again.. back to y r u so nice to me?
to a point where i cant understand.
its so very odd.
or m i thinking too much.
oh gosh. i guess its too much for me to take.

im weird.

who in the world complains when someone is nice to u.

but then again. u r weird.

can u not be so nice to me?

haha. im not making sense.

n im not being coherent here. haha.

i cant take the nice-ness, the concern, the things u do.
its nice.
but far too nice?

or maybe...

im just... scared. paranoid.

is it.. coz of u?
WHY r u still a burden?
will i ever ever ever forget?
will i ever ever ever not b impacted by u ever ever again?
u hurt me so.

mayb i shd just stop thinking, stop remembering, stop drawing connections.
i think too much into things.
im just emo.

2008-09-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

right right.
no one will read this i bet. HAHA.

well. its like halfway thru the sem.
it feels good really...
tho.... sem has been hectic crazy n hell lots of work.

drawing lines without rulers n not erasing.
taking photos to rep words.
drinking wine n making clay models.
drawing my home. my home book.
charcoal drawings.
making acrylic models.
foam patterns n greyboard models. more charcoal drawings.
drawing workshop.. travelling singapore, sketching n becoming entertainment for the public.
making box n portfolio. redo-ing charcoal drawings..
exhibition hall model. foam cardboard acrylic "carpet".
printing binding.

sleep is secondary.
drawing n making models r primary.

i love what i do.
im happy. contented. satisfied. excited.
i cant believe im at this step now.

archi=love
i know u cant see y. n u'll tell me im crazy.

2008-08-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

i only got 1 thing to say within my short period of rest.

JC IS TONS BETTER [slacker/easier] than this now...

BUT... im 1 step closer. yays.
i still love archi. ^^
nothing is gonna discourage me.
go go go!

2008-08-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

SO MANY things have happened since i last updated.

yes im lagging. hahaa

right. highlights r...

tuition! haha. yes i cant seem to get away from it. but i dont know how n i dont know why. but i cant stop thinking bout it. dont know if i love it or hate it. all i know that its really been an enriching time. to me its really meaningful. hearing their lives as a student. their struggles. makes me wonder. bout me. my life then. "how come? why? how did i? n how would i?" made me stronger. in my faith. in my trust. in my theories? haha.
but of coz. the burdens brought about can b tremendous.
im glad. with God. nothing is impossible. really. tho its yet to b seen from results.

CAMP! FOC. yes thats like sooo long ago. its been fun. I.M.Pei ROCKS. thats all i can say to summarise it all. coz if i go on. well its too long to finish.

now we're into O week like. so soon. n my room is well somewhat cleaner. ahha. i really became lazy after As ended. seriously. always procrastinating.. doing i have no idea what. lol. im really an CI. work but wanna play. play but feel guilty. n the work n no play attitude during the As. till now im the opp spectrum of play n no work.

3more months. now thats a really sickening thing bothering me. yes ive done mine. but still i cant help but think for u. JIAYOU! [i dun wanna fail! ahhhh....]

i hope before next year. i'll b done w all i need to settle for that.

1 more thing. *sniff sniff* i miss sjy.

2008-06-20T23:30:00.004+08:00

im so full im so full im so full!

right.

today was a ~~horrible~~ good day.
~~i got that.~~
~~i had tuition in the morning~~
~~i was sneezing~~
~~i've been having a headache~~
~~some things went wrong.~~
~~i somehow feel quite disappointed at some things.~~
i met lsr n hzm for lunch. we went to secret recipe for lunch.
i met sfc ppl at swensens for dinner.

~~its an emo day~~

happy birthday to me.

**clause. [added later]
i was actually happy on this day. juz at the point of blogging i was kinda emo. hah!**

2008-06-13T01:15:00.002+08:00

ahh! so fast so fast! its friday the 13th!
nope. not gonna say. how!?!?! its the 13th. its friday. coz i m not superstitious.

anyways. friday liao. so fast. 3rd week of june hols over!
stress laaa. 1 more week only!
n gss gonna end! *frantically rush to buy stuff*
not only is gss ending.. june hols is ending.. [not related to me but more for my tutees.. esp the jc n sec sch ones. which = stress for me. midyear/blocks ahhh. then... Os, As. *faints*]
but... uni term starting!!!
yikes.
so exciting right. hmm..

then theres not only sch starting. but it also means.. i need to get alot of stuff b4 sch reopens!!
coz...
theres the lack of uniform. so clothes.
theres the need for a laptop. so a bag which can carry it plus the laptop. oh! i like the brown one at tamp.. buttt i think it cant fit a laptop. boohoo.
theres the shoes i need to run about in. so sports shoes? but i dont want that. sick of wearing that after 2 years. so i want those kinda converse kind. but so far none that i like laa. *pouts*
[ok this not related to uni.. but...] i want a new wallet. coz im kinda irritated w mine coz it has no where to put coins. rah.

past few days been interesting! hahaa.
not referring to the tuitioning part. coz erm. well sometimes i get quite exasperated when they cant seem to get it again n again. sigh. one thing i hope i dont do is to sound too angry or sth. or i when i give the... DONT TELL ME U DONT KNOW look. hahaha. what if i scare them. hmm. dont think so right.. i look so harmless. lol.

ok back to y interesting...
coz i went shopping! lol.
with aml n wyt on monday! so long nv seen them / go out with them. ahhh. so many funny incidents. lol. a usual when we get out together..
on tues.. shopping w anl! haha. it was a tues.. n we tried finding gelare in tamp. but.. dont have! whyy. i want my half priced waffle. hahaha. but we managed to get our pizza hut student's price meal. hehehe.. took pics pics! yay. i miss her so much. when was the last i saw her? feb? i think so.
wed was tuitions.. n dunno y end of day... last tuition i was like. erm high. hahaha. said a lot of weird things i wouldnt on a usual day. hahaha. n i was laughing like erm. alot. he muz have thot ive gone abit mad.
thur.. anl n i n our v funny conversation bout u know who. ahahahaha. not v safe to write here.. coz if not we'll b getting death threats.. n when i return to sajc... i'd probably b stoned to death b4 i go up stage. LOL!

right. so long since i blogged happy stuff eh? haha.

2008-06-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

alright.

if i didnt ask.. u wouldnt tell me huh.

now i cant seem to believe if i see it right. coz i dont see.
or mayb coz ive been crying to myself that i killed them.

cant u 2 juz give me a signal n not murder me like that?
rah.
well i guess i did save the 2 of u.
i think.
show me that it is true.

right.
well i think i did it.
stop self inflicting that its not possible.
right.
my self given present.
i love u 2 for that.
right.
im going slighly bonkers coz of u.
but i still..
cry coz im happy.

hahx.
i love u 2.

after the rain...

n now the prev post is so uncalled for.
call me paranoid.

2008-06-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

i guess u 2 might come here...

agenda was simple. i wanted u 2 to reconcile n patch up. coz its over such a dumb misunderstanding.

but i guess it was dumb of me. to think i could paint a fantasy disney world in the tiny brain of mine. to think that u 2 love each other like i love the 2 of u. to think i would have such a power to undo what was never done.

i hope u see what i see in u 2. dont u remember the times we were all together having fun... chattering n laughing? dont u see the 2 of u in those smiling pictures u once shared? or we once shared?
i see a friendship which was once was. but might never ever be again.. because of nothing. or mayb even coz of me.

oh y did i even think i could do it? y did i ever tried? ultimately.. y did i even bother? ~~because i dont see how a friendship as such could go this way. plus its over i dont know what. n i cant seem to put it in the right light... why we can never go out together like before~~

im sorry. for even thinking or trying.
now im a sorry prick. crying over the lost of u 2.
i hate myself.

girls r really such bitter animals. we spit venom, claw at each other, pull each others' hair n we will never forget.

now if u muz scream shout n spit venom at each other.. i hope u kill me 1st.
the 2 years of torture.. i cant bear to continue onlooking like nth has happened. now if it muz go on worst than the past.....
really.. kill me 1st. n i thank u for doing so.
coz i dont think i can go on going out with the either of u n thinking y the other is missing from the picture. i nv had a peace of mind when i went out with the either of u. if i go out w A.. i'll think if only B was here as well.. like it used to be.. n when i go out with B.. i'll think y aint A here to add in to the our cheer.. like it used to be..

~~i think i juz lost 2 of my bestest friends. i think they hate me now.~~

call me a dreamer. a girl who lives in a fantasy disney world of her own..

now.. i really had such a wonderful time with the 2 of u yest n today.. n i cant believe those days r gone...
i wished i blogged 1st how i loved yesterday n today.. going out with u n u.. w/o thinking bout tuition..
but i guess.. like u cant turn back wad happened between the 2 of u.. i cant turn back wad i tried n did.

now.. i'll look back n say.. "what a pity.. i tried. n i gave up. so long..."

Lord...
pls do mend my broken soul n theirs.
open their hearts..
bring it back to what it once was..
i love u.
i hope u love each other too.

2008-05-24T22:25:00.005+08:00

i've got a personal mission. i feel encouraged.

but other than that...
i've got my 2nd thots of tuition.
AHHH! how could that be??

emo emo emo.
after tuition today.

of coz i love giving tuition.
of coz i enjoy having tuition.
of coz i love my tutees.
of coz i wanna give them tuition.

then why the 2nd thots?
why the sadness? sorrow? confusion?

"school is starting right?" [mum of student]
"yeah. n when sch starts i cant teach u anymore."
*looks abit shocked*
"oh. the coordinator will help u find another tutor. dun worry"
"huh. but she likes u"
*abit taken aback*
"u sure u cant continue?"

i saw the sadness in her eyes.
the disappointment.

AHH.
y muz it b this way?

while it makes me glad that im loved.
it sent a piercing stab into my heart.
im leaving them. abandoning them?
man. it hurts.
its not time yet...

but still...

when the time comes.
how???
n it'll b one after the other.
all at 1 go.
can i leave them juz like that?

God. wont u teach me?
to not get so emotionally attached?
to not b so loving?

hahx. now that sounds quite retarded.

but well.
i cant have the best of both worlds right?
life is full of choices.
and... theres that chinese saying...
shi shang wu bu san zi yan xi.

Lord. [for real now. haha..]
teach me.
how.
how to make decisions.
how to accept things.
how to not feel so bitter inside.
i pray that for those i cant continue coz of distance n time...
that they'll get much better tutors than me.
who can help them improve.
plus be a friend to them at the same time.

u'll definitely always be in my heart. in my prayers.

2008-05-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

cant stand it anymore.
sorry if this is gonna stress u if u read..
but i need juz somewhere to vent.

i enjoy teaching.
i really do.
tho it gets me up n down sometimes..
i still find the rewards satisfying.
but i know i definitely cant take it on full time/long term.

ok.
actually thats irrelevant. hahx.

wad i wanna say is...

im such an emo girl! ahhh..
im so emotionally attached.

after finishing the 10 lessons in the sch.
i realised i was really sad deep down inside.
tho happy it finished..
part of me yearns to continue still.
tmr.. yet another 10 lessons end.

so long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
i leave and heave a sigh and say goodbye, goodbye.

another is...
dunno how to put it. only know...
i feel so helpless and useless when it happens...
feels like its my fault? my inability to help.
it hurts me, pains me and breaks my heart.
to see dat im unable to make this poor soul feel better, improve n gain confidence.
to see efforts but nth back in return.
to see spirits dampened, broken, shattered.

i think i try i ponder i analyse.
but i dont know what i can do!
nth helps.
tell me what to say.
give me the words.
words of encouragement to juz lift his spirits.
to bring him back to himself.

deep in thoughts...
i find a way. i think of ways.
i think of why. find out why.
what to do. how to go about it.
whats the plan now?!

just like what my friend told me..

in the heart of a teacher...

even if the whole class is able to give u distinctions except one student.. ultimately its still that one student which matters.

thinking... y issit that i cant seem to help him? all but that one? why.

deep down inside my heart cries for u.
silly.
i even shed tears.

anyhows..
juz wanna say..
tho i dont know how.
neither can i say i understand how u feel...
coz i know i can nv do so entirely.
i still wanna tell you...
i'll be there for you.
i'll support you.
ultimately... i believe in God.
may He be your pillar of strength.
have faith. be strong. you can do it!

20 questions

2008-05-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

im feeling bored... n dun feel like sleeping coz i slept in the afternoon between facil n tuition. hehx.

so here goes anl's tagged questionaire...

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Questions:

1. What disappoints you the most?
hmm. i guess when i find out someone cheats on me esp in relationships ba.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
tour ticket onlyyyy??? no use la.. still got lodging n misc funds howw?? not enough. hahahaha.
ok la. venice i think. venice is so beautifulll..

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
hmm.. got alot leh. gott..... slacking around w friends chatting n having fun at the beach / anywhere else all the way to baking cheesecakes n eating...

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
well.. mayb buy me things that can make me happy momentarily... yes.

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
huh. i dunno. too many dreams i guess. hehx

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
well.. if someone provides for me... i guess so. or if im supplied food water n shelter for free! haha...

7. What's the most regretful thing that you've done before?
hmm. i guess nth ba. coz.. i'll regret.. n then somehow make up for it.. n no more regrets!
ehh... but mayb i juz cant think of it now. hahahaa...

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
save it up for sth impt in the future. n probably give the bulk of it to my parents.

9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
hmm. i think its answering one of my students' question.. on translating sth. grr.

11. What makes you happy?
too many to name. but the obvious will b family n friends. love. food. appreciation.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
someone who irritates me?

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
in singapore? lol. ok. erm.. a happy family w my beloved n kids n my parents n kor n his wife n family?

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
nth. i wanna b normal human being.. coz w great powers lies great responsibility.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Love. all kinds.. family friends

16. What do you do when you're alone?
think n ponder n reflect n chill

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
not sure.

18. One word to describe yourself.
unpredictable.

19. What is your least favourite animal?
cockroaches. ok dats not an animal. but who cares its a living thing.

20. How are you feeling now?
tired i guess.

I've tagged:
amelia
tian

thats bout it la. dunno who else. haha...

2008-05-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

went blog hopping today.
trying to get in touch w ppl's lives since ive got some time now..

its the MYE!
jiayou my dear dear students / tutees.
tho i think only 1 of the above will see this.
but yup.. thanks to mye.. my pace of life has kinda slowed a lil?
yeahhh. some breathing space n time for myself.
plus some ~~stress~~. hehx.

anyways... bout the blog hopping....
blogs r good coz it helps u keep in touch w ppl.
as long as they update la of coz.

found out some stuff..
my friends are... either...
slogging away in various jobs
enjoying their work
wanting to change jobs
slog till they sick
slacking
worried bout uni applications coz no confirmations
worried bout interviews / went for them
got confirmations to various places..
enjoying life

one thing which i realised...
not juz recently... but quite long ago is..
tho i really love my job. have fun. ~~together w some frustrations~~.
lots of laughter. joy. quite abit of OT.
LOVE my students / tutees...
im pretty much alone!!
ahhh. everyone has got colleagues!
but i? nope.
okay. yes i do... but well..
i see them like say once a week?
talk a lil / dun talk at all..
even if i talk to them.. i pretty much cant remb their names. hehx
sometimes not even their faces...
sorry. but.... not really my fault la.
amount of time spent w them each meetup = bout 5 min or less
n sometimes theres like random new faces... coz relief a teacher?
then those i see for a longer period... i meet them so rarely!
or rather... it depends on my assignments when i do get to meet them.
ah well.

all in all...
i wanna say..
i miss school actually.
routine. many many friends to do many many stuff w u..
work is v different.
walk off by urself.. meals urself.. sit ard by urself waiting for the time.
but i love working too.
coz each day brings me new surprises. new experiences.
new weird speech ive invented. new methods. new things to learn!

well... IM TAKING A BREAK TOMORROW!
from the usual sat day rush. thats y im here.
for those who know bout the movie date...
im not going for movie. coz of many many reasons.
tho im pretty much free this sat..
sorry.

i close my eyes n drift off to a world by myself...
rest now my dear.

2008-04-30T23:32:00.003+08:00

y cant anyone understand i aint in a v good mood today?
cant u see im juz throwing tantrums n venting anger n getting agitated / irritated like super easily?
cant u see im like pms-ing [tho i dont like 99.99% of the time]?

it sucks totally.
im a horrible girl.
flaring up at juz bout anyone who tries to talk to me.
hate it la.
sigggh.
now stay away for safety reasons.
n also so that i wun hurt after dat.

i muz go to bed now b4 anything else happens...
but the situation doesnt allow me to do so...
sigh

it seems like 3 isnt enuff huh.

2008-04-30T22:34:00.003+08:00

bcoz i cant anyhow vent my anger on anyone..
bcoz i cant randomly scream/shout..
bcoz i dunno y im getting irritated at everything now..

esp when i need to know how to get to places n streetdirectory has to fail me like dunno how long liao... n sbs doesnt provide map coz its relying on streetdirectory... finding directions is killing me. together w the other things that happened.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

dats y blogs r good.
*heaves*

looking forward

2008-04-21T16:26:00.004+08:00

looking forward
towards the future
i take a deep breath
n i smell sweetness in the air

peace n joy
after the rain
i smile to myself
n think God loves me, He has a plan

nonetheless
excited, nervous
what the future
brings to me, has installed for me

cant believe
ive got an interview
upcoming in a week
i can do it thru God's power n love

2008-04-10T23:23:00.003+08:00

"dum da da dum
dum da da dum
dum da da dum
dum da da dum"

*hums to self*

ahhahaa...

i guess only cx will understand what all those above i about eh? lol!

anywayyy... today has been a wonderful day!

other than the fact that almost all the guys i know r in ns now...
n im sad coz there'll b lesser ppl to chat to me online.

but other than that....
i sent my couz to tekong w my couz!
whee!
how fun!
hahaha...
right couz?

well.. it seemed to me like i was the one going to ns for a moment or 2..
coz i kept saying hi to like guys going for ns. LOL!
n the one going to ns.. well.. he saw 1 friend. yup.
i met 1 vj classmate, 1 sa classmate, 1 pri sch fren, 1 vj ogmate
how fun was that.
oh then funnest part was...
"tsy... dat one ur mum ar? then the 2 girls? [referring to my couz n me..]
u guess leh?
1 ur gf. 1 ur sis"
wahahahahaa.
totally fun.
then we hugged our dear couz.
n waved happy goodbyes as we left "bintan"
it really looked like it at the jetty at least. hahaha..

then went for tution w cx.
1.5h of amaths.
supposedly
became 4h of amaths?
fascinating.
n piano performance.
n me desperately trying not to b a clown beside the pro.
right?
haha..

well im really happy today.
had fun.
tuition rocks.
now i wonder which other person will agree w me on that.

but well... its the start...
so as time goes by.. n we draw near it..
JIAYOU! alright tutee??
wo hui zhi chi ni de!

2008-04-04T22:01:00.005+08:00

i dont know whats wrong with me now..
juz feel so tired. so wired up. so tied up. bundled up. wrenched. strangled. n juz pure tiredness.

issit juz me coz soon its the time of month...
or really.. i need to TAKE A BREAK. not juz kitkat. or even my yogurt. can comfort me now.
i feel real emo. really really really down.

its like everything is drained out of me. pulled out of me. sucked out of me.
rushing from place to place. here to there. there to here. doing this for company. for aha. for cc. for 1 5 4 1 1. for him her whoever.
but not myself.

i feel like crying.
but no.

i feel like screaming.
but no.

i feel like shouting. no.
feel like running. no.
cycling. no.
rah-ing. no.

finished the day's work.
walking home.
plugging in.
i stare.
feel frustrated. tired. confused. troubled.
nothing i felt this morn.
gladness of the morning.
buried by thoughts. troubles. problems. confusion. tiredness.
i wonder y.
pushing my hair back.
i breathe in. n then out.
closing my eyes.
holding my breath..
i walk on.
heaving out.
walking on.
wonders thinks ponders.

heavy laden.
nothing seemed right today.
wrong.
the C in me objects. rejects. cant stand it.
all wrong.

what am i doing in my life?

i wonder...
y do i do this?

rushing off.
busying myself.

what bout me?
i didnt leave myself time for myself.
i need to zi bi.
give myself time.
be alone.
quieten my heart. my soul. my spirit.
talk to my inner self. listen to Him n myself.
its supposed to b 0% myself n 100% Him.
but its 0% myself 0% Him 99.99% others 0.01% dunno what.

troubled by it.
by myself.
where m i?
lost in the midst of what? i don't know.

i think. i ponder. i feel...
i calm myself down..
but theres still work waiting for me.
n then the routine starts over...

i shd finish up everything..
n then take a break. away from everyone.
towards me myself i n God.

frequently asked questions about chrl`x in early 2008

2008-03-22T23:39:00.003+08:00

haha. yes. to ans all queries bout me this year... so far.
seriously... its the same question i get...
not in order of frequency tho.

1. update leh. so long nv update liao...
hahaha. yes yes. nv update dats y im doing this now.

2. y nv update? v bz ar?
ehh... coz i decided to have a written diary.. so my blog is collecting dust. plus im kinda erm... bz. hehe. not really..

3. oh? so ure working now? working as?
yeah... i m working. ive got like erm... 4 jobs as of today. hmm...
1. conversational chinese teacher in various sec n pri schs. ok. yes stop giving me that look. i know. chinese of all things right. look. the thing is.... im teaching non chinese conversational chinese. basic chinese.. like ni hao ma. yea. so thats quite ez. plus i can speak chinese okaayyy.... i juz cant do chinese. hehx.
2. tuition teacher. teaching maths sciences. got a few la. pri 1 eng maths, pri 5 eng sci, supposedly 2 sec 4 chem amaths emaths n 1 jc2 h2 maths. but... ehh. hmmm.
3. facilitator. for high achievers. going to various schools doing facilitation.. engaging the class.. doing some kinda saikang work.
4. admin-ish kinda work. as n when i can. haha..

4. so r u having fun working?
yeahh. generally i enjoy what im doing right now. it allows me to chat with ppl. which i enjoy alot. tho some classes may be... erm. hard to handle.. but well.. still theres the joys of it.

5. so hows ur pay?
ehh.... diff ones diff pay. plus i guess its not v nice to publicly announce it to everyone. haha..

6. then what happened to ur blog shop?
hmmm. good question.. i guess i kinda neglected it after feeling kinda dejected from the lack of sales / response. hahax. but i still enjoy making stuff.. if u want.. u can ask me personally. yeah.

7. A level results out liao right... how did u do?
not awesome. but not horrible. ahha. i must say im satisfied.. i cant say im superbly happy.. coz thats not true... but im sufficiently happy.

8. oh! so what are u gonna choose? which sch r u planning to go?
ermm. right now im kinda reconsidering. haha. but i know... im choosing nus only. ntu too far la. smu... really not interested in the courses they offer. what more its more ex. haha... tho i muz say their campus is really nice.

9. so r u gonna stay in the hostel?
eh. dun think so la... tho it might b convinient.. but i got a direct bus to nus. yayyy. plus i prefer staying at home. home sweet home. learnt that. n its so gonna stick to me...

10. scholarships?
yea. applied. hoping for one. ahha... which scholarship i really cant remb.

11. you look different. issit?
yes yes. i do look different. thank you for noticing. pls embrace the change n stop saying im not me. or saying u dun recognise me anymore. or sth of that sorts. theres no way i can change it now. no undos in life. hehx.

12. so whats different about you? you look different but i cant see whats the difference. issit the hair?
ok yes. the hair is different. cut fringe. short hair. much shorter than usual. but thats not the thing which is different. its my jaw.

13. huh? so what about your jaw? got diff meh? (or mayb even.. u look diff meh? u look the same to me what.)
erm... in case u haven noticed... i do look diff. coz i went for a jaw surgery to correct my bite / jaw alignment. my lower jaw was actually longer... n then so i went for a op to correct it... n now my jaw is normal like urs.. where the upper is longer than the bottom which is correct.

14. huh... sounds complicated. so what did the doc do?
to cut the whole story short n make things less scary sounding.. basically.. for the op... i was on ga. then he cut my lower jaw bone. shifted it backwards using metal plates n screws. cut the upper jaw n moved it outwards. then tied my 2 jaws together.

15. huh?! then got scar not? *looks at the left n right side of my face for any evidence of stitching/scars*
eh. no. no scars. no stitching. all the cutting stuff was done internally. they cut it from inside.

16. what? how did they do that???
well im not too sure.. used sth to hold my mouth wide open? sth like that la.

17. huh?!?! the whole things sounds painful. did it hurt?
well.. thing is.. contrary to what many would think... it seriously didnt hurt. i guess its God's awesome healing. or u can believe its... the "large dosage" of medicine the doc gave me. (inverted commars coz.. well. i wasnt given alot of medicine / painkillers. plus.. i didnt even eat alot of it or actually needed it. so take ur pick. i believe its He must have took my pain away) anywayy... so yes it didnt hurt. juz very uncomfortable on the 1st day... plus couldnt sleep well.. which i guess caused the headaches i get in the morning.. but after taking 1st course of panadols n antibiotics of the day.. it didnt hurt.

18. ur jaw was tied up... u did a jaw op... so how did u eat?
well. i didnt eat. ahhaa.. 1st day after op in hospital was on drip. after that.. i survived on 2 full weeks of pure liquid diet - ensure. its this super concentrated "milk" supplement filled with ALOT of vitamins n nutrients as my meal subst. its super sweet n comes in 3 flavours. strawberry, choc n vanilla. once again.. contrary to what many believe.. choc tastes horrible. the worst. the ready made ones in the tin is erhhh. ew. vanilla was the nicest. but for the powder ones which u make by urself.. ive got strawberry.. n it tastes awesome! fabulous. i dun mind taking more of that. hahaha...
then i started eating porridge stuff after that gradually... small appetite 1st.. n sweet stuff become tasteless.. n the salty ones.. erm. super extremely salty to me at least. hahaha...

19. then did u lose alot of weight? or.. u looked like u lost weight.
YES! hahaa. (but i dunno bout now. hehex) i dunno how much i lost actually coz the weighing machines have been giving me weird weights. ahhahaha. but i definitely did coz my clothes seem kinda baggy. lol.

20. so r u happy with the result of the op?
yea. of coz. i mean... my parents paid for it. cant not rightt. hahaa.. but well. to me i m really happy for the results my Lord blessed me with. yup.
plus im able to start eating solid food quite fast. n everything is back to normal now. yeah.

haha. so dats bout it i guess.

2008-02-23T00:56:00.003+08:00

2 sides now.
to let it all up or to continue to bottle it up.
i wanna cry it all out.
but it kinda seems rather retarded. ok not actually.
but i dunno wads stopping me.
the numbness i feel?

what m i to do?

n im not feeling a tinge of tiredness.

wish theres someone to talk.
but who.
n what to talk actually.
sigh.
to bed i guess.
my secret hiding place...

2008-02-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

sth really unexpected happened today.
stunned when i heard it.
total disbelief.
thot i heard wrongly.
but no i did not.
thot i heard her say 'think so'.
mayb she did. mayb not.
but the fact still lies the same.
dunno wad to say. dunno wad to reply to the person on the phone.
was rushing off to school.
THANK GOD i was.
didnt know wad to say then.

on the way..
thots kept flooding.
remb i said i'll call back. so i did.
reconfirmed. still the same.
still in shock.

wanted to talk to someone.
thot bout work.
school. n tuition after that.
tmr school n tuition too.
decided to msg. coz i didnt think i could say it out.
thot bout who. decided on someone not working.
didnt wanna disrupt their work.
tried to msg the fact...
but got stuck on it.
couldnt bear to finish the sentence..
n decided on a vague one.
got a reply said we could talk.
talk is good i thot... i need someone to perk me up..
coz i need to teach still.
tried to say. kinda broke it out. all so quickly.
choked on wad i said.
total lost for words.
same to the listener.
awkward silences as i fought the thot, the tears away.
i know there were ppl all around looking at my weird behaviour.
couldnt b bothered. coz all i could think of was wad happened not too long ago.
ended the call which we didnt say anything much.

mrt ride. bus ride. walk.
things seemed to go by.. with my frozen daze.
lesson started.
i went on smoothly. occupying my mind with wad i had to say to the kids.
everthing seemed fine.
coz my mind was filled with how to explain. what next.

lesson ended.
there was i again. closing myself up.
sitting in a daze. going about in a daze. on the bus. not talking. staring.
my heart heavy. laden. stoned.
felt nothing.
then pain.
n tears.
but i stopped it.
n stared somemore.

tuition.
was great.
she juz brought smiles to the day again.
her adorable cute smile.
adorable counting. trying. pouting. smiling. laughing. talk.
it juz made my day.
tho while waiting for her answers...
things did prick my mind...
but i made up my mind. with the Lord's strength n power. i'll put my heart into teaching her.
coz it juz brought joy to me. laughter. and smiles to my face.

ending tuition was kinda sad.
coz i needed her innocence. plus cheer. to keep me in a right state of mind.
but of coz. that would not last.

bus ride home.
long quiet lonely. solemn.

Thank God.
He got it all planned for me somehow.
school cancelled tmr.
same for tuition.
amazing or coincidence. u decide.
i say His plan.
He knows my heart. my thoughts. my prayers.
He heard me. n will continue to do so.
THANK YOU LORD.

altho i dunno y this happened.
wish it never did.
but there are no undos in life.

planned to post about so many other stuff.. but guess its all so different right now.

2008-01-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello!!!
yes yes i noe im missing in action. PAISEH to all. ahhaa.

well.... everyone muz b thinking wad in the world m i doing right now. hahaa
im mostly at home. dunno doing what. coz theres so much still left undone. grrr.
other than that.... ive got MY GRAMSTONE blogshop set up! wheee.
GO SHOP!!!

whahaha. nice logo. nice font. yay! done by me. yeaaa.. took up loads of my time. dat was last last week. hmmm..
oh yes. plus making my beautiful jewellery. so proud of it. ^^

then... got all the dental appointments...

n got 2 one off fliers distribution. tiringggggg.

tuition! yay. she is a very nice girl.

teaching conversational chinese to non chinese. hmm. started yest. today another sch. not bad la. today's one got mike! haha. goodie.

i want more jobs. more tuition would b good. hahaha. or relief teaching also can.

oh yea. no one recognises me anymore. boohoo... ahhahaa. but i guess its quite fun eh. ahaha..
the best part of it all is.... how my pants r so loose n my tops look like they dun belong to me. hahahaa.

oh juz remb sth. IM STILL ON MC! y m i working? ahha.
beats bumming around at home feeling like a useless bum. hehx.

2008 is full of new experiences!

2008-01-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

miss me. [no im not talking bout not blogging tho. ahhaha]

i'll b gone soon.

bye!

lovess

muacks~

2008 foresight. hehx.

2008-01-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

in view of the new year... of coz there'll b the cliched thing to do...

new year resolutions. ....... made.

looking at 2008 from now.... theres a brand new start, brand new page, brand new experiences in store for me..

op. shop. work. tuition. results. scholarship? uni.

the rest is yet to be seen...

recollections of 2007.

2008-01-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year! Its two thousand eight! 2008.

i cant believe it. another year gone juz like that.

looking back... its been a hectic eventful year.

jc2. all that hustle n bustle bout the VERY BIG EXAM at the end of the year.. starting with the early block test 1. followed closely with block tests 2. n of coz the prelims. mock prelims.. n the many many tests in between. n before u know it...... its As. n not long... its the end of As. wow.

jc2. the year which u find urself with lots of work, lots of tests, lots of studying sessions... but much less sleep n rest. ahhaha..

studying sessions.. a time u get to go out n have fun studying. somehow. wonders happen when u study with frens.. coz the time studying become precious memories.. no looking back thinking how it was so lonely n tiring studying... but all the funny moments laughing together while studying. these sessions also become exploration time. where u go to a variety of places ranging from woodlands library to bishan library to the neighbourhood macs or even the odd tables in frens' homes or right in town. haha..

sfc. started off with easter. dancing for the Lord. ushering with a smile for life concert. n not forgeting the hard work behind all the artifacts, planning. not long.. was the news of the sfc camp committee. log. logistics. raaahh. cracking my head designing.. then ordering.. n then buying all the stuff n also the mid camp crises. was an experience. then there was many many many SFC OUTINGS! yay! n the sad occassion of stepping down n farewell bbq. sob sob.

special events of the year:
Valentine's! hahaa. i still remb the gifts okay.^^
tremor... evacuating the building. haha. very interesting.
Dance! for chapel
Life Concert
SFC camp. tho draining being comm... but theres the satisfaction. n the love for God. ^^
famine camp. 30 hours plus without food.
MY BIRTHDAY! haha. n the surprise failed n accomplished. lol
coincidental lunch outing with 1a/2a classmates!
cedar! phototaking at national stadium.
olympic dream. n the 30 laps i accomplish. wahaha..
learning festival. i lovee kickboxing! ^^
mind cafe. awesome fun playing ^^
swimming! ahhaa.. girls day out. with mugging.. wonder how we accomplished that. lol.
farewell assembly. sob sob. graduated. boohoo.
As.
fun fun n more fun.
shopping. pool. movie.
interview for job...
scrapbook making.
mini prom buffet dinner! haha..
SFC farewell. sobs..
working...
gatherings... 6a, 4p
autologous blood transfusion. donating blood... hmm.
tuition. scary at 1st... but overcomed after saying hi. ahahha..
movie marathon!
christmas fun...
cousin's ROM.
sfc reunion steamboat
last dinner of the year...

of coz... all that wouldnt have been without the company of FRIENDS! yay! ^^
cant say how much u all mean to me but... i'll summarise by saying.. u rock! hahaha..

THANK GOD for blessing me in 2007 with such wonderful memories... ^^

2007-12-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
yes ive been missing.
not updating this blog nor my diary.. arggh. so bz bz bz.
facebook is taking up loads of time.... gr.
anywaysss... did loads this hols. kinda going out at least 3 times per week. n my table looks messier for some reason. argh
well.. i went for tuition today! i think i like it leh. i like teaching i guess.. its fun. tho tiring. but i wanna continue to teach her. n more ppl! but i cant find students. sigh.
kies dats it for now.

after As craze?

2007-11-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

ah yes. everyone muz b thinking where have i disappeared to. ahahhaha..

yupp.. so its been rather bz. ok la.. not totally but... still lots of events n dates going on. hahaha...

20th - outing with mchlc n nwl at square 2, novena
- class bbq at lzj's condo. haha.. quite fun tho it rained..
21st - stayed home to cook! i cookeed dinner. ^^
22nd - outing w glrwu, encz, mchlc, dvdy, shnlim n lcp. went to play pool. n watched.. ENCHANTED!!! yaaayy so happyyyy ^^ awesome show.
23rd - outing w sjy n lsr. went shopping for sjy's prom dress.
24th - my niece's 1 year bday.
25th - stayed home.
26th - shopping w mummy at orchard.
27th - job interview.
- shopping w encz, glrwu, jntnho, dvdy plus kvnc for awhile.. ahha

v. brief of wad happened.. ahaha.

wads coming up...
- going out with tsh, lsh, lps
- our mini prom dinner
- sfc farewell
- lots of dental...
- job? work.
- movie marathon
- sentosa w amlong?
- gatherings?
not too sure bout the plans tho.. hahaa

ciaox. off to enjoy more hol. fun! hahaa

goodbye As.

2007-11-20T10:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO~ to the holidays...... mmmhmmm. ^^

im a very happy happy girl!

yups. quite obvious.. buts lets say it anyway.. the A LEVELS ARE OVER!
cant believe it was juz slightly over an hour ago since i stepped out of the hall..

YAY!

so gonna go out later.

ciaox.

2007-11-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

laallalaala. today is the 16th. nov. tmr will b 17. next up is 18. then 19. n HELLO 20th NOV! n right at 0915. it'll b GOODBYE As. yes.
haa. anyway. currently.. its kinda "yesh!" liao. coz only left 1 phy mcq paper. C= other than that... im not looking back. n im gonna plan my calendar.

loads of stuff. i wanna do but dunno when n dunno how. sigh.

oh well lets finish the stuff at hand right now.

2007-09-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog. but i guess im better now...
dun intend to blog further...

blog is losing its purpose..

initial purpose for starting has changed long ago..
the changed purpose is disappearing with each passing moment..

soon i guess i wun need it anymore..

i think i fell in love...

... in love with writing my own personal diary.
nah. its not love. i noe..
its juz more personal in there.. n i like it like that.

but then againnnn. you never know.

hey. in the end i blogged. haha.

2007-08-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

today singapore turned 42~! n ns 40. haha

and yesterday... someone turned 18 finally!! HAPPIE belated BIRTHDAY! to mchlc ^^
lol. how many times did i say that to her.. i wonder. lol. n i wonder if she'll c this too anyway. hahaha.

it was awesome yesterday! lunch at cafe cartel with nwl n of coz the bdae girl. then games at mind cafe with sfc. n surprise new york cheesecake! yummy.
took neoprints!! yes yes. n we managed to make shnl n dvdy take neos with us! hahaha. ^^
yesterday was happy day. ^^

2007-08-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

i decided to take a break. hehehe.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

my eyes are brown.

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention
In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you
You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial
And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive

You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy
You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define
A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.
Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

Very popular, one of you is not enough.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

ive never tried that. hmm.. but sounds nice.

2007-08-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

ok. prelim time table out. sucky one ive got. last to end. plus chem n phy on same day twice. argh. oh well.

yes. im faring rather well in my plan to not come online often. yes! i can do it!
soon it'll b like 2 years ago where i kinda disappear from the blogosphere n msn. n my inbox can juz burst. 2 days nv check n theres 10 mails. scary. ok. mostly friendster. i duno y theres so many. but there is. n thats a fact! hahahaha.

oh n i forgot to mention. blog is closed.

k i mean for the majority of the time. haha.

JIAYOU all! ^^

2007-07-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

loads happened...
stress from sch, plus all the bt2 results. n all the stressing remarks from teachers.
but of coz there was great fun with sfc die hard movie [its the full movie this time], cam-whoring at national stadium, olympic dream at toa payoh stadium n fun mugging sessions.
n back to stressed mode. boo.

well in case u dunno its 101 days to As [provided u take h2 phy]. ya. so i'll going to hibernation..
less online time. mayb not online la. yea. juz check mail n stuff only.. n if theres com assignments. or to de-stress ba.

yea. so jiayou!!! A level. all As please. boo.

2007-07-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

ok yes. exams over. im long due for some update. haha.

i think i really love writing in my own private diary now.. hehx.

well anyway had my post-exams outings n pre-post-exams outings too... hahaha

last thurs ended the bulk of exams had only maths n phy left. n fri to mon to study. so went out.

thurs went to buy dvdy's very belated bdae present after hanging out at tau huay shop. n he insisted on going with us.. argh. fine.. luckily glrwu had to do some atm thing.. so we foced him to go pei glrwu. hehehe.. while we went shopping for his present in compasspoint. n his present put me in a tight spot la. argh. oh well. at least we got sth he liked n needed n fit him too! hahaha. other than length

fri went mugging with rchlkoh, glrwu n dvdy at bishan lib for a short while b4 heading to orchard for shopping! yay. but too bad didnt get anything. sigh. after dat was a filling dinner. jap buffet! awesome! sashimi, sushi, salmon, chawamushi, tempura n more sashimi n salmon. ahhaha.. ohhh not forgetting.. i drank sake! man its nice! so sweet. was super happy so had a good appeitite n ate quite alot. heee.

sat went out with dnny, lsr n sjy for our lunch outing cum farewell for dnny. while waiting for sjy at city hall mrt we met jde! who was waiting for alclye n mjlt. so cool la! so we waited for all of them to come b4 going for lunch together.. our 4ppl outing multiplied to 7. n became a mini 1a outing! yayyy.
oh. n sjy bought me a bday present shared w dnny n lsr. a white tote bag. the one i eyed on! so coolios! love it lots.. ^^ sjy knows me the best.. that was the nicest design out of all to me. n she thot so too! hahah.. n the most amazing thing is.. ive been wanting a white bag! im so blessed. so so blessed. thank God for His goodness. really. though not i was looking for.. but still a white bag. heyyy. juz like the 2 pairs of slippers i got when my sandals broke? ahha. coincidence? i choose to think its gifts from God. ^^
well anyway.. so we had lunch at changing appetites in marina square.. yummy big portions. n then we went shopping separately.. coz too many ppl abit difficult. neither of us got anything. boohoo.
shopped more with mummy after that. tired la! ahhaa. but i saw a bag i like which i regret not buying? well if its meant to b.. it will b.

sun n mon was mugging for maths which i kinda panic-ed. which i felt angry for doing so on tues coz it was rather simple [I THOUGHT. till today. arggh. maths. i want my A. bahhhh.. i doubt i'll get it this time..]

tues was the maths paper.

wed phy. [will not think bout it for now....]
went out with nwl n mchlchin to bugis.. they wanted to buy my present. hahx. i did not want to feel awkward with them while they r buying.. so decided to go to the lib while they shopped.
found nice books. i finished 1 on that day itself.. not bad. private novel series by kate brian. very high school? i think. lots of typical american or issit english girl conflicts. entangling conflicts..
well anyway.. joined them for shopping after that n neoprints! which r 'hilariously stressful' as quoted from mchlchin. ehhehe.
oh n the present is this sweet glass bead necklace. so pretty. love it! ^^

yest went jogging! wahahha.. feel so accomplished. yaay.

went for sfc outing! yayyy. superbly fun. mayb coz of the movie la.. ahaha.. yup. so we went to grand cathay to watch die hard at 1540 n ended at 1640.. abruptly. the movie was showing the com systems crashing.. n the enemy going for the next move.. when suddenly black screen. only hear voices. arrrgghhh. how irritating can that b la. sighh. then they showed this..

yup. sth u might nv c in ur life. so at the back were shouts of.. "free popcorn for all" "full refund" ahhaha. well in the end we each got 2 complimentary tics per stub.

straight after dat wanted to watch die hard again.. but abit too late.. so watched transformers. awesome!!! i loveeeeeeee that show. super nice. action plus some comedy. n ultimate cool robot/machines/transformers. super happy after watching it. hehee.

had pizza hut dinner which we had to force lcp to eat. lol

wonder wad i shd watch using the other free tic..

today. college day which i managed to escape coz of dental.. yea.

dental today was longg. n painful. now im in agonizing pain. ahhh. God faster heal it. bahh.

well anyway.. i like the colour. though its the wrong blue.. blue n grey! hehehehe. yes. cedar rocks. ahhahaha..

ohhhh. n my dentist says i mayb cannot do op at end of year.. yyy!!! *cries whines wails* she say can try rushing.. but b prepared its june nex year. boohooo. i really dun wanna go for prom. baaahhhhhhhh.

oh well.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY! yay. ^^

2007-06-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

yes yes. yesterday was my birthday.. so now im 18 years n 1 day old. [i feel old. boo.]

but who cares anyway. birthdays r supposed to b fun! yes. n this year i had the time of my life. the best 18th birthday i had in my life!!! ahhahahaha. yes i meant 18th bdae. ahha only once a lifetime. lol. ok laa.. shant b so bad. i guess its one of my best bdaes. i dun remb another bday which i spent the whole day smiling.. yeah. so thank you again to those who went to celebrate my bdae..

first i muz start with my 18th birthday eve. coz dats when all the fun started. the joy. ^^ *beams*

19062007
went to bishan lib to mug with dvdy, encz, crtls, rchlg n prclt.

*skips the minor details*
lunch was stagger. so encz n dvdy was the last couple to go for lunch. they took a long time.. n i was like.. eh. y they take so long.. then i got suspicious.. after dat crtls received a call.. heard a guy's voice. i was like.. ehhh?? then she said ask prclt 1st. i was like ar? class fren? then they said buy n i noticed prclt look at me.. i was like. oh. i think not.. i guess dats dvdy.. guessed they were trying to buy me a prez. so i juz acted blur. n ignored..

then prclt disappeared for a long time.. at 1st thot she went to toilet.. but sth was definitely wrong.. she is taking ages.. then suddenly she came back with encz n dvdy. noticed encz wasnt wearing her jacket.. looked n saw her rather rectangular-ish jacket.. n i was like.. hmm... ahhaha.. n acted blur again.. then i asked her.. eh not cold ma? [bishan lib is freezing. i wore 3 layers. imagine] she said coz juz came from outside which was hot.. n i was like. yeahh right. ok. after dat. rchlg came back up to join us.. i was like.. hmm.. n encz showed them some pic.i was like. hm. yes act blur. continue doing my work..
then suddenly they showed me this piece of paper with 'happy birthday to u chrlx " " " ' n i juz smiled. ahhaha. then they did this silent version of "happy birthday" ahhaha.. "clapping" too.. haha.. n i was like.. oh my! ahhaha.. super paiseh. coz like distracting the other ppl studying there too.. can c them all staring over.. so i kinda hid my face. hehx. then encz passed me a big bag with my present in it.. n dvdy passed me a small card.. opened to read the sweet lil note. which brought many smilesss... then b4 i opened the present they were like.. if cannot fit dvdy will change it for u.. i was like what?! u bought me tee ar? huh.. i think most prob cant wear... then opened n pulled out a pair of slippers.. ahhaha.. so cute.. thanks!!! n the size was right! cool. n the wrapper super cuteeee. got verses one.... so nice laaa. love it.

thankew thankew for the slippers which came after my sandals broke at famine camp. ahhaa. how sweet of u all.

20062007
happy birthday to me!

so yes. i woke up early.. but not as early as usual la.. but still considered early.. woke up n took my time.. to bake brownies n singing to the music on the radio. ahha. basically trying to say. i was happily baking.. ahha. coz i juz liked the feeling of baking..

then all along dunno y the brownies i bake always unsuccessful.. so i was kinda apprehensive bout baking.. but this time i separated the batter into 2 baking tins.. guessing that the prob was coz the size specified was bigger. so meaning the ones ive been baking r too thick dats y the middle cant bake..

anyway.. after waiting for the cake to bake for 30 min... tada!!!! successful!!! yeaaah. so i was very happy. i kept telling my mum. yes!! finally my brownies can b baked. r proper ones. 1st time successful! yay!! hahaha.. yes i was very happy dat it was successful.. ^^

then i rushed off with the brownies n sjy's sleeping bag. to meet sjy at island creamery for our lunch dessert appointment. had a nice chat while eating our yummy desserts. she had apple pie with very berry ice cream. n i had mud pie. the mudpie was with oreo crumbs, oreo crust. top layer is with choc ice cream then cookies n cream. last was coffee ice cream i think. coz dat later was too thin to decifer wad it was.. anyway.. we had a nice sweet affair catching up with one another..

then took my time to slowly go down to gldy's home to surprise them.. while walking i went thru the 'surprise plan i had for them'

this was the initial plan: say not gonna mug with them.. then surprise them at whereever they r studying with brownies..

butttt. some ppl had to follow me to ntuc to buy ingredients the day b4.. n i found out at nite that they somehow they found out. im like. okkk.

so plan 2: msg someone say not feeling well coz of the flu or no time to go down cos woke up too late or sth.. n then surprise them by going down after meeting sjy.

so with the plans in mind.. i thot of how the details of how im gonna press the bell n not stand at the door n jump in n say surprise or sth. hahahaa. but prclt kept calling to ask where i was. she said j2s at sheng siong buying things. n dun worry noone noes she is in the toilet.. i was like.. hmm. something is fishy. doesnt sound like shes in the toilet. dun have the kinda sound effects.. no echo-y sound or water sounds? but thot i was being over suspicious. so ignored the thot.

reached the block. n got excited. ahhahaha. then i kinda forgot which one was gldy's door. then i pressed the doorbell.. n then waited. n out came a lady. n i was like. OOPS! wrong door.. thankfully she was a sweet nice lady who said it was ok.. ahahha.

then pressed the doorbell.. waited for quite some time. ok. mayb i was juz anxious to go in. ahhaha.. then door opened.. n i was like. hello!! n only j1s. i was like. arrr?? the j2s still in sheng siong. ar? so long. n then funny thing was all the j1s like noe wad im doing. im like.. hmm. y abit weird but ignored again. heard them saying alot of things like wah. today dress so prettily n sth bout my shoes.. but i kinda ignored them.. coz was thinking wad to do b4 the j2s come back. then i quickly said.. "kk. then i hide.. quick quick.. where to go ar? juz bhind or shd i go up?" was about to go into the living room area to go when prclt pulled me back n shounted brownie!!! i was like.. huh?!??!?!

all of a sudden.. came lots of sound from behind me n out appeared all the j2s. i was like. "oh great!" ahhahaha. i juz laughed. n they sang me "happy birthday" while i stared at who was there.. esp jhtn who was with the cam videotaping.. i was like.. noooo. but aiyah. ok.. so paiseh.. wanted to surprise them.. but in the end.. hahaha.... oh well.. so i was given this lil cute cake n a beautiful pink rose.. had to make 2 wishes 1 known. was about to blow the candle when i saw.. pricetag! ahhahaa. so blew n announced to them.. "erm.. there's a pricetag!" hahaha.. their reactions. was like mixed with stunned. shocked. paiseh. n dunno wad to do. ahahhaa.. so funny. then i gave them my brownies..

b4 eating i was like. arrr. eat so many cakes today!! n they said its ok coz its my bdae. ahha. okay.. n shnl best. say "its ok! its ur bdae. on my bday i had 2 slices of cheesecake" ahaha.. so issit get fat on ur bdae?? hahaa. after eating tried to study but failed so went ard distracting ppl. ahhaha. after taking photos.. went for dinner at din tai fung raffles city

on my way there.. i was holding the rose with my 2 hands in the middle.. smiling slightly to myself.. [was too happy so i couldnt stop smiling la. basically. hahaha.] then walked into the train.. i was like.. oopsss. can feel eyes turning to look at me.. coz ait outstanding holding a rose. hehehx. didnt care. coz i was too happy to b bothered.. usually i'll kinda glare at them like wad happened in the past. hee.

waited for family. then kor came with this new urban mle paper bag n gave it to me.. my bdae prez from him! looked in.. slippers?! hahahaha.. i laughed. he was puzzled la.. so cute. n i said.. haha.. i got a pair yesterday. n he was like. erm. okaaayyy. ahahhaha.. but is ok la. he said if i didnt fit or i saw another model i like.. can go change. so sweet of him. but i like it loads. ^^

dinner was filling!!!! dunno issit coz of all the cake i ate or juz my shrunken stomack after famine camp. anyway ordered lots of food. i had my noodles! a must on bdae. n then lots of xiao long baos. wasnt that faulous.. but i enjoyed it anyhow. with my family!! ^^ then went shopping after dat.. wanted this top but min 2 pieces!! ahhh. sigh.

went home feeling really happy. n loved. oh yes happy is an understatement. i was super high. hahaha.. those who chatted to me could feel it. hehx.

thanks for the birthday wishes!
sjy, mummy, tsh, drlc, crtls, jhtn, lkh, daddy, wyt, ant, tyc, shnl, chrn n hs, lcp, kvnc, chrtnc, kor, aml, cndct, tyy, yl, cjc, tke, nwl.

thanks for the wonderful memories on my bdae n the eve!
daddy, mummy, kor, sjy, dvdy, encz, crtls, rchlg, prclt, mchlc, shnl, jhtn, gldy. ^^

think thats bout it.

oh n special thanks to..
shnl who came down to celebrate my bdae though he was sick. really really sick. coughing n sneezing la. man. thanks alot! hope u r much better now!!!
encz n dvdy for specially going down to buy the rose n cake. n my slippers.
of coz. GOD! for juz making this special day.. AWESOME! aiyah. for juz giving me these loving friends. ^^. FOR BLESSING ME! yay-ness. ^^

oh. n i suspect the link btwn the sandals which broke n the slippers i received. ahahha.. i think God was preparing for my bdae present.. he knew wad i was gonna get.. so he made them break. ahhaha! ^^
well i love the pressies anyhow. ^^

thank you.

2007-06-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

IM SUPER EXTREMELY HAPPY TODAY!

THANK YOU!! [TIMES A MILLION TIMES]

I LOVE TODAY TO BITS & PIECES. LOVE TODAY LOADS!

THANK GOD FOR MY TODAY. MY FRIENDS N THE MEMORIES THAT I'LL KEEP CLOSE TO MY HEART.

i cant stop smiling. ahhaa. save me! ^^ lol!

i wish i can b like this every single day. (=

mugging june hols.

2007-06-15T20:18:00.001+08:00

okay! b4 anyone starts complaining i nv update... i did! juz in my lil handwritten diary of mine. which is nice. can write secrets n details which cant b broadcasted..

well anyway.. loads have happened.. lots of fun. with ant's bday party over.. ant n shnl becoming 18. n of coz my bro becoming 21! coolios. n he likes his present alot. yay. ^^

also there was the shrek 3 sfc outing. the movie was sooooo funny! im glad i went. had an awesome time.
oh n there was cip b4 that. packing goodie bags.. fun fun fun! machines, factory workers. juz brainless packing movements.

loads of mugging sessions n funny jokes cracked along the way.. studying in woodlands lib. sch lib. national lib hans. n bk macs. n kfc too. n prslt's fren home glds. which is near my home!

n ive been cycling! yay. i love to cycle.. zoom. hahaa.

n also bridge sessions. "gambling den" hahaha. nah. juz innocent card playing.. heehee.
other than the favourite bridge there was dai dee, signal, level pig.

its been a nice hols. hanging out with sfc peeps. yayness!

will b going for famine camp tmr! cant wait. i think it'll b fun.

oh. n i have a craving to bake. mayb on my rest day i shall juz do so. hmmm.

2007-06-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

oh. i forgot to mention.

in the future.. most prob there'll b even lesser posts.. coz i decided to start a written diary.

there r many things i cant write here coz its too personal. n i wanna keep a memory of certain stuff.. so i decided to start my own conventional written diary.

yupx so u'll c less of me. i mean my n3s. n anyway i will go on hiatus coz of As.

sfc camp thanksgiving

2007-06-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

im lazy to do thanksgiving for camp. bahh... ok i'll juz do the most impt ones..

first n foremost. the one which we couldnt do the camp without.. our Almighty Father above.
thanks for being right there with us all the time n overlooking us. protecting us from all harm. thank you for juz lending ur strength to each and everyone of us who were weak at 1 point or another. without u.. this camp would have been meaningless. coz it was for us to know u. so all glory goes to u~!

next. the teachers.
thanks for bearing with our troublesome requests. esp me asking for gym keys like now n again. interupting meals n breaks n conversations. n of coz for supporting us thru the camp.

next. camp comm!
for supporting one another throughout the camp n b4 as well. the times we spent planning n dry run was fun. learnt much from each of u. esp great of u guys for giving all the love n care during camp when i broke down. thanks a million.

last but not the least. everyone who went for the camp.
for juz ur presence. for being enthusiastic. without u in the camp.. wads the point of it! so thanks for being there to take part in the activities planned and giving us the joy that our hardwork wasnt put to waste.

dun think i miss out anyone.

well im glad that the camp went thru well n all's done other than evaluation. ah.

sfc camp 2007

2007-06-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

oh man tired! though i already slept alot to catch up on sleep.. but still. tired. look at my eyebags! ahhh. ugly ugly ugly! save me! *pouts* oh well. God will take care of it.. i pray for nice eyes again! ^^ haha. i shd refrain from being vain.

on a side note.. dvd says im super high

anyway.. its june! today is 1st of june! how fast!!! ^^ yay. juneeeee.

so camp was over. n i kinda died. with 5 hours of sleep on 1st night n 1.5 hours on 2nd nite. but i reached home n i slept in the afternoon for 3 hours n 13 hours at nite. hmm. but dun seem to be helping.. mayb i need to get back to routine or sth..

anyway camp. was awesome! 3 days. but not enough leh! i wanna have more sessions n games. learning more n juz dwelling in His presence. n with my BIG FAMILY! sfc! we rock!

lets start with sessions.
listening effectively. learnt quite abit.. like deciphering the voices.. n how to listen to His voice of coz. the still small voice. i guess ive got too noisy a mind n soul. muz really quieten down. i cant really take too much silence.. ahh. but if i wanna hear Him i have to do so.. alright! so its time i train myself!
praying effectively. this one was great. overwhelming. esp during praise n worship n prayer at the end.. i think almost all of us went up.. i duno how to describe the experience.. but im sure its the beginning of sth. i'll continue to pray n believe in much more faith. discussion was really a time where i felt my some of my burdens lifted away from me. shows me how much i need to repent n how its good for my soul.
spiritual gifts. wasnt there for the whole session coz had econs lecture in between. but i think ive yet to find my gift yet.
girl/guy matters. didnt learn much from that. coz kinda basic commen sense. we noe how to dress. guys i dunno wad happened but they said like quite duh.

workshops!
listening effectively. wasnt there but heard it was real fun. n good.
endurance. was kinda tough. didnt try though. but looked really tiring.. i commend those who perservered. n i learnt sth. i make a bad 'devil'. they said i was obviously smiling. bah. but its good on the other hand.. means im a good girl! haha..
humility. was prepared but not done. boohoo. but the flour + water mixture created by drlc wasnt wasted.. hehx.
monopoly. was kinda sian for me coz i was jail warden.. but it was nice to tour around. n b a onlooker..
but i thot workshops was a lil wasted.. coz they all know their lessons already! cannot trick them or anything. wonder if they learnt from the worshops..
for me i did. coz i learnt during the dry runs n planning.. we did lots of brainstorming on whether it'll work out or it suited the lessons. which i gained much from the discussions..

games!
ice breakers. double whacko. i feel safe with jnnk! shes like calm n composed.. unlike ln who screams only. haha. was interesting... macaroni game was fun! n i got bought into another kingdom *pouts* but i made myself slave again to return to GAP! ^^
wet games. was in charge of body parts with drlc. was kinda yucky. the flour mixture. dirtied their clothes la.. all the dried up flour.. minesweeper seemed fast. dunno wasnt there. sponge game looked hilarious with all of them with sponges on their heads.. cat fight was amusing! our soaped canvas wasnt in vain. the soap mixture with drlc's feet. hehx.
candle game. had some trouble. in the end we still played. wonder if they enjoyed... i remb having much fun in that game last year.. too bad no time for them to complete the whole game.
dry games. 3 way captain ball. messy as ever.. haha.. dog n bone/fear factor. funny! their reactions! shd have video-ed it down.. esp when cryss ate the fav oreo. both at 1 shot.. n then. poof! wasabi! haa. n cocoa powder was equally funny. but kinda scary coz they like choked.
sardines. i juz patrolled around. so nth to say.
night activity. persecution. starting seemed failed. but in the end. seems kinda hiong. quite a few broke down. n the torture chamber was. scarrrryyyy.

i love my mortal. shes so cute. her reaction when i said my mortal was super classic.

other than all those fun part.. of coz there were the stressful parts where i had to control my emotions. kept myself awake thru the nite for evaluations. n breaking down completely. but really thank GOD for juz seeing me thru all those. giving me friends who supported me. juz that sentence of 'r u ok?' was good enough.
the worst part was of coz the part where i broke down completely. being log head really stressed me out.. even juz the start of the camp.. rchlkoh saw thru n said.. 'r u stressed with log?' 2nd nite was when it all came down on me.. someone was injured n needed a 1st aid kit. n we didnt prepare one.. n it didnt help when my partner havent been doing stuff/taking initiative. i had to remind him or sth i dunno. not sure. n when they needed the 1st aid kit.. he wasnt there. so i had to bear the "consequences/burden". it juz worsened when they asked so.. the persecution game.. we r using.. i was like. stirrers! oh no! they r in the gym?! wad. ahhhhhhhhh. then they were like. so u left it at the sajc side la. [we were in the diocese/other side of the sav. n the bridge locked] i was like. ok. i'll check with my partner. so i walked off towards the dorm. knowing obviously there werent any. dunno wad to substitute. thank God that dvd came along. coz i juz cried. n then everything a whirl. i remb going to the toilet n falling to the floor n crying n encz praying for me n taking teeshirts from dorm n passing sth for some angel to some mortal n sitting at the steps. totally lost it la. n many saw. kinda paiseh but touched too. esp ant she said 'seeing u sad unlike ur normal cheerful self i feel so sad too' almost cried again. but that would have been dumb. plus with everyone there. haha. no.
learnt alot but learnt in a bad way from that painful lesson.

2007-05-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

okok i'll b going for camp tmr so to entertain those who have requested n3s..

ive been super bz. the 2nd last week as i said was a test filled week. went for vj choir concert which was awesome. fabulous. n my ngr sang a small part solo. sat went out with lsr to get present for someone.. n then after dat went for vj harmoc which was fun. with nice songs..

then last week was kinda bz.. bz with camp prep. for tmr.. but lessons were getting slack. like thur. ended at 130 n fri at 12. thur only had 1 hour of econs from 1230 to 130.. how irritating.. n wanted to support soccer but i had to buy logistics for fri's dry run for camp.

buying the logistics was quite fun.. coz we were making lots of jokes with the diff stuff we could do for camp.. hahaha.. looking at the diff food n then laughing..

fri's dry run for camp was super fun. esp a certain game where glr had to eat her most hated.. too bad cant describe anything.. actually can la.. so late liao doubt anyone will c.. but who noes..

sat had another precamp prep. n more logistics buying at vivo giant.. which was fun again.. haha.. with dvd n eu.

today went to make specs. argh. term 3/ june hols. c the new me. i want my perfect eyesight! argh.

n so now i'll b going off to sleep n get the rest needed for camp. i foreseee some tiring days.. nites

2007-05-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

its been another long time ago since i blogged..
though im being plagued by the assignments n the terribly awful week next week.. i muz blog. getting too depressed. esp today? feeling down n sian thru the day.. till sfc? seriously thank GOD for being there all the time.. n my ever loving cca.

well the past few weeks haven been too bad.. or at least i think its not too bad.. coz of wad im foreseeing next week.

i remb going down to vj not too long ago for the sa/vj soccer match which was really breath taking. in the sense that it was freaking me out when they r scoring. haha. much better than last year's

n the labour day holiday which was more like.. LABOUR DAY a day to labour. bleah. went to eu's home to do some mugging n erh camp comm planning for events n stuff.. though brainwrecking.. but fun! laughed like mad. esp wasabi. n the games that followed it. lol!

thanksgiving for life concert n the video which brought back much memories of the hard work n the result.

n the rushing of the camp tee. or rather the school badge which killed me. took hours trying to make the colours uniformed. n to the colour of our tee design.. *hints* pls put a school badge with uniformed colours so that ppl like us making tee shirts have a easier job.. hehehe.
anyway. it was a job well done. or at least i think so. glad i finished it. phew. n im proud of my design! yeah.
n then going down to print the tee.

n chem spa skill a is over! no more chem spa! yeah. dats 1 out of 4 papers for chem done.

n now. for the week ahead. lemme rant out.
extra lessons extra lessons extra lessons..
tests exams spa. n more tests mocks n i what have yous.

mon. nothing thankfully. but i end at 1730 n i dunoo if there is chem make up still..
tue. phy spa. phy mock exam full paper. end at 1730 hopefully coz im watching vj choir concert. dun say i cant go n i need to study ok. i need a well deserved break. music develops the brain.
wed. chem lect test on ionic n electrochem. sfc. so ends at 1800? depends.
thur. oh another nothing so far.
fri. maths lect test. doubt i'll b studying much for that one.
sat. yup ure not seeing things. SAT. phy mock exam full paper. gp compre test.

look! *screams* *dies*

y aint there a rule to protect the health of the students? the welfare. the mentality. of the students. Y IN THE WORLD DO U CTAM ALL THE TESTS IN 1 WEEK?! n b4 that.. all seems so peaceful.
i miss cedar where there was the rule - max 3 tests per week.
now? 1 per day IF spreaded out. but no.

on a side note. theres so many ppl going for the jaw op im going for. how interesting.

friends

2007-04-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

oh on a side note.. i saw tsh's blog today. n i saw my name in caps. lol! no thats not the point. she was saying sth bout our 11 year friendship that we have.. amazing. oh yes.. n that makes me feel kinda old too..

back to the point.. its really cool to still keep in contact with pri sch friends.. n even meet up.. n r so close still.. we can like dun talk to each other for like half a year.. n then when we meet up.. we can juz talk for ages n still feel like the bestest friends we had in our lifetime. like we have never ever parted.. still as close as before..

n i met louilee on train today.. one of my hws friends.. n we chatted about pri sch.. i feel quite sad that she no longer contacts any of her pri sch friends..

but i realised she aint the only one.. theres many who have lost contacts with their friends.. be it pri sch or sec sch.. or even 1st 3 months..

i feel sad for those who have lost contact.. coz u only narrow ur circle of friends n u miss out on the wondeful feeling that.. u have a friend who has been beside u for so long.. juz quietly supporting u in everything u do.. even if she/he doesnt know what uve been up to..

well i think that friends are really important in life.. though many say family is more important coz they are the ones who wun leave u in times of need.. i still think friends are equally important.. mayb u'll say im simplistic or i haven experienced enough to c the true colours of friends.. but i still want to stand firm on my stand.. bcoz in the future.. when u look back on life.. its ur friends who give u this peaceful n heartwarming feeling when u reminisce together bout the times u had together.. doing the stupid things, going through the hardships, n of coz those happy times.. these experiences shared is something special between u n that particular friend. but of coz.. u have those with ur family members as well.

so my point is. i treasure all my friends. i like the fact that ure always there even if our friendship has gone stale.. its easy to rekindle that love for each other.. that link that we shared.. juz by looking back together.. having that nostalgic feeling [which doesnt really describe what i want to express totally].. n then we can look forward together or juz enjoy each other's presence. its juz this comforting feeling u get.

so to all my friends..
even though we get caught up in our lives.. too bz for one another.. dun meet up at all.. or dun talk for ages.. i still remember u. its juz being pushed out of my mind coz of the things in life muddling up my memory. though i may not say it.. but i do think n i do care bout how u r when u pop up in my mind.. n i seriously miss all of u.

2007-04-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

its been ages. coz im stuck under a pile of work. burden. streessss.

lemme share with u.. my sad pathetic situation..

oh but b4 i do that.. its scary that our principal said on thurs she reads our blog. n esp bout the pw saga in our sch. hahx. shant complain bout that matter.. its pointless now anyway. no use dwelling on it.

yes back to my situation. sch was fine till my time table became from ending average day at ard 1500 to 1730 with lots of breaks.. n now its.. 1730 with reduced breaks coz of slotting in of extra lessons n extra tests after sch. econs remedial for all 1730 to 1830. dats even later than cca. but thank God dats on alternate weeks.. or else.. i'll only reach home after 1800 everyday.

next. 1 day 1 question for phy. 1 day 1 question for chem as well coz our class requested [though we complain bout the extra work we r willing. how contradicting]. weekend assignments for maths n they r not giving up on all public holidays as well [good friday n labour day. question.. aint labour day there bcoz we r supposed to have some rest after labouring for so long? oh well.]

then other than all the extra assignments other than tutorials.. theres the extra tests! excluding lecture tests.. we'll have.. 1 week 1 chem test. 1 week 1 econs essay test. n phy mock test nono. mock EXAM. yes i mean full paper.. on 15 may [from phy teacher] n 19 may [all phy students]. oh yes. its 19 may saturday! they aint gonna let us go~!! yyyyy. siggh.

im sad. i get depressed when i cant go home.. stay at school for too long.. reaching sch at 0700 n leaving at 1800.. 11 hours in sch. mon to fri. *cries* mayb i shd camp at sch.. is j2 dat taxing?

luckily for me ive got sfc! i really really muz thank God for sfc. coz i feel so peaceful with them. esp on fri. my best way of relaxing really. juz walking/shopping/eating/chatting with them. the few methods im left with de-stressing n the only time i can do so anyway..

but....... even though i complain. i seriously think that the teachers i have r awesome. for putting in so much effort for us.. coming up with all those questions per day. tests per week. assignments. n then marking them all! who says students get the worst of it.. i think the teachers do share our burden too.. so i really thank them for helping us n suppressing all that anger we cause them from our behaviour / horribly done assignments.. im actually touched that they are giving themselves extra work for us at the expense of themselves.. n having to deal with our lamenting of the hw loaded on us.. i really THANK GOD for the dedicated teachers that i have..

2007-04-09T19:06:00.000+08:00

good friday was indeed GOOD FRIDAY! hahaha. [im getting lame n uncontrollably high at times]
on fri went for church service then met up with sfc ppl.. mchlchin, euz, ant, shnlim, dvdyeo n drl at the zoo! i wanted to go to the zoo with them in the morn.. but.. had to go for service.. well.. outside the zoo at the entrance was enough.. ahha.. had sucha happy feeling there.. so carefree.. mayb coz of all the lil kids running about laughing shouting n taking pics.. so cute.. then we took a group photo with shnlim on a rhino? n mchlchin commented today dat i looked very happy in that pic.. haha.. well i dunno..
after dat mchlchin went off n the rest of us went to cck to eat lunch.. n walked ard the mall while waiting for drl to leave cck with us..
so drl went to expo while we watched shooter. 1st time watch nc-16 movie.. ahhahaha.. legally. hahahah. when i said that.. b4 adding legally.. dvdyeo was like.. hmm marked improvement. ahahhaha.. the movie was good. though i was kinda like a scardy cat. haha. i have a weak heart.. hehhehehe.

yest i had an interesting chat with my cous. ehhehehe. tsk tsk. ^^

today was another day of gettin more stressed by the teachers.. mshuangkx: during the long weekend.. i thot bout it.. im gonna give u all an assignment everyday! >>> n u can imagine our reaction.. msklai: though ur class did quite well for bt maths.. u r not performing as u shd.. so im gonna give u all an assignment each week. >>> how great righhhhtttt. so coz of this im getting more n more stressed.. n i realised sth.. the more stressed i get.. the more i talk to myself n become lame.. or talk bout weird things..
n i seriously cant stand napfa. stupid ipu. juz coz i cant do ipu. argggh.

2007-04-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

got back all the rest of my papers today.

*fast forward*

went for dental after sch.. today's dental was kinda weird? no no.. more of.. different from usual.. coz my teeth moved too fast.. moved too down.. so she has to pull it back up a lil by using that odd tooth as an anchor. but weird thing is she said.. good that my teeth moves fast coz gives her less problems? but she has to do extra to pull it back up? hmm.. contradicting or not? haha.. n then she didnt ask me wad colour i wanted!! she juz said same colour.. boohoo.. but nvm.. next dental 4 weeks time.. n ive upgraded!!! lol. my wire upgraded to the rectangular one..

after dat went to peninsula to meet lcp to buy hr's prez... got to interact alot with lcp during that period.. n learnt alot bout him.. its interesting to find out... he likes to go shopping too!! hahaha.. he finds it happy to go shopping! yay! n he wanted to eat some beer battered fish from chirppy [sth like that..] opp. the raffles city's donut shop with a LONG LONG q. the donuts look tempting... ahhh.. but the smell not too alluring.. then while waiting for his food.. 2 ppl said hi to me.. how interesting.. juz standing there waiting i can meet ppl.. oooo. how cool. anyway.. after eating we went home..

i felt happy shopping.. dats y i love shopping coz it makes me happy. stress relieving. joy promoting..

i realised this post is rather high.. muz b making up for the low-ness i had juz now.

2007-04-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

its only term 2 week 3.. n its already getting tiring.. n everyone is weary.. i c y they say its a big jump from o levels to a levels.. sigh.

well.. its half a year to the actual a levels.. so lets fight on to the end..

but really.. its so demoralising with the long days we have.. n also.. the additional lessons n tests our teachers r giving.. from many long breaks.. we have many lessons? i really need some form of motivation n encouragement..

blocks werent all that fab to tell me.. "c ure not too bad.. u can work at the same amt u did.." wad its telling me instead is.. "u need to work harder than this" oh well. i cant do anything bout blocks now.. i'll have to look forward n try harder.. study more? not that i didnt.. but looking back.. i muz say.. i did put in the effort. the hours of studying.. but the concentration wasnt there.
i'll work at it.. but remb dun fall again.. dun run out. can someone teach me how to not work too hard? lol how contradicting. *shrugs* i guess life's like dat some times..

seriously.. the extra lessons r pulling my spirits down.. i look at my timetable.. think of the sch day.. n i juz sigh.
ahhhhhhhh. i cant b like this. in times like this.. i really muz b leaning on God's strength, hope n power. this i really muz work on..

2007-04-02T19:52:00.000+08:00

fri was life con n yes! our efforts paid off..

life con day was a happy day.. juz worshipping the Lord.. n being super high! ushering was as usual kinda i dunno wad im supposed to do.. but who cares.. seeing all the ppl coming in all excited.. its nice.. n then during the concert we went to the front.. singing/shouting the song.. i dunno which coz theres this speaker right in front of me. towards my left.. suspected i became partially deaf in the left after dat.. but. i was totally fine! yeah..
the concert was awesome! jumping n singing.. forgetting the fact that my ankle is not totally ok? ahha.. it didnt hurt at all. yeahhhh... n listening to the band sing.. esp char.. *mesmerised* but im used to her singing already.. so ehh.. hahah.. but coz of her.... demand curve got shifted to the right.. wahahahaha.. powerrr. ^^
after life con we had supper.. at macs.. coz dat was the only place left to eat. hah.

oh. n eu kept saying wanna go out on sat.. but in the end.. she was too tired.. ahhaha.. myself included.. slept till 11++ heee..

today's pe was 2.4 coz the weather was good.. n then i ran with my juz recovered ankle.. didnt dare run.. 1st round everyone chiong-ed i got a shock.. i was like.. okkkk... n then i didnt plan to take my actual 2.4 today.. so kinda ran slower... after finishing 1 round.. mrkhoo was like.. eh can or not.. run slowly ar.. then 2nd round.. he was like.. eh. actually can leh.. 4min 50s if u try actually can.. i was like.. uh huh. in the end i completed at 15.50 juz nice a C. ahaha.. thank God.. if not C im gonna re-run.. which i dun want to do.. so great.. 2.4 over.. left 5 items.. ahh. the dreaded ipu.

2007-03-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

oh thursday already! meannssss.. tmr is friday! so what right? hahahah.. ok.. im having a self conversation here... yes yes tmr is fri 30 march life concert!!!! oh yay oh yay! all the hardwork will b in place. n we'll c the fruits of our labour! oley ^^

n today.. thurs. 1 victorious moment recorded already! haha... i meant 1 successful easter week program over! ^^ awesome! though i injured my ankle.. danced rather weirdly according to one of my classmates.. made some mistakes.. was slower than the rest.. i worshipped Him with all my heart n soul.. n i enjoyed dancing on stage.. i really missed performing.. somehow after 6 years? of co plus band performances.. i guess i liked that kinda sense of accomplishment after the concert.. n i felt that once again! a month plus of late nite practices.. for a 3 min dance? yup. its done. great. fabulous! ^^ thanks to our dance instructor anna for her coaching. cookies. sweetness. n today's donut! thanks for all the effort u put in ^^

yest. we finally managed to have the fanfare done by the band. for the supposedly opening start for easter week.
sfc time was cca sign up n prayer meeting plus moving of artifacts.. had a good time speaking to mrlimds for like an hour plus? after i juz raised my worry bout my chem results to him.. n i learnt a great deal.. i muz really apply it..

2007-03-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

lots n lots n lots have happened since i last updated.. so much that i can hardly remb..

dance pracs into the evening.. getting back late at night... n then exhausted by fri.. dats gone by so fast for dunno how many weeks on weds n thurs.. now its all ending.. coz the performance is on thurs.....

mugging during the march hols in the various places.. mostly woodlands lib anyway... that has gone by..
n of coz.. the block test 1 is over on fri... n ive already got back 2 papers... maths n phy. how fast eh. n i thank God for my results..

then not resting a moment... was life con rehearsals... on the fri that we finished our papers.. we started our full dress rehearsal on fri.. all the way till late nite... same on sun.. from 1230 till 2230 n back in sch at 0700 on mon?? practicing for dance n prep for all the easter week stuff..

yest. i. erm. hmm.. missed a step when going down the stairs at some peak hour or sth.. coz i managed to jam up the whole stairs n attract alot of attention.. felt so paiseh.. n so i injured my poor ankle.. 1st thot when i fell was.. i wanna dance! its on thurs!!! ya.. so i limped away? luckily not sprain n not serious.. right now its juz a lil swollen.. i'll b fine by thurs!
i still danced for the dance prac in the cc yest.. 2 times only. i think i kinda aggrevated it coz it was really hurting when i went home.. oh.. n i reached home at 2200++ again..

today. i was limping ard. n im finally home earlier. ard 1800? glad to b able to rest my tired ankle..

oh my new timetable is erh. good? in the future.. but bad now.. coz of the afternoon pe from 1630 - 1730 on mon n tues.. n i longgg 2++ hour break b4 that.. hopefully after napfa no need go.. yay.

n yes.. thanks to esp to my sfc friends who totally rock.. [news spread super fast.. all like noe i fell down like dat..] n all so concerned ^^ love them lots.. n of coz those classmates who helped me at the stairs when i fell.. n asked if i was better today ^^

i realised.. as u grow older.. lots of things do happen in ur life.. unexpected. shows how much u shd treasure those around u n remb that life is precious/fragile. pray that things will go back to norm for them asap..

sorry for the disorganised post. n a post almost void of emotions.. i guess im really affected by the news i heard today..

anywayyyy... dance for chapel up reaallll soon! n so is life con. cant wait. it'll b awesome! n i can finally take time n rest good.

tremors in school

2007-03-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

my 1st 'life n death situation'

sounds so serious.. but not thattttt serious la..

as u would have known by now.. there was an earthquake in indonesia, sumatra i think.. magnitude was 6.6 .. n then we felt tremors all around sg.

n my sch was in the areas which felt it.. quite freaky.. but now.. its quite an experience la..
recount...

12++ was eating in canteen with mchlchin n nwl when we felt the table shaking.. we thot one of us shook the table.. n we kinda ignored it.. but it shook for quite some time.. n mchlchin felt dizzy.. almost wanted to say.. lets change table la.. mayb this table unstable.. [haa.. sounds funny now..] then when we finished eating.. suddenly this teacher came over looking really anxious asking us to evacuate this place plus sth else i couldnt hear.. i thot it was some fire drill but i didnt hear the bell.. so my friends n i returned the plates n juz went to the track to assemble..
then saw some friends n asked wad happened n they said got tremor dats y we evacuated.. 1st time i had a real drill...
there was quite a commotion going on.. those who had spa were like. yes! no more spa! lol.
oh n my classmates were in our home room lvl 3.. sleeping.. n felt it shaking n woke up n came down.. n apparently our neighbour class screamed..
after sitting around at the track for some time.. they decided to resume lessons..
but it was a lil difficult to concentrate in class at 1st.. coz everyone was abit excited like dat.. my class guys went... *shakes the table* ahh tremor! quick evacuate! haha..

1++ near 2. our class was having chem test in our class.. then half way thru... i was thinking.. is it shaking? i think i feel it.. then i looked at mrlimds n said.. is it shaking? n he gave this huh? look.. then the rest of the class had some kinda reaction.. n he said.. okok take ur valuables n go out now.. then our class kinda freaked out n hurried out of class.. we were walking towards the track while in the building.. n then our teacher said.. noo! get out of the building quick.. not walk that way! *points to the nearer stairs* n so we kinda ran towards the stairs n walked quickly to the track..
on the way we saw the press.. i was like.. wah so fast.. got press come n cover the news..
this time they made us gather at the field instead... coz they say track near the gallery got shelter.. dangerous.. oh well..
oh.. n apparently it was more violent the 2nd time.. [i couldnt compare coz 1st time ground floor 2nd time 3rd floor] so the principal + teachers decided we cant go back so soon.. muz wait longer..
so while at the field.. the most comical thing that happened was.. ghj asking our ct/maths teacher maths questions! at a time like this?!! lol.. our whole class got a shock.
in the end the principal announced dat we'll b dismissed from school n we should all leave at once n not linger in sch.. then there were announcements.. chem spa students.. juz go up to the lab take ur things n leave immediately no need to finish the experiment. lol.. for those who had phy spa managed to finish it.. so lucky for them.. then volleyball students.. prac is cancelled...
went back to class to take our bags.. n our chem teacher kept asking us to hurry leave if not he cant leave.. haha.. n he told us that actually.. he saw the fans moving juz now.. n those in the canteen saw the lights swinging.. woaahhh.. kinda scary sight..
coz of the massive amount of ppl leaving the school.. the side gate got jammed..

the whole experience was kinda freaky actually.. almost jumped when i felt the shaking in class.. haha.. but i thot it was a valuable lesson. now i'll know wad to do if it happened again.. be calm. [as if i'll b calm.. haha.]

well.. hope those in the immediate areas affected will get relief n help soon..

2007-02-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

hie all!!! no im not MIA. im juz BIA [bz in action ^^]

there was...
CNY eve. where i spent the whole day sweeping n mopping the whole house. im proud of myself ^^ yay!
chu yi-1. bai nian-ing. visiting my dad's side.. n then my mum's.. collecting ang baos n catching up with cousins..
chu er-2. spent the day doing our properous CNY hw given by our dearest teachers......
chu san-3. visited aunt's house. chatted loads w mldlee n showed her the dance i was learning...
chu si-4. back to sch. w 20 min jog to burn fats [from CNY goodies] for pe.. sfc min time n easter dance which is fun n yet draining.. returning home at 2100+
chu wu-5. more sch. dental.. ive upgraded to putting elastic bands.. dance prac was satisfying! we almost finished.. left a lil portion in the instrumental part! yay.. returned at 2200. n continued mugging for econs which i squeeezzeeed time in between breaks to study.
chu liu-6. some more sch. w econs test n the current affairs quiz which i nv ever do well in.. haha... sfc! easter week prep. prayer meet. n fellowship! fei-lou-ship. hehehe.. at ps.. returning home at 2200 again?
chu qi-7. finally! i can rest n sleep. sat is my sleep-catch-up-day plus clean-my-room-day.
chu ba-8. buffet at intercontinental w aunt's family where we ate lots n chatted =)

today its already chu jiu-9. n sch again... ipu. argh.

many things have happened.. n im so caught up in it..
sigh.. i really dun want to b juz so caught up in the world dat i live in.. bz running around doing errands.. but life is like that.. aint it?
well.. sfc has really made me think ~~twice~~lots.. so wad do i want in my life? wads my purpose in life?

2007-02-16T14:12:00.000+08:00

i haven been updating!!!!!! ahhh... coz life has been bzbzbz... no time at all!!!!

i cant remb wads been happening coz its been eventful this year.. weird la.. y this year so many stuff.. or issit like dat?

hmm.. im losing touch with blogging.. mayb i shd juz keep my own personal diary.. coz i wanna keep those memories.. n i can look back to them.. dat'll b nice..

oh yes.. memories.. my bro was clearing stuff n he dug out a pri sch year book.. coz its our pri sch 80th anniversary then or sth.. n theres our pri 5 pic! so funny la!!!! ehhehe.. we all look so.. erm.. i dunno how to describe.. haha..

i'll c bout updating the past next time..

brief of the past:
gp movie day was amusing.. n the movie was not too bad..
vday was shockingly good.. didnt expect certain stuff..
easter dance prac will b killing me soon.. but i noe i can do it.. coz its for Him. im an inexperienced dancer with blue blacks! rahh!
cny celebrations had nice performances

going out later for osj's bday party.. n then cant wait for cny but dreading the reopening coz i foresee myself being exhausted......

2007-02-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

exhausting week. loads of stuff ongoing.. n upcoming! really sleepy eyes.. cant update bout the week...

so im gonna entertain u folks with...

Get your own valentinr

hehe... abit big hor.. hahaha..

xcountry, sfc.. n more sfc!

2007-02-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ok.. past few days have been eventful.. so i shall zoom past the rest of the days..

mon didnt go sch. n had some random call from a pri sch fren whom i nv ever talked to? to go out to talk n eat?? i was like huh? ok.....
so tues after sch went out n got "conned" hahx. hahaha.. but learnt some interesting stuff...

wed was x country.. at ecp run 3.6km.. so mchlchin, nwl n me decided to jog the whole thing.. then we jogged.. n slowly we passed dvdyeo, drl n kvnc... sigh.. slackers.. walk the whole 3.6.. so no face.. haha.. finished the 3.6 without stopping! yay.. feel so accomplished! ^^
after dat we had sfc bonding! played capt ball.. yay fun.. other than falling at the end of the game.. pain! landed on my left hand n left side of butt.. sustaining painful injuries.. painful blueblack.. it was like faint green then... today its... erm.. this colour? actually darker...
after dat some of them went cycling or blading... n i hanged out with those at the blading ring.. n got to cycle awhile coz cy decided he was tired.. n i was having a fun time cycling coz the bike was so smooth! n i bladed coz rchkoh decided to stop.. haha... so fun la..
then i chionged to vj.. hehe.. n sneaked in n chatted to the ppl there n had lunch too! hehe.. those who recognised me.. were like.. ?! y r u here?! yada yada.. super funny.. ahha..
i realised how tired i was when i reached home.. i ran / cycled / bladed for at least 5km in total la..

thurs was yet another tiring day... had the normal sch day... n then stayed back for easter week dance prac.. started at 6!! at diocese centre.. did admin stuff like choosing songs, splitting into 2 groups n arranging dates... i forsee bz bz weeks ahead... then we started prac.. so ballet-ish.. i really cmi!! ahhh.. i cant b graceful la.. n im bad? i think.. muz prac more! n remb the steps..
i reached home so late! for a day with sch the next day.. sigh.. n i was exhausted.. super duper exhausted.. slept like a log. n realised i didnt move at all when i slept!! i found myself waking up in the same position...
oh yes.. i sustained more bruises from the dance prac.. n i was rolling on the floor in the room.. n turned the wrong direction on my giant bruise from wed.. n ahh!!!!! pain! extremely pain la.. sigh..

today had gp presentation! yea.. im over n done with it.. had sfc again.. worship workshop.. interesting n learnt lots of stuff.. highlight for today was.. fei-lou-ship [fellowship] after sfc! went to macs n have dinner... had a long crapping session.. laughing, making lots of noise n juz having fun n enjoying ourselves.. slowly.. grcyew, kvnc n mchlchin left.. n the group of ppl in macs left was lcp, dvdyeo, shnlim, rchkoh, glry, eu n me..
we played truth or ~~dare~~ truth! was fun la.. the rules set was no sensitive issues n no names.. in the end.. i realised.. hahaha.. totally off track liao.. thru dat game.. we got to noe the ppl more.. yay! bonding! ^^
i love sfc! ^^

2007-01-31T22:37:00.000+08:00

ok.. i shall juz use 3 words to describe today.. fun, exhausted n ouch.

the past shall b updated soon or sth.. coz i wanna sleep!!!
kor!!! faster come out of the bath!!! rahhhh.

2007-01-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

my blog is dying. haha. high time i blogged..

well.. mayb ive been getting too tied down with work. sch life. the boring mudane life im so tired of.. really tired.. pls bring me revival!

well last week.. was a bz week? piles of work now? or mayb coz im doing tutorials? haha.. well.. im more hardworking this year la.. so spend lots of time doing sch work? hmmmm...

sfc on wed was orientation! had lots of fun meeting juniors, remembering names, playing games, eating pizza! lol.. sfc on fri was some personality test thing n i found out im a grape! "we gather in bunches!" lol.. the people people.. more than half? of sfc r grapes.. n we had to split into 2 groups.. n there were only 3 oranges? ahha.. poor them..

sat went to unsw asia open house with tsh! ^^ so nice to c her.. the open house wasnt that fantastic.. not many ppl there.. n i pity the 987 djs there.. talking to almost themselves? learnt bout the unsw asia.. wad their strengths r.. the system, sch fees, the foundation year.. the one which alot of ppl go after Os to aust for.. so next time lesser ppl will fly overseas? coz they can do that here? i thot dat was good lo.. n the most interesting one was bout the "exchange programme" they had.. after 1 year in the sg campus.. u can go over to sydney to have 1 or 2 sem in that campus.. so it was quite nice.. but i wun b going there la... dun have the course i want..

sun went mugging with tke. n his frens.. kinda weird.. coz he didnt intro us till like i dunno how long later.. ahhaa..

tues i went mugging with tke again.. n he told me in advance he'll b in formal wear.. i was like.. okay.. can.. i thot.. hmm shirt n pants.. ok. so i was in macs studying alone 1st.. then suddenly this guy with white long sleeved shirt n a black formal jacket n pants came over.. i was like.. *shakes head blink eyes* ?!?! wah.. ur formal really formal leh.. hehe... n we studiedd.. nono.. more like.. i studied.. n he played his laptop? nono correction.. his bro's laptop.. hahaa..

yest's pe was the best i had the whole of this year.. yay! match against 06a05. floorball.. 1st time our class played.. we lost. but we had fun.. n anyway they had pro hockey players.. hehe..
had sfc n we did more interaction... some weird question card thingy.. n my 1st card was.. i wish to marry someone who is... i was like.. no!!!! 2nd card my biggest lie was.. i really cannot remb!!!! mayb i dun wish to.. ahha.. n the 3rd was i cant remb wad.. but anyway that card thingy abit morbid.. alot of die die die.. n negative things.. wonder who made them.. hmm.. n we had this lesson from the book - the book of james..

today after sch we did the sfc board.. was quite ahh! at 1st.. haha.. discussing with the mentors n other sfc ppl.. but it turned out nice in the end! outstanding.. can c from the opposite.. at the staff room side.. so big n clear! whee... n sth weird happened.. hmmm..

kk dats the rounded up bout the past week which made me dying now.. lack of rest, overload of work or sth..

money issues r giving me a headache. ive collected so much class fund n paid for so many things. driving me crazy... dun even dare to collect money from the class now.. i pray that God will give me wisdom on how to collect the money from the class.. n that the class will b understanding..

i also wanna pray for strength to carry on each day cheerful n glorify Your name.. n forget certain things..

n i really wanna thank God for my good results for the tests the weeks b4.. ^^ n juz protecting me each day..

2007-01-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

long time no post.

i guess.. blogging is lost from my world now.. lots of things r lost actually.. ive lost touch with myself. the happy me. i think. at least i feel so.. nvm.. shall not dwell on that..

last week has been the normal hectic jc life. normal school day with mad pe sessions of running 3.2km each time on the 1st 2 pe lessons. n then the chem test which i almost died studying for.. rushing the few days b4..
n of coz my favourite part of sch.. sfc! wed was brainstorming for orientation game for a certain game.. n also some cellgroup leader workshop thingy.. fri was cca walkabout day.. so they had to set up booth.. but i missed it coz of dental.. but i managed to rush back in time to dry run orientation games! whee! fun! anaemia n charades.. quote of that day from lcp our treasurer. during anaemia where we have a name pasted behind our backs n r supposed to ask ppl yes/no questions.. so our dear lcp was asked by kvnchew some question.. n lcp went to his back looked.. wad is a skunk ar? lol! we really spent a good time laughing at that.. celebration of bdae was fun as usual ^^

on sat sfc went to city harvest church for delirious concert. was cool. met up with kyr! ^^ n after service we went for our dinner at changi village.. was a mad bus ride.. lots of bumping.. n someone almost flew out of her seat.. haha.. n dinner was ermm.. a group of ppl staring at the tv.. coz of.. soccer. n the rest chatting... n watching live comedy [shnlim, dvdyeo n rchlkoh eyes not leaving the tv.. n then goal!] thank God the was one non-soccer-watching guy.. hahaa.. or i would think all guys r mad bout soccer.. hahaa.. reached home lateeee. coz we were so far.. i wonder wad time drl reached home..

today was ok. n sad. coz mchlchin sick! booo. haha.. maths test phy test over. n for pe.. we ran 2.4km this time.. phew. n we had a challenge against mrbsoh's class.. hahaha.. captain ball.. our forte lehx. but seems like we abit rusty.. or coz we r 2 man n 1 woman down.. so we had a tie. i wish pe was back to mrdng's time.. games everytime!

time to study for econs test tmr..

1st week only.

2007-01-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

7 days into the year.. n i haven said a single thing here..

happy new year! hahx. abit late.. hmm well 2007 is here.. new year resolutions set.

disciplined in my spiritual life n grow deeper in love with Him
work hard study hard for a levels = no procrastination n doing tutorials
keep fit. = able to do ipu. reg exercises.

well 'o7 will b a bz happening? year.. there'll b the As staring in my face, dentals n the op? n i'll reach one of the stages of life

the 1st week of sch has been rather hectic with not only school work n also sfc stuff like chapel n the jc1 envisioning thing.. n ermm.. the weekend has been a lil mad with me doing 4 maths papers.. n i completed them! yay! thank GOD!! for helping me thru..

oh. did i not mention.. jc 2 is so unlike other years in the education system.. usual 1st day of sch is a rather nothing day.. with no lessons n us asking for intro sessions.. but.. no.. jc 2 u start lessons! ok.. mayb only in sa.. coz other schs like bz with orientation.. for sa only sc in charge. hahx. anyway putting all my complains aside.. n back to the 1st day. the 1st thing mentioned by the higher ups was.. A levels.. each lesson began with.. let us overlook the year.. in this month....... or jc 2 is not a time to slack.... n the likes..
waahhhhhh.. overload of stressing from teachers.. ended up on me going home being overly stressed n depressed.

anyway.. i gtg back to finish my work. [1st weekend.. imagine the rest...]

2006-12-30T16:50:00.000+08:00

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2006-12-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

okies yesterday...

was supposed to meet krn at 1130 to get my necklaces which i bought from her 2nd-hand. but my poor time management made me 20 min late. heee.. paiseh.. when i finally reach tamp interchange n found her.. she talked to me in her usual soft voice n told me theres a guy stalking her.. i was like whatttt?! where! she described n i saw this rather geeky? weird? looking guy. eeks.. n she told me how he followed her from the bus to the interchange n when she went to get her photos.. so freaky..
she was supposed to meet another friend too.. n we moved juz a short distance... n i saw him following.. n when we stood there chatting he was like pacing around. omg. after her friend left.. we tried to lose him by turning around corners.. but he still follow... krn's sis suggested go police post.. but none in the area? then go inside shop he wait outside.. then krn suggested looking for a guy fren working in fila.. so we went into tm.. n he still follow closely behind.. so close la! like 3 steps behind only.. so freaky. i almost wanted to turn around n shout loudly at him asking him to stop following coz tm so crowded.. let everyone noe then mayb he stop.. in the end we went into fila.. but her fren not there.. when we went out.. he disappeared! n we quickly walked off.. phew.

after dat supposed to meet sjy at 1220 at ps.. but coz of wad happened to krn i was late.. n she had to finish her report.. so i asked her to call when she reached... in the mean time... i went shopping alone.. in dobhy xchange.. the shops there not bad.. got some nice shops... oh.. n there r tables there with powerpoints. i thot thats not bad.. can go there n study do hw.. no need to go fast food restaurants where u r forced to buy food. or study in library n constantly get chased away.. n then can bring laptop there somemore coz got powerpoint to plug in.. not bad... shopped around ps..... n found out spotlight also has those beads kinda thing can make jewelry.. n this scrapbook shop.. quite cool lo.. all the scrapbook necessities.. interesting materials there... then decided theres nothing left to do.. so i check the movie timings.. n realised... no the holiday?!!! the timings the day b4 n that day was different!! argh.. so we decided to go to vivo to watch.. with nth to do left.. i went to the mrt there n sat down on the floor deleting msgs.. so ke lian like dat.. lol.

she finally called me at... 1600++ almost died.. so i went down to the mrt to get to the 2nd last door.. n this weird 30+ old man was staring at me when i was walking to the 2nd last door.. really obvious serious staring la.. dunno wads up with him.. walked past him le.. he turn his head n stare.. but i didnt look at him.. then finally the door opened n i went in n sat with sjy.. then i noticed he moved a lil to like look into the train to c me.. so i moved such that the door thing blocks me n he cant c me.. then after dat the train move off le.. he still staring!! wth. mad man. luckily he nv follow in the train n stalk me.. if not i'll freak out..

finally reached vivo n q-ed at the longgg cinema q... thank god it wasnt as long as the other time i saw it.. got our seats at the 2nd row.. boohoo.. but at least we got seats.. it was selling fast la.. then we went to secret recipe to share a cake.. yum. but bad service.. went back to cinema n got our popcorn n watched our movie..the holiday. its comedy romance. bout 2 women who exchanged their homes for 2 weeks for a holiday.. n the romance story in it.. we went in rather early.. n so i looked at the ppl who came in.. n i noticed... most were couples.. felt rather odd.. plus i was sitting next to this rather intimate couple.. *shrugs* anyway.. the show was nice.. had a fun time laughing.. at the end of the movie.... sjy n i noticed the armrest could b lifted up! ahaha.. gv vivo.. really better la.. the gap between seats was wider so ppl can walk thru.. n though 2nd row it wasnt too bad la.. n lastly... couples can sit 'together'.. hahaa..

year ending. hw undone. bleahhx.

2006-12-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

wah so long no updates.. hmm.. well.. kinda bz this week. funny lo. end of year then bz...

tues went with mummy to vivo for shopping.. n i met chtnchin! wow 1st time at vivo go with her.. 2nd time met her! ahhaha.. so qiao.. bought a new pair of jeans n a belt! ^^

wed had 4p class dinner! turnup rate was quite high! almost half!!! coolios.. dinner at changing appetites after a LONG discussion.. hahaha.. indecisive women? nono.. ladies ^^ well dinner was nice.. had cheese the chicken.. chicken with cheese.. duh! n mango sauce n nachos n veg. the ribs was nice! i tried some from wyt n kyr. n their rich mud pie.. cookie monster? issit? after dat took photos.. gave hugs.. i loved our gathering.. met with ppl whom we haven met for long.. n the nice chats..

thurs went out with mummy again for lunch with my aunt.. ate at hard rock cafe. yum!!! eat till so bao.. all coz of the nachos.. sucha big plate!! if u go hard rock cafe... order the nachos only if u have a big group of ppl.. or u dun plan to eat anything after that... visited her house... so grand! after dat went shopping with mummy again.. where i spent a long time at tecman looking at the diff bibles.. so many types n kinds.. thinking of which to get for myself..

shall update bout today tmr.. coz if i think back on today n 'relive' today.. i juz knock out from the tiredness.. so exhausted from my 'exciting day' or so my mum says.. actually quite exciting la..

legs pain n aching from all the walking... jaw pain from talking too much? i think so.. or mayb braces la.. then headache from exhaustion. hehe.. n dunno y face like hot hot one.. hmmmm...

sleep time.

2006-12-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

merry xmas all!!!

sorry didnt like mass msg everyone.. coz... dun have so many free sms u noeee..

anywayy... the past few days have been quite fine..

fri had 06s06 class lunch at marche at suntec.. im quite a noobie at that.. then shared rosti with mchlchin n pizza n crepe with the whole table of ppl.. total of about 15 of us turned up! wow.. not too bad la.. quite fun.. eating chatting.. n ermm.. the photo taking? hahaha.. like tourists..

sat had dinner at cousin's place.. my niece's man yue. full month. had some interesting conversations with my uncles n aunts n cousins..

sun went to church n shopped in squeezy bugis.. n after that went to my aunt's place for dinner! i watched nice movies!!! high school musical!!! n shes the man!! great movies!! go watccchhhh!! hehe.. as usuall im back dated. hahx. n i played with my cute lil baby cousin!! so cute laa.. chubbbbyyy n innocent.. juz so ke ai!!

cant wait for 4p dinner.. hope many turn up! ^^

hws mind cafe outing

2006-12-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

yay finally can load blogger..
hmm.. coz they adding new blogger thing make loading so slow.. oh well i dun have google account.. so i sticking to old blogger..

anyway wanted to update bout yesterday. yup.

yest. had hws gathering.. not bad! almost 1 quarter of the class... got vltn whom i haven met for 5 years!! wow. then tyy, gsx, lsh, ljc, lps, bsm n czn. shd have more de.. sob.. but some ppl ar.. overseas/bz.. sigh

was so fun yesterday.. other than the weird lunch where only i was eating.. n then got eye power... n the weird awkward no talking silence.. n then dunno where to go portions.. haha..

was quite funny when we were in tcc.. lol i mean.. hmm.. ok there was this miscommunication btwn czn n me.. i heard her say she made reservation at mind cafe at the clarke quay one at 1830.. then i was like.. ohh.. so we wait for u in ps? n then we decided to sit n chat somewhere.. n decided tcc.. then we went in.. n we were like thinking what to buy.. n then czn ask eh where r u all.. im at mrt.. i was like.. tcc? she said reservations 1530! ahhaha.. lol! so we chionged out of tcc? hahaha.. so paiseh la..

then in the mind cafe was very fun.. we played a few games there.. czn, lsh, bsm n me shared 1 table.. n we played pictionary which we had lots of fun laughing at.. if only i have the drawings.. ahhaha.. 1 thing which i remb bout bsm's cmi!! hahaha.. strawberry he draw cherry! lol.. then we also played this hand game.. so funny la!! n we kept laughing coz bsm keep dun get the game or coz we did stupid weird hand actions trying to match the one on the card.. n then switching n finally decided cannot do.. hahah.. then also played taboo which wasnt really fun.. too simple.. ez to guess..
then we played our last game as the whole group.. called snorta! its like snap. but different.. challenging n fun.. have to call each other's animal sounds when u c the same card as urs.. so it was funny.. coz u will ehh.. ahh... then start guessing the sound.. haha..

after dat czn, lsh, tyy, lps, bsm n me had dinner at macs n talked bout random stuff like lan gaming n sch.. was fun ^^

though yesterday was rainy like sun n mon.. 3 days of rain non-stop.. it was fun.. walking in the rain.. getting wet n cold.. haha.. n playing the games together.. no worries.. juz a day of fun. ^^

bbq n nssn!

2006-12-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

haa.. so long nv update..

hmm.. lets c.. y ar? hmmm.. too much bleach i guess.. ahhaha.. bleach. nice anime ^^
yes yes im back dated. dadadaaa..

thurs.. there was sfc leader's retreat bbq.. the leaders stayed at the chalet since wed.. so mchlchin, drn, dve n me met at pasir ris mrt to take the feeder bus to aloha loyang.. but.. coz they were late we took a cab down.. n clever leaders didnt wanna ans our call.. so we didnt noe which chalet to go.. ahha.. n we had to wander around..
after that we found them n joined in their discussion.. wahh.. even i feel stress la.. haha..
after the longggg discussion we had bbq which was quite unsuccessful? hahah.. coz of the fire.. fire cant start.. cant bbq.. then we sat around chatting n eating only the cooked food.. in the end had to use the stove to cook sausages n crabsticks.. haha.. n they made potato salad! yay. yummy.. fire only finally started at like 2100+? n the last feeder back to pasir ris was 2215. so we didnt eat much..
in the end we walked to the busstop to take a bus down to hougang n mchlchin to her home.. walking to the busstop was so funny.. hahah.. coz prissy was so afraid of the frogs? haha.. then she'll run off.. so cute la.. thank god that i managed to reach hougang mrt on time.. coz that was the freaking last train!! wahh.. the whole train almost empty.. except for random couples.. i freaked out walking home again..

fri was quite horrible. hahx. dun make this stupid dumb mistake i did ok.. i was supposed to meet sjy at city hall to take a bus down to vj for nssn - not so silent night [really not so silent. hehx.] but coz of something she was super late.. so i told her to go to vj herself.. n i'll meet her there.. i took 36 from esplanade which was totally WRONG!! argghh.. i sat on the bus for 45 min n i returned to suntec!!! *dies* when i looked at the bus route i already thot sth was wrong.. but i was quite frustrated by the fact that sjy was so late.. n my mind wasnt thinking straight.. so instead of a 15 min ride to vj.. i took 1 hour. thanks la.. n i waited for 36 for so long. arggh. poor chrtnchin couldnt pass me the tics... n coz i was so late [i was even later than sjy. argh.] we missed the 1st song. boo.
but nvm. coz i met some of my classmates there.. n we managed to watch the rest of the show too anyway.. the concert was great! chrtnchin played solo!! so cool la.. n the other sax solo was.. woah! ^^ so was the flute one for cant take my eyes off u. the solos' tone quality was so good.. amazing. was nice seeing my dearests on fri - lkh n chrtnchin. ^^v
coz we missed dinner.. sjy n i headed to pp to have something to eat.. after that finally decided to grab sth from 7-11 n have a lil 'picnic' haha.. left pp at 2230? but waited for 31 for quite long..
so coincidental la.. met my neighbour in the bus. hahaha.. he was at the start of the bus.. im at the end.. so tried to wave to him a few times but he didnt notice.. only like after awhile then he aye? *wave* by then i was like.. forget bout waving to him. go down the bus then say.. had a good chat to sjy bout many stuff.. but still we haven had a proper outing!! argh. shes so bz..
walked home with neighbour. 1st time someone other than my family walked me home... LOL! we walked each other home. hehx. no scary walking home night. n from that busstop it aint scary anyway. its the walk from the mrt!

hols ending. time running out. argh. stuff to do..

2006-12-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

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2006-12-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

yest went to yv campfire. as old bird. argh. im young los...

well.. it was fun la.. with all my yv frens.. sjy, lsr, huangli jie - nwl........ too many to mention.. hee.. we had fun.. enjoying the yv goodness again! campfire songs.. yv dance! n of coz.. yv song! whoo!

but felt rather out of place la.. coz didnt go for camp.. n i sorta went alone.. luckily there was timo? haha.. hes kinda cool la.. photographer.. learnt some interesting things from him..

anyway.. we left the sch at 2230.. n i was almost freaked out in the train.. so scared la... coz at cck.. it was like 2300 already.. i was like... die! wad if cant get the last train... nel last train early.. then muz take taxi ar?! aiyoo.. n then so late... i walk home alone!! omg. called my parents.. but nv ans.. i was like.. argghh!!! super scared.. can c dat ppl noe im like scared / worried. argh. then i called sjy.. n she told me last train about 2320. i was like ?!!!!??!! howhowhow!! then luckily someone called me n asked me sth.. n checked the net for the last train.. phew. in time. felt more relief then.. but still.. walking home so late?!
the walk home was rather freaky.. dark.. quiet.. alone.. eeks. was walking rather quickly.. kept noticing my surroundings.. hehx. but i muz say its rather peaceful.. i mean.. i like going home late.. but not dat late la.. juz i like the peaceful darkness.. though quite scary. haahaa.. so contradicting..

doubt i'll ever go home so late alone again.. not safe. hmm..

im singing cycling in the rain

2006-12-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

today went for another doing hol hw session with wyt at boonkeng macs. so dat we can eat the yummy beef kway teow! hmmm.. yum yum.

so i decided to cycle down to boon keng this time.. dun wanna walk.. on the way i noticed something.. ppl who cycle r usually guys! seldom c girls cycling!!! y is that so?! so far.. those dat cycle past me for i dunno how many times.. its all men! guys. esp old men. funny.. y ar?? n so i did look rather weird cycling down to boon keng.. can feel the weird stares on me.. oh well. im atheletic cannot ar?! n i like to cycle cannot ar?! hahaa..

macs was freezing cold.. n regretted not bringing jacket.. after dat.. decided really cannot tahan anymore.. haha.. so i cycled home to get jacket. thank God i did.
doing work there was good.. coz i'll finally get down to do sth.. though i muz say im distracted.. by ppl around esp those with negative externalities. hehx.. by the freezing macs even though i got a jacket.. n by the dirty window.. eeeks.. n oh.. by myself.. keep talking.. heee.
oh n another plus point of being out of home.. i eat proper lunch. n we had our delicious beef kway teow! yummyy.. n wyt found her throat remedy!! liang cha which almost saved her throat.. better than the poison. hehx. ^^

at dunno wad time i noticed the sky was rather dark.. n so i was like.. better go home b4 it rains.. so we set a time.. n we moved off then.
cycled a lil.. was small drizzle.. then raindrops got a bit heavier.. so i decided better wear my jacket in case.... cycle off again further a lil.. n it poured!!! i was like ahhhhhh!!! wet cold! die!!! so faster stopped n took out my umbrella.. n shelthered myself n my bag n pushed my bicycle quickly across coz juz nice green man.. i was so clumpsy with the bicycle n umbrella la.. i bet the drivers were wondering wad on earth is this silly girl doing?
while pushing i was thinking.. arghh. so heavy! muz find somewhere to rest.. i was like.. hdb! but muz cross the road.. n its difficult to cross when im like this.. then i remb the 'abandoned' busstop nearby... so i quickly pushed n made my way there.. but it seemed so far away! omg. argh.. cycling is much faster..
finally i reached the busstop.. stranded there.. i sat there looking at the rain pour down.. n i saw a few other ppl with bicycles too.. [all male again. bah.] n one was doing wad i did.. 1 hand umbrella 1 hand push bicycle.. but dat isnt easy ok.. coz muz control the bicycle to move straight.. n somemore i had my heavy bag in the basket.. n i muz keep it dry.. so i had to like bend down n walk.. then a old man wore a raincoat n cycled past me.. he smiled at me.. n i smiled back too.. coz we were in the same situation.. only thing he didnt mind cycling in the rather heavy rain then.. n a nice lady walked past carrying a few umbrellas asked if i needed help wanted to borrow an umbrella.. i told her i had one too. ^^ haa.. its juz dat its difficult.. so i sat at the busstop reading my book.. praying the rain to stop soon or lighten?
finally rain wasnt dat heavy n i set off with the rain falling on me making me so cold!!! n wet. duh.

some stuff from the above experience.
when u cycle in the rain the raindrops fall straight into ur face n eyes!! pain ar! n i could hardly open my eyes.. so i had to squint n cycle..
being stranded alone in the rain is rather good.. u get time for urself.. to think n ponder bout random stuff which pop into ur head.
being stranded alone in the rain is peaceful. the rhythmic rain falling down is rather therapeautic..
thank God for the jacket! or i would b drawing lots of attention to myself coz i was wearing white. so if i got wet in that white tee......
Thank God for the jacket again!! if not i would b really freezing cold.. coz i was cold even with the jacket..
n once again.. cycling in the rain makes u really cold n wet. ahhaa..

2006-12-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

yes yes. decent post.

been kinda chaotic? bz? yea..

sat.. went out with darling wyt again.. supposedly was bacy outing.. but. sigh.. oh well.. it was fun anyway!!! haha.. we went chinatown. yes.. i can imagine ur look.. wad chinatown?! dat was wad i was thinking.. chinatown to shop? but she says her friend says theres a good place to shop.. so we went down...
queued for the famous yong tau foo which attracted like so many ppl although its not open yet. opens at 1. n we decided to go check out the shops after waiting for some time.. dats when my view changed.. who says theres nth to shop in chinatown!!! hahaa.. got many good shops esp at lvl 3. lvl 2 more of cloth shops? haha.. well theres a wide variety of shops there.. from the good food downstairs.. the superb yong tau foo. lvl 2 n 3.. clothes n accessories shops. bags, shoes, personal care stores, diy bead shops.......... ya.. lots. so well.. its a good place.. juz not airconditioned? haaa.. but theres OG next door.. so well.. take ur pick!
in the end.. wyt bought a tube white black dress n i got my brown berms? hmm.

went over to grandma's place after dat.. met everyone there.. quite good la.. get to sit around n chat.. was laughing quite a bit. haha.. same for the next morn.

today! went to support sfc mate lcp! dj arch! whoots. hahaa.. so cool la.. he is a dj!! so we met at clementi mrt.. shnlim, dvdyeo, euz, mchlchin n me. drl met us later in ngee ann poly.. it was so cool to watch how our dj friend worked.. so serious.. n when he looked up time n time again.. we would like give him thumbs up / jiayou actions. haha.. n he'll give us his wide grin.. oh.. n 1 thing made me extra proud of lcp.. we overheard this guy asking one of the students in charge of the booth. he asked.. hmm.. where is he from? sajc. whoo! hahaa.. so cool la. oh well..
after dat.. wanted to crash kevc's house.. but.. he is at the zoo.. n wun b back so early.. so went went down to orchard for dinner.. n sort of walked around.. hmmm.. hanged out mostly at kino, art friend n better toy store.. we had a great time laughing at stupid jokes/comments during dinner n walking n stuff like dat. haa.. it was fun ^^

2006-12-01T09:36:00.000+08:00

okok update!!

sfc peeps in camp!! ahhh.. i want to go too.. sigh.. last min mummy bz.. cant go overseas~ dahhhh.. so at home now. boo..

anywayyy... i went for dental on tues!! yesh!! no more green teeth. phew.. nv gonna try green.. unless during school days.. n i run out of colours to try.. haha.. so anyway.. dental was good? pain? dunno.. i like my dentist.. ahha.. she always tells me that im doing great! ahha.. yay. oh.. dat day's tightening was painful.. usually i dun feel the pain when she tightens.. but dat day.. was really pain.. funny thing was.. i could eat normally! usually after each dental it'll b so painful i cant exactly eat for like 2 days.. but this time.. really not pain! can eat totally fine!

so which is better? no pain 1st. then dun eat for a few days.. can jian fei. or pain 1st.. eat totally fine.. hmm... oh well i'll pray for the better one..

yesterday! was a nice day! yeah! went to wyt to national library! n we did work! oh finally!!! on the last day of the month!! whoots. yay! im a good girl! whahahhahaha.. so i did maths.. n yes.. we 2 got stuck doing some idiot simple question of mine. haha.. n after dat we really sort of raised our voices n laughed.. haha.. i bet ppl were watching.. haa.. anyways... so we stayed there till 6? did we? n wyt left in between for tuition. the rest was.. random chatting. [its in wyt's blog go c. quite funny.. come to think of wad i said.. hahaha..] n some acting! hahaha.. playing with wyt's phone.. hahaa.. face warp! lol.

anyway.. had a fun time.. hehe.. we shd go out more!!! then i'll do more work. hehe.. n yes.. beef kway teow... ^^

2006-11-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

i didnt mention.. i watched a movie! finally. haha... watched happy feet on fri. with les n marg at tamp mall..

mumble is cute! hehe.. the show was nice.. though i muz say not very.. was more of a ke ai entertaining happy sad show... heart warming ending..

after the show went for dinner... where we had a long chat... ranging form sch to childhood. ahha..

it was nice day out.. ^^

splurging on food..

2006-11-23T19:42:00.000+08:00

oh yay!! today is so fun! happy happy girl! finally went out.. haha.. n now im tired.. hehx. feet pain ar tsh!! hahaha..

so yes.. tsh, lps, lsh n me.. met up at city hall at 11 to go out have a nice lunch n chat. awesome i tell u.. hahaha.. fun fun fun.. so we went ard surveying which place to eat... in the end.. seoul garden the bbq ppl! yumm. $13.55 per person..

so we were the 1st customer there! haha.. n then we got this window sit.. n the sun was coming in.. wanted to change but all reserved... coz got tour ppl come! 1st time i hear la.. tour group eat buffet?? hmm..

anyway.. we were so systematic.. not grab many many big plates filled with food n eat.. but is take small portions.. clear.. take more.. yeah. n we had a fun time trying to cover some unfinished food.. hehee.. n we made our own ice kachang! hahha.. so funny 1st attempt.. quite weird tasting coz we added so many stuff like.. pineapple? raisins? lol. funny.. so we had our 2nd attempt! yay.. success. ^^
n we took pics there.. n we managed to ask the next table to help us take a photo.. yay! finally a proper one! looks so nice la! posh. with esplanade behind.. ahhaa..

then we went to the marina mandrin toilet.. coz the marina sq one was filled n lps n lsh had to go off.. n we took more pics in the toilet. ahha.. the posh toilet.. n pretty pic. hehe..

left tsh n me.. we decided to walk ard.. hehehe.. so nice.. n we took more pics too! haha.. walked ard in marina sq.. didnt shop.. but juz walked n chatted.. talking bout everything.. n oh.. we splurged on ice cream.. yummy.... then off to esplanade to suntec to raffles city n then back to esplanade to take the bus home. hahah.. so we walk loads.. resulting in my tired feet. hehe..

it was a nice day.. yay. send me the pics!!
btw im so full now.. hehehe..

2006-11-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

aiks!!! i went blog surfing!

actually no.. i went down the WHOLE LIST OF MY BLOG LINKS n tagged every single one of them.. that is.. if it still exists.. hahahaha.. n if they have tagboards.. haha.. i wonder how long i took.. i noe i did most last nite.. some this morn.. n the rest juz.. omg.. so many blogs.. almost died tagging.. haha..

n erh.. i feel so guilty too... hehe.. coz some i haven been in for agessss.. yeah.. n its non-existant or.. shifted.. muahahaha.. im a bad friend.. oh well.. at least i finally took an effort.. to tag. leave my blog add.. [some i realised still putting the old one. hee.. *blush*]

n now.. to edit all the links!! sigh. y muz u move / no more blog? ahaah.. nvmmm..

hmm.. i haven started doing work.. n here i m.. doing such wu liao stuff.. issit? oh well..

omg! n i juz remb.. i got some changes down at the com in my room!!! arggh. problems of using 2/more coms. mayb i shd juz stick to 1 com. baaaahhhh
oh no~!!!! i remb now.. still have 06s53 n sfc frens whom i didnt add in my blog list. *faints* i'll add u guys in time to come.. right now.. quit linking. hehx.

2006-11-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

oh yes.. i finally changed skin.. comments? any problems with it? like linking or u cant c.. or i dunno.. what have u..

hmm.. wanted to blog bout the other 2 books i borrowed from the lib.. catching alice. n dog handling. both by clare naylor.. nice books.. i want to borrow her other book.. shd b good too.. n oh yes... she writes it in british style.. which is quite different.. i dun think ive ever read books written by english.. so wasnt used to it.. couldnt really understand at 1st.. but after awhile.. u'll learn to get used to the writing style..

catching alice was about this woman trying to get her life back together after breaking up with her fiance n losing her job.. n then going thru interesting turns in her life.. with rather exciting events which occur.. the book is fun n exciting with parties, jealousy, conflicts..

dog handling. read it after catching alice.. i thot it was a better book.. mayb coz i understood the writer's style.. could understand the book better.. this was also bout a woman who had a breakup.. n was trying to do things she didnt do in the past.. n she met her ex. well sorta ex.. n then she met these 'gay couple'. haha.. who taught her the way to treat a guy so as to win him.. n then the story goes on from there.. its a very fun book to read.. full of ups n downs.. with funny/silly moments..

well both books r in a way love stories.. n more mature.. yups..

shes my next fave writer now. v^^v. hehe

my 1st time dining in sakae. shh. hehe

2006-11-15T09:51:00.000+08:00

yest went out with sjy! after finally handing in the gpf.. phew. no more pw. i shant remind myself of the torture caused by the gpf. so i shant write it here.. the end of pw. yay.

anyways.. we went to sakae sushi! yea.. finally.. to eat the buffet.. yum. full! hahaha.. nono. its super full.. so we learnt how to b smart sakae buffet eaters now.. after our 1st visit.. ahhaha.. hmm... its quite a good deal.. $16.05 after all the pluses. so eat at least 8 plates of sushi each! hahaha.. n ohh.. sjy n i have the same taste! ahaha.. we both like ingiri [i forgot the spelling lol.]. n ohhh. sakae is high tech. use the com to order.. now i sound sua gu. hahaha.. who cares.

n we met tsl in sakae! cool.. after sitting n chatting in sakae for almost the full 3 hours.. 3 - 6. we went out to walk walk.. wasnt exactly shopping.. more of browsing.. hehe.. walked for only about 1 hour.. n i met 3 ppl. coolios.. i didnt noe i would meet ppl at citylink. saw seltoh n nxy in citylink.. n then ysh at marina sq. hmm..

anyways yest was a fun trip. chatting bout everything we missed out on each other. i need more outings. hehe.. [though i muz say. i haven done work. mayb dats wad im supposed to do at home.. but the looks of it.. heheee]

im in the making of new skin. still in the drawing board. i'll work on it!

2006-11-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

since nth much happened the past week.. other than the finishing of OP.. so no new n3s..

decided to do some personality test...

Your brain: 100% interpersonal, 120% visual, 60% verbal, and 120% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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this makes alot of sense.. hehe...

2006-11-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

yay. i juz read finish a book. by nicholas sparks!

lol. ok.. in case u didnt noe.. nicholas sparks is a great author.. tends to write love stories.. hmm.. mayb he only writes love stories.. i dunno.. but so far those ive read is those kind.. n his stories r those touching sad stories where u'll read n then cry alot. okay mayb not alot.. yes for me anyway..

so well.. i took another of his books off shelf at my last visit to the lib.. true believer. its marked romance by the way.
expected to end up like all the other stories ive read.. crying. n thinking y must that happen?! haha.. ya.
but. it was a happy ending! so sweet. so fairy tale like.. aiii. i was beaming after reading it.. haha..

so to those nicholas sparks fans.. anl right? did i remb correctly? anyway.. im sure u'll love this book too.. ahhaa.. no more sad stories. ^^

2 more books to go. b4 17 nov.

2006-11-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

hahaa okay shnlim. here u r. im blogging..

i wanted to do so this morn.. but forgot all about it..

anyway... yesterday was rather fun.

went out for lunch with mum bro aunt n cousin.. at sim. yummyyy.. fish n chips.. nice quiet ambience too.. after that we headed to their house.. n i chatted to my other cousin.. n we had lots of fun laughing at our photos when we were young.. so cute! hehe.. n all our silly actions n conversations when we were young... so cute! lol.

after that went to city hall to meet vj class for awhile.. they were having class dinner! sigh.. nvm sfc also got.. but a lil later.. so i chatted with my xclassmates for awhile.. b4 leaving with mchlchin towards esplanade..
on the way there.. kevc called n asked us to bring dvdyeo to esplanade... sigh.. so we headed backwards.. n finally after waiting we saw dvdyeo with shnlim.. [n according to shnlim he bumped into us?! lol. nvm.]
so 4 of us.. tried to find gluttons bay. hmm.. n when we reached there.. we couldnt find anyone.. haha.. coz kevc, eu n lcp decided to hide behind the trees.. n then hop to another.. lol.. so funny la.. muz remb that scene.. ahhaa..

anyway.. we waited for glr n ch n shirb to come.. n we celebrated her shirb's bdae.. by having a nice dinner! yumm... n then we went to get a tub of ice cream.. lol.. n shared it on the esplanade roof top garden! lol.. sharing lots of jokes.. haha.. it was real funny.. laughing loads.. but regretting eating too much ice cream after that.. lol.. sinful.

took the bus home with shnlim. haha.. n we had a fun time laughing more.. i like it when someone stays nearby.. haha.. coz theres someone to accompany me on the trip home! lol.

roller blading! at ecp

2006-11-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

im a happy girl today!! very very very happy! whoots. haha.. kinda high..

so my prev. post was a good advert! lol. got me beloved frens to say yeah. lets get out. lol.

yups today i went out! haha.. kinda obvious right.. hehx. went out with chrtchin, lkh n surprising tyc! haha.. didnt planned to go with her.. according to chrtchin n lkh.. they met her in sch! ahhaa.. so yay! we headed to ecp!

we planned to go cycling after eating actually... but after our filling lunch at macs.. we decided to go rollerblading though all 4 of us didnt exactly noe how to.. lol.. only lkh n i had some idea how to skate.. haha..

so we had quite a hard time making our way from the shop down to the blading area.. for beginners? or ppl to learn tricks? dunno.. we went there la.. haha..

so i had to regain my confidence of skating.. quite difficult.. but after dat kinda okay.. haha.. fun! so anyway lkh n me taught tyc n chrtchin how to skate! lol.. though i dun think we exactly did.. haha.. but i muz say.. chrtchin!!! u learn fast! hahaa.. not bad los... up n down dat hump.. ahhaha..
oh yes. blading at that ring... interesting encounter.. haha.. there was us.. n this pro guy there trying to master some tricks.. then we were blading.. n then we 4 were like about to move.. n then suddenly he in front.. lol.. n he was like.. oops sorry.. coz he blocking us beginners way.. then we like stuck.. haha.. nvm. so he juz struck a conversation with us.. haha.. said.. eh.. u all from vj right? haa.. n we were like yes. [lol im not. haha who cares] n he said.. oh i was there too.. 5 years ago.. lol. then chats some stuff bout vj.. n he said.. oh btw.. some of ur blades arent tight.. yada. ahha. we were like abit stun tio by him.. coz juz like dat start talking.. haa..
it was fun blading but kinda tiring.. hee.. n poor tyc.. was pulling herself along the bars.. haha.. she fell quite a few times.. hope she is fine now..

then we went off to the beachh.. so relaxing.. ahhhh.. n we did many random stuff.. ahhaha.. we strolled along the sandy beach with out feets in the cool sea water.. with the waves crashing towards us.. haha.. how fun! ahha.. n we splashed the water ard.. n we did excerpts of mass dances.. screamed/shouted to the sea.. played hai dai n cai quan.. n many random stuff like singing random kindergarten songs.. hehx.. n of coz we took pics. hee.. n we also sat at the breakwaters juz enjoying the peacefulness of the beach.. n the cool breeze.. nice.

after dat we headed homeward.. sharing our slurpee talking bout stuff..

i took the bus with chrtchin towards her home.. in the quietness of the evening enjoying each other's company.. with small chats along the way..
arrived at her cosy home.. n got the notes from her.. thanks! n thanks for the dinner too! i love homecooked food.. n the drink was great! refreshing sweet yum! haha.. love it. ^^ n ur baby bro! wahh.. so ke ai! haha.. sucha bundle of joy.. i c y ppl say babies bring life to a home.. haha.. thanks chrtchin again! haha..

oh oh.. n on the bus home. this kind lady told me.. dun read on the bus.. its bad for the eyes.. heee..

lol.. im still kinda high. hee..
awaiting the next outing! hee..
hmmm.. i really love going out eh?

2006-11-01T09:43:00.000+08:00

yest was pw op dry run 2 aka last dry run.

i muz say... my presentation skills aint good.. if i prepare a script all out in front of me.. i'll read. but i'll stutter, stammer n poof. bad. n no eye contact. if i have it in note form.. i'll not know what to say. n there i'll b.. slow n thinking n pausing. seeming like i memorised! gone case again. dahh.

oh well.. this means.. i'll have to practise hard? n pray equally hard n leave it to Him.. 7 nov. afternoon!!! argh. i want morn. sigh.. i can do it!

oh yes. mchlchin came over yest. n we had a nice chat n watched charlie n the choc factory.. though i watched it b4.. but who cares. nth beats having the company of a great friend.

putting pw aside.. hols here.. nth planned?!?!?! wad! how can that be?!! mayb that means i shd start doing hol hw b4 all outings r out! hahaa..

lets c. wad shd i do this hols?
i want to..
go shopping
go play pool!
go kbox-ing! pssst. i got kbox card. hee..
go cycling!
go iceskating!!
go sentosa
go suntanning/basking in the sun. hehx.
go ecp
go watch movie? oh yes.. i still have that free GV tic. *hints*
go jogging? swimming??? -> my slimming plan. hehx. but i prefer cycling. plus eating less? oh! having braces helped me eat much less. lol.

ppl i want to go out with..
tsh, lsh, lps
jy, lsr, dnny
jash
wyt, anl, bee --> bacy.
aml
chrtchin
tyc, hst, lkh
mchlchin
+ ppl like tyy, eli, ghj.. -> ppl i was close with but seemed to have drifted apart. sigh. i still cherish our friendship.. wonder if u do..

gatherings i would like to have..
hws
1a gathering? lol. it'll b fun. but kinda weird.. wonder wad we can do..
6a gathering. esp those who i haven seen for a very long time! like vltt, kyn, kathk...
cedar
1a/2a gathering
3p/4p gathering
band outing!
vj
ooogabooga outing
06s53 outing?
sa
og outing???
06s06 outing again?
sfc outing!
yv outing!

dun think i missed out anything..
tag if u want to go out! ahaha.. or msg me or call me.. msn also can. ahhaha.

reasons to not sleep late.

2006-10-30T10:30:00.000+08:00

reasons y u shd not sleep late. esp when its not work related.

u'll get a throbbing headache
u'll feel sleepy/tired
u'll b awoken in the morn by the noisy renovations next door
u'll get flu. sneezing. sniffing.
u'll regret ur actions last nite. hehx.

of coz.. these r for my case. my point of view..

hmm.. now i feel dumb for doing dat last nite.. sigh. getting addicted to chatting is bad. restrainnnn. n b a good girl. hmm.

2006-10-28T13:02:00.000+08:00

i wanted to update yest. but wasnt in the mood to do so when i finally wanted to blog.. n my room's lousy connection didnt allow me to do so anyway.

anyway.. thurs was the last day of sch for the year. this means dat 2006 is coming to an end!
how time flies.. about 8 months in sa n 2 in vj. how much ive learnt from both.. the new friends i made.. the connections i saw. the growth in Christ ive had.. i learn now.. how God has His wonderful plan for me.. to put me in sa. in sfc. to learn more about him. to give me the books. to show me the ans to many of my ques. thru friends books n of coz His word.

last day of sch.. mchlchin was sick. sigghhhh.. lectures. then. after sch many had cca.. n i didnt go out like wad we usually did back then in cedar. hmm..

since i had nth in mind to do.. n mchlchin was sick. cant get her stuff.. i thot.. might as well.. get her stuff n go over to pass to her.. its convenient anyway..
so after sch dats wad i did.. took the train up to her home.. condos seriously have tight security.. haha.. had to ask her to bring me up. sigh. if only i could go up straight la.. so bad to make her come down to bring me up again.. was really glad to c her well when she came down..
up to her home. i passed to her all her stuff.. n let her copy the notes while i entertained myself with her tv. lol. she has hbo! i also want.. haa.. got movies la.. i watched like a few of part of them there. lol.. n we had lunch together.. n we went home..
oh she told me sth which made me think oh how God worked.. she told me: actually i was sick last nite n wanted to msg u to help me get my stuff n pass it to me today [thurs].. but she didnt want to bother me.. so she didnt. dats when i smiled.. haa.. coz sth told me she was really gonna get sick on thurs. n i had to pass her her stuff.. could b coz wed she was having this bad flu. but i choose to think otherwise..

went out for class steamboat after dat. was rather fun.. playing at the arcade was the best.

yest was dental. somehow.. i dunno y.. i like to vist my dentist! haha.. mayb coz she is very very nice.. haha.. n there'll always b some interesting topic we'll chat about.. i mean. she n the nurse helping out.. haa.. anyway she told me.. next time ur boyfriend muz be at least this kinda standards. lol! my dentist so cute.. but of coz i couldnt laugh with her doing stuff with my braces..
so wad changes this time? new colour of coz! kinda regretted i chose this colour actually.. luckily for 1 month this time.. haha.. now i noe. bright green aint my colour. lol.. but i muz say.. its kinda funky. haha... n then now the top row one change to this thingy called power band if i didnt hear/remb wrongly its to close the gap betweent my teeth.. n push my front teeth down. pain la... this time one so tight.. oh.. n new wire.. thicker one..

after dental went to the national library.. wanted to finish up the series ive been reading.. seriously im so hooked on it.. it really exciting. n heartwarming to also learnt His word thru a story book.. though its Christian based on the end of the world.. i really think all of u shd read it. its called Left Behind by Jerry B Jenkins.. since i was at the national lib i thot might as well get somemore books.. then went ard the shelves looking at the books.. found so many interesting ones la.. lol. then had to decide which to choose.. haha.. its amazing how i used to hate reading.. n now.. love it so much! lol.

after dat i tell u ar.. so dumb la.. i went to the busstop.. sat there n started reading! lol couldnt get my hands off it.. anyway.. i already missed 2 buses coz of the traffic light then i was so engrossed in the book i missed another.. then someone asked for directions.. n i missed again! i was like.. oh man. im so not gonna miss another one.. n thank God i had my books to accompany me.. lol.. then the next one came.. so i stood up but it didnt stop.. i was like.. funny. sat down.. y the bus dun stop for me??? so i continued reading. n it struck me! dun tell me it doesnt stop at this stop.. lol. checked.. n almost died.. dun have. wahhhhh...
the bus stop thing so confusing la.. the right outside the station exit one got both 61 n 133. then at the national lib side.. got 61 no 133! dotss. make me wait there.. if only i didnt have to buy bread.. i would have taken 61 long ago. sigh. have u ever missed 5 buses b4? well i did.

3 hours of sleep = heaviness + weariness + some hyperactivity

2006-10-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

my head is heavy from having only 3 hours of sleep last nite. nonono. i mean this morning. yes. only went to bed at 3.

i woke up today wondering if i slept.. coz it felt like it was sucha a short time.. n the sky looked the same as when i went to sleep.

anyway.. y in the world did i stay up till 3???
lol. coz of my procrastinating nature. sigh. i wasnt like this last time.. erm.. n its getting worst. quick!! rivert to ur old self!
oh yes. coz me lazy pok didnt do my inr during weekend n mon. n slacked till tue.. n then. writer's block [ok not like i have writer's inspiration/writing mood] but u get the point right? anyway i kinda only started work at ard 7pm.. then i freaked out! coz so late. n still got script for today's op. really got stressed up.

n stayed up till those wee hours.. n erm.. kinda said mindless n insensitive words to those who chatted to me online last nite.. im so sorry!! even jy said sth was wrong with me last nite. haha.. the grogginess got into me.. but of coz being my "BEST-est" friend n being very understanding.. we need no explanation... love her for that.

today's op was not too bad though i was really freaking out. nervousness n all.. i managed to survive till my turn. the last group. last speaker. best la. most torturous.. during op.. i was stumbling over my words as usual as i tend to speak too fast for myself due to the pacing of my heartbeat. wadever it is.. dry run 1 is over. i must improve for dry run 2!
one thing i noticed bout myself when im like super nervous.. i tend to smile alot. haa.. i think ppl thot i was mad.. i can like randomly look at someone.. n then smile. lol. nvm.. i juz keep smiling la.. haa.. mayb its a stress/nervousness reliever. lol.

i was really dying by the time it was extra maths lect at the end of the day.. head all heavy. headache. eyes not focusing. brain not processing. the tiredness got to me.

but tiredness has 2 stages for me. lol. either.. groggy not responding dying state. or extra hyper. lol. yes.. to prevent myself from becoming rather lifeless.. my body will respond to keep myself awake.. resulting in me being extra happy. energetic n hyper after maths lecture as i walked with kvnc n lcp to the bus stop..

after dat had to bring jy to geylang east. she dunno how to go. sigh. but i didnt mind.. coz its been quite long since i saw her.. was very nice to catch up.. n share with each other..
at the same time visiting the old folks too. ahh. how nice. but sadly they cant remb me. so long time ago since i last went.. with different hairstyle n braces now too. wad can i say.

alrights.. now my brain n body is functioning on stored energy.. making me super hungry. lol. really need to shut down soon. argh.. but dinner is gonna b ready soon. sigh. when can i get my rest?

2006-10-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

yest today. hmm.. very pw-ish. argh.

anyway.. the fun thing yest was econs! yay. we crapped with missshon n we took photos with our pretty econs teacher who was from cedar! whoots. haa..

n of coz sfc was fun. its always fun 'to be in the salt shaker' yups. ppl of the same kind same interest having lots of fun together! haa.. we had evangelism part 2. n celebrate mrlimcs's bdae! he is 21! lol. then prac-ed for fri.. where we laughed alot.. n had fun doing sunday sch stuff.. haa.. sfc is always filled with fun n laughter.. dats y i love it. n love the ppl tons more. n of coz He. the only reason for our existance..

today wasnt too good. kinda falling ill. irritated throat n cough.. n mchlchin didnt come. boo.

during pe i was feeling cold off n on. luckily i had quite a fun time laughing as i had a good view being the capt catching the ball on the stool. yeah. running n scrambling to catch hold of the tiny softball. haha.. luckily we switched to rugby ball after dat.. coz everything was slow motion with the small ball.. quote: 'small ball small motion. big ball big motion!' haha..

then was dat frustrating wr which i dun wanna mention. though i muz say it wasnt frustrating this time.. im glad we r finished with wr. left op n ir.

sfc once again. love it lots. today really laughed like mad.. haha.. sucha fun time laughing at the jokes created.. but of coz we had our serious moments of rehearsing for tmr. argh tmr. on stage. singing. being scrutinized by all. ahhh. n our fun sunday sch songs? ahha.. wonder wads the atmosphere like tmr..

right now im thinking: my blog is getting stranger day by day with more n more strangers which r confusing me.. coz all use 'stranger'. cant u all b more original?
oh well. i wun b bothered by wad u all have tagged. ive got better things to do in life. n furthermore.. im perfect in God's eyes. so i shant b bothered by wad u all have to say.. u r juz spicing up my tagboard.. thanks.

2006-10-17T18:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. funny thing.. after promos n i feel more tired. haha.. burnt out all my energy? nv sleep enuff? haha.. have been staying up to chat. hehx.

today was kinda fun. yet tiring still..

lets c.. tues is the longest day of the week. sigh. n wad a good day to pon. ahahha.. mayb dat explains y the attendance today. erm.. half of the class? haha.. got to c our overall results today.. hmmm.. muz say im glad? ^^

maths tutorial cancelled coz we didnt bring tutorial.. break 1 hour. so we decided to go play monopoly! after eating.. haha.. we were so high la.. fun! haven played monopoly for ages.. then ME was cancelled too! then we got really high n kope-ed the singapore verson.. coz its so colourful!

13 of us in the sc.. we almost wanted to pon maths lecture.. haha.. but we decided against it.. haa.. in the end i ended up sleeping in lecture.. somewhat la.. coz didnt have notes. sigh.

chem tutorial was so fun! haha.. we had it in the lib.. some discussion room.. coz so lil of us.. then we joked ard with mrlimds.. n prischng thot how come our class only girls.. haha.. n our class so noisy in the room.. they outside studying can hear us. haha..

econs lect. post mortem. bleah.
gp! haha.. mskwee was nice! haha.. made our lesson less torturous.. dats wad she said la.. but i think its bout norm.. so sad.. dats our last lesson with her for the year.

i think small classes r good! haha.. i mean we have more fun. haha.. with the teachers.. more interactive? lol..

after sch helped coloured leaves for sfc thanksgiving board. fun! haa.. i miss days with art! lol..

i think the colouring made me high.. coz my mum said i look happy when i came home today.. haha.. or mayb coz i met my neighbour on my way home today.

oh. theres many coming down with stomach flu - diarrheoa. lets pray dat they'll b healed..

sa open house

2006-10-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

open house.

hmmm.. lets begin with yest prep.
mchlchin n me had to work on the name tags for each of them.. wahhh.. so had to draw think n draw. haha.. almost died! coz had to try to draw the same for everyone! i was like.. omg! coz 1 A4 8 tags.. n then photocopy for the rest.. so i came out with this 'brilliant' plan.. haha.. to trace the sfc thingy on to a paper.. draw with pencil on the opposite side.. n then 'print' it on to the rest. lol. ancient photocopying machine.. but me very clever la.. i go do on coloured paper! cannot photocopy!! ahhh.. so had to get blank paper to trace n photocopy.. wahh.. i draw 16 times la. almost died.. haa..
then after dat had to go macs n do OT. boo. haha.. hand draw everyone's name! muz b honoured okay!! i draw everyone's name u noe...

then today's open house had to reach at 7! omg. to do last min prep. sigh. was kinda high at 1st i muz say.. but very quickly it died down.. haha.. i shant comment on the open house lest someone reads it.. ahhaa.. coz erm. hmm.. nvm.
i so wanted to go vj's but sadly i had to stay n help..
but im glad i stayed n i saw jash! yay. n many many blues. hahaa.. nice standing amongst them.. n erm.. found out something shocking.. gland's sis! haaa..

i want the shoebag! argh.

pw day

2006-10-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

so sorry for venting my anger. didnt mean to a hot headed bitch. if dats wad ure thinking. i noe u too r like damn her la. i noe. i can c. but its u who is the cause of it. so i dun really bother bout wad u think. but im really sorry to others in the class unrelated.

was super pissed.

everytime theres pw.. really boils u noe.. mayb its me. mayb its like dat.

~~i hate doing pw coz it sux. i hate being the leader coz its sux tons more. i hate my group for being soooo cooperative. for letting me do a lot of work. in my point of view.~~

oh well. i shant make a big fuss of it. n let it go. its more tiring to keep a grudge.

sorry to all for letting u c the ugly side of me. lol. n now u guys noe.. so better pay ur class fund... hahaha. joking.

but still dun make me angry.. coz really ive got no such patience. ive got a limit yeah?

on a brighter note.. im going for my vj class's bbq! ^^
yeah

i still want to cut my hair. after all dat shopping. hehx

2006-10-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

past 2 days have been great! ^^

but ive yet to cut my hair coz mummy dearest is bz. or rather.. im equally bz.. ahhaha.. oh wells.. post-promos rox! shopping rox more! n frens who dun pang seh rox too! ahha.

so yes. yest was supposed to b a bacy outing.. but anl pang seh coz of council. wyt pang seh coz of maf. bleah. so no bacy. was part happy part not. coz i wanted to go out so much.. n get stuff.. n coz i could play games at home anyway.. haha..

in the end.. i found dearest chtnchin! who gladly went shopping with me! yay! so we met at city hall.. n went ard shopping at marina square n suntec.. where we had a fun time chatting n walking n stuff.. after walking round.. we found nth? haha.. so we decided to go to orchard. hehx. n we walked for a lil while more till both of us went home.. didnt manage to get anything.. haix.. but we enjoyed each other's company! ^^

but i muz say the haze was terrible.. killed us. hehx. n on fri too.. so horrible. psi 150 yest. killed me.

thank God for today! coz it was all bright n sunny! yay. no haze. ^^

so went to church n went shopping with mummy. yay. love shopping with her coz she'll buy me stuff! oleys. went bugis street shopping today.. was very fruitful! bought stuff! 3 tops n 1 jacket! yeahhh.. jacket was the best buy! ahha.. i shant tell u the price.. haa.. coz it'll make all of u jealous. lol.

i got new clothes.. im a happy girl. hee..

tmr im going shopping again after school. lol. im going crazee over shopping.. haha.. n the best thing bout going shopping tmr is dat.. im going vivocity! yesh! it opened yesterday! ive been looking forward to it opening since i dunno when.. coz its the largest shopping mall in sg. ^^. n its new. hehx. then after shopping with chtnchin there i'll b going for my cousin's wedding.. i like weddings.. hee..

okay this n3 sounds like some shopping fanatic. lol.

this is wad promos do to u.. ahha.. cheap thrills?

2006-10-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

haa.. i think after promos a bit too much time.. c anl's blog the quizzes like quite fun.. so do los..

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere.
You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant.
From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

hmm.. i'll consider dat.. but the thing bout my life is a mostly open book. definitely not me. haha..

Your Candy Heart Says "Cutie Pie"

You always seem to have a hot date, even though you never try to meet anyone.
A total charmer, you have a natural appeal that keeps you in high demand.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: multiple dates with multiple people

Your flirting style: 100% natural

What turns you off: serious relationship talks

Why you're hot: you're totally addicting

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

cutie pie?! haha. dun think dats true..

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

keep in perspective. yeah.

You Are 73% Grown Up, 27% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

haa..

You Are Snow

Magical yet potentially destructive
You are well known as fun to play with
People anticipate your arrival but then are quickly sick of you

You are best known for: your serenity

Your dominant state: reflecting

What Type of Weather Are You?

im fun to play with?! haha.. im like a toy. lol. ppl get sick of me quickly? contradicting la.

You Belong in 1970

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

lol. im older